1000 miles

Don't know why, but the phrase "I'd walk a thousand smiles, just to see you smile" has been going round and round in my head today. I don't think it's song lyrics, although i know vanessa carlton did a song called 1000 miles.

anyway
having a crap week again this week
really could do with sleeping more than i have been
i could really do with not having to deal with everything that seems to have crept up with on me
i could do with just going out for a beer tonight without worrying that i'll upset someone by not going out with them

i've got a really busy weekend ahead and i could just do without having it.
tonight...
i should be out with a girl,
but then i'm also supposed to be out with people from work as a leaving do,
but then i'm also supposed to be out at a mates engagement celebration,
and then there's this other girl who wants to go out tonight and has invited me along,
and finally another mate has said about going out for a beer as well...so i've got myself quintuple booked this evening!
tomorrow...
I've got 3 viewings in the morning for places to move into
a 30th birthday BBQ in the late afternoon/early evening
Sunday...
I've got a picnic

at the moment i don't really want to go to any of them...not 1!

sleep

it's fairly well known that i don't sleep too well from time to time, it's usually around the time when i've got things on my mind and am generally preoccupied with other stuff to think about sleep...
well i'm having a moment like that at the moment, although i'm not 100% sure why i'm having issues, i am none-the-less having issues with sleeping at the moment.
it's rare for me to get to bed before midnight at the moment, but common for me to be up around 7
and when i do get into bed, regardless of how tired i might be, i can never go to sleep straight away...which, let's face it is pretty crap!
at the moment i've been using twitter, facebook and blogger as distractions to not going to sleep, but i've all but exhausted them again at the moment, i need a new distraction!
i know some of the stuff floating in my head is stuff that i can deal with and some of the stuff is things that i can't...
the stuff i can deal with i'm trying to get on and deal with, but it's the other things that usually get to me

see i'm too tired to blog really because i'm not making much sense
bugger
night
Px

so now what...?

when life gives you lemons, you throw the fuckers back and demand a refund!!

I've had a couple of lemons over the last year, be they relationship wise, health wise, job wise...lemons are lemons

but I'm determined to makes things different and although it's a little late to be making new years resolutions, i'm going to make sure that things only get better for the remainder of the year and then on into next year

i've got to get me PMA on again...it's been a while, but it's coming back to me :)

i've missed blogging a bit, but after not doing it for over a year, it's going to take me a while to get back into the swing of it...

at the moment i'm struggling to think what i want to tell people. i think really i should catch everyone up on what has happened, but at the same time i want to just go at it with a new chapter and a clean start on it all

new start is winning out by the way

laters peeps
Px

I'm BACK

Yeah...you read that right...I'm back again

it's been over a year since I last even logged in to my blog account...can you adam and eve it?!

well I think it;s about time I got back into blogging. things have happened and stuff has changed, but Px is really still here and he wants to get things straight!

but for now it's bloody late

so I'm just going to tease you with this news of my imminent return

Laters
Px

swan song

I've not been blogging much for a while now
and although i used to blog loads
i now feel that my blog has out lasted it's usefulness, initially i used the blog to vent and keep my mind clear, but over the years as more and more people have read it i've found it harder and harder to keep things as open and real as i had initially wanted and started censoring things that i was writing. this was not what i wanted to happen with my blogs
as a result this will be my last post. and although i'm not going to close the page down or remove it for a while, there will be no more posts on my part

i'll miss it
but at the same time it's going to be a weight off my mind not having to worry that i've not posted for a long time or that i don't have anything interesting to say...

so to update you on the things i left hanging in the last post

the interview went ok
but they still offered me the job, i'm just finishing my 3rd week of working as a payroll assistant.

the hospital went ok too
although i tried to go back to work on the sunday and nearly passed out behind the bar
and i still have little or no sensation/feeling in my lower lip and jaw, which unfortunately i'm starting to get used to after 5 weeks of not having it :(

linny came over and went again and i'm missing her terribly
especially now that i've got a real job and our times are clashing more and more
although we had a great time
and there are some very funny pictures online at both her blog and on facebook of us enjoying the holiday

speaking of facebook
i'm not leaving it
but i've removed a lot of information from it
and i'm not going to be checking it or using it as much as i have in the past
i will keep an active account there so people can "find me" (not that anyone does anything once they have) and i have contact info for everyone on there
but that's all

love to you all
and i'm sorry
Pete