i know it's been a while since i posted...
just over a week by my count
but that's ok isn't it?
anyway, i've not been up to much this week
mostly work, work and more work
i'm still working on the plan, that's why
the next step is a holiday, so the more i can work the more money i can get in and the closer a holiday becomes :)
i've also been playing far too much guitar hero 2 during my down time
well that and on the PSP when i've been at the hotel
film-wise, i'm waiting for the simpsons movie to come out, and transformers and for someone to go with me to watch harry potter. dvd's i've watched recently include teen wolf (that classic with michael j fox...pure genius) and fantastic four in preparation for watching the second at some point soon (i've been offered a chance to see it with a friend of a friend, but i've not heard from her about it)
book-wise, i finished fear (by jeff abbot) a little while ago, liked it. been reading a book called and penguins stopped play...but i'm not really into it at the moment, so now i've switched to world war z which is about the zombie war...so far it's really good, scarily realistic, it's by the same bloke who wrote the zombie survival guide, which was also scarily realistic...
tune-wise, i've just downloaded the new hayseed dixie album...gotta love the idea of bluegrass/country versions of pretty much everything, including this time the scissor sisters!
ayway, enough with all this, i've got something to say...
today someone special is celebrating her 30th birthday, and i know that it scares the pants off her! so i came up with a little plan to try and make her feel a little better...
this involved me sending her a text message yesterday, faking that i'd be too stupid to remember that her birthday is today...this was done so that i could work out the time difference between us so that when i called her this morning i wouldn't be waking her up.
i then called my network provider to check that i could make international calls, they said i could
so today i set a reminder on my phone for the right time to give her an early morning call to wish her a happy birthday...
so when the alarm went off i called her
only to find that my network hadn't updated my account so i couldn't call her
i phoned them and they said it would take anywhere between an hour and 24 hours...thus i'd miss her birthday
they also said i'd need to turn my phone off so that the update could take place
which i did
i then turned it back on again half hour later and tried her number
while driving
and to my shock it connected...
and the conversation didn't go anything like the way that i'd planned it to
i wanted to sing happy birthday
but instead i stumbled through it, wishing linny a happy birthday and telling her that i hoped that she was feeling a little better and i wished i was there to help her celebrate, it was great to hear her voice again, i'd forgotten how sexy she sounds, even if i did shock her while she was at work...and i hope i didn't get her into trouble for accepting personal calls
anyway, she's getting a lot of love from everyone today
and she deserves it...
Happy Birthday Love!
right, the rest of the week i'll be mostly working
and playing guitar hero (PS2) or burnout (PSP)
laters peeps
Px
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Tuesday, 17 July 2007
Sunday, 17 June 2007
and so it's done
ok well honestly nothing's been done for a while
in fact i've done next to nothing all weekend...and that's just how it should be!
yesterday i went searching for a skateboard, no major reason apart from wanting one and thinking that it would be an easier way of getting round than walking everywhere...yes i am that lazy! but i couldn't find one, i found a shop that sold decks, trucks and wheels and all that, but being the lazy sod that i am i didn't get all the parts
i nearly bought a nintendo Wii...thought it would be fun, but didn't thought that i should save my money, but it's still there in my mind :)
also was debating on getting guitar hero 2 for the PS2 with the guitar thing as well, but once again decided not to...
in the end i bought a drink and a kitkat...lol
last night i was going to stop in with jenfer, watch a film and just chill...which we did, then i went out with chunk, who i've not seen for months and we had a really good night out, i got drunk, but not wasted which is always a bonus. and for the first time in ages i actually just switched off and enjoyed myself
so yeah :)
it's better than it has been
part of my wishes i'd got a wii
part of me wishes i'd got guitar hero
all of me knows that saving money was the sensible option!
btw hi to the peeps sneaking in from facebook...you know who you are :)
and hi to the person from bedfordshire who checks in fairly regularly...
laters peeps
Px
in fact i've done next to nothing all weekend...and that's just how it should be!
yesterday i went searching for a skateboard, no major reason apart from wanting one and thinking that it would be an easier way of getting round than walking everywhere...yes i am that lazy! but i couldn't find one, i found a shop that sold decks, trucks and wheels and all that, but being the lazy sod that i am i didn't get all the parts
i nearly bought a nintendo Wii...thought it would be fun, but didn't thought that i should save my money, but it's still there in my mind :)
also was debating on getting guitar hero 2 for the PS2 with the guitar thing as well, but once again decided not to...
in the end i bought a drink and a kitkat...lol
last night i was going to stop in with jenfer, watch a film and just chill...which we did, then i went out with chunk, who i've not seen for months and we had a really good night out, i got drunk, but not wasted which is always a bonus. and for the first time in ages i actually just switched off and enjoyed myself
so yeah :)
it's better than it has been
part of my wishes i'd got a wii
part of me wishes i'd got guitar hero
all of me knows that saving money was the sensible option!
btw hi to the peeps sneaking in from facebook...you know who you are :)
and hi to the person from bedfordshire who checks in fairly regularly...
laters peeps
Px
Wednesday, 13 June 2007
it's been a week
only a week, but still, surely you'd think i should've said something since last week!
well it seems blogging buddies are dropping like flies this year
not heard anything from becca for a while, fu has just announced he's turning his back on the blog life and switching to facebook, rawbean slipped out earlier, as did steve novak...
oh well, i'll just add them to the list which also includes woja and tochy...people that con't really blog anymore list
an quick update on the car, i've got it back...it's becoming a money pit though, whihc is pissing me off...think i'll just get rid of it when the work has finished...
yeah that's right, i've got it back, but the works not finished yet...
you remember the comment i made about the bonnet blowing open while the bloke from the garage came to get it...well they've got me a bonnet, and it's a different colour to the original! but they have said that they'll re-spray it for me, so that's ok
work is hectic at the moment
i'm not getting enough sleep at the moment
i'm feeling very lonely most of the time
not a lot else to say at the moment
there was a big report on the radio news today about suicide, and that every day 3 men between 18 and 35 kill themselves in the UK each day, it's the main reason for death in this gender/age bracket... can you believe that? i can...i'm in this age bracket and i've contemplated t many times, from wondering what it would feel like and how much it would hurt to do something like slit my wrists to driving my car way too fast and just rolling it or making it hit a wall to wondering if i'd notice myself slipping away if i took an overdose. the general consensus was that men don't feel like they can talk to anyone about their problems and that they put up a mask of being this happy jovial person when others are around. having been there and done that, it's all true. but it also doesn't help when you think about opening up to someone and that person thinks that you're talking rubbish, or is more concerned in relating every thing that you tell them back into being about them and how difficult their life is and all that. or worse still,the person you're opening up to doesn't take it seriously, they eother focus on one thing that they feel is important (in my case the counsellor that i was seeing took her issue with my family, and seemed to think that my relationship to my siblings and the fact that i referred to them all as brothers and sisters when they are only half brothers and half sisters) or, and this can sometimes be worse, they think that your problems are pathetic, petty or trivial (in my case this related back to the last full time job i had and the fact tat i was less than happy in it, the person i spoke to when i tried to open up about it told me that i was being stupid and that it was all in my head and i should get a grip on myself). these reactions will often lead to the depressed person feeling lower than they do already, and will make them even more introverted when it comes to dealing with the problems that they face. it made me feel worse, it also made me feel less and less comfortable with opening up to people about my issues. i've chosen specific people in the past to help me through rough times, some of these people are still in my life now, some thankfully are not. but even now, knowing that there are people out there who are willing to help and are capable of just listening and offering helpful advice, doesn't mean that i'm willing to open up to them...some of them read this blog, they know that i've called them or texted them when i needed to get something off my chest, but others who read this know that this is used as an outlet for me, and that's part of the way i cope with things. but ever increasingly, im finding that i am becoming more introverted with regards to depression and telling people that i've got a problem and that i am asking for help...because i don't want the reactions that i've had from the people that are no longer around or the sympathy that comes my way too
i know it's tmi tuesday again, but i think the whole thing above covers me for this week with regards to the tmi thing...
laters peeps
Px
well it seems blogging buddies are dropping like flies this year
not heard anything from becca for a while, fu has just announced he's turning his back on the blog life and switching to facebook, rawbean slipped out earlier, as did steve novak...
oh well, i'll just add them to the list which also includes woja and tochy...people that con't really blog anymore list
an quick update on the car, i've got it back...it's becoming a money pit though, whihc is pissing me off...think i'll just get rid of it when the work has finished...
yeah that's right, i've got it back, but the works not finished yet...
you remember the comment i made about the bonnet blowing open while the bloke from the garage came to get it...well they've got me a bonnet, and it's a different colour to the original! but they have said that they'll re-spray it for me, so that's ok
work is hectic at the moment
i'm not getting enough sleep at the moment
i'm feeling very lonely most of the time
not a lot else to say at the moment
there was a big report on the radio news today about suicide, and that every day 3 men between 18 and 35 kill themselves in the UK each day, it's the main reason for death in this gender/age bracket... can you believe that? i can...i'm in this age bracket and i've contemplated t many times, from wondering what it would feel like and how much it would hurt to do something like slit my wrists to driving my car way too fast and just rolling it or making it hit a wall to wondering if i'd notice myself slipping away if i took an overdose. the general consensus was that men don't feel like they can talk to anyone about their problems and that they put up a mask of being this happy jovial person when others are around. having been there and done that, it's all true. but it also doesn't help when you think about opening up to someone and that person thinks that you're talking rubbish, or is more concerned in relating every thing that you tell them back into being about them and how difficult their life is and all that. or worse still,the person you're opening up to doesn't take it seriously, they eother focus on one thing that they feel is important (in my case the counsellor that i was seeing took her issue with my family, and seemed to think that my relationship to my siblings and the fact that i referred to them all as brothers and sisters when they are only half brothers and half sisters) or, and this can sometimes be worse, they think that your problems are pathetic, petty or trivial (in my case this related back to the last full time job i had and the fact tat i was less than happy in it, the person i spoke to when i tried to open up about it told me that i was being stupid and that it was all in my head and i should get a grip on myself). these reactions will often lead to the depressed person feeling lower than they do already, and will make them even more introverted when it comes to dealing with the problems that they face. it made me feel worse, it also made me feel less and less comfortable with opening up to people about my issues. i've chosen specific people in the past to help me through rough times, some of these people are still in my life now, some thankfully are not. but even now, knowing that there are people out there who are willing to help and are capable of just listening and offering helpful advice, doesn't mean that i'm willing to open up to them...some of them read this blog, they know that i've called them or texted them when i needed to get something off my chest, but others who read this know that this is used as an outlet for me, and that's part of the way i cope with things. but ever increasingly, im finding that i am becoming more introverted with regards to depression and telling people that i've got a problem and that i am asking for help...because i don't want the reactions that i've had from the people that are no longer around or the sympathy that comes my way too
i know it's tmi tuesday again, but i think the whole thing above covers me for this week with regards to the tmi thing...
laters peeps
Px
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