that's life

i spent a lot of yesterday feeling a bit lost and lonely
i say a bit, i mean quite a bit
like really badly lonely

it's a feeling i get a LOT
and it sucks

anyway
i've no idea what's going on in my life at the moment, there are a few things that i'd really like to get off my chest, but i've not idea when i'm going to get time to sort them out...
at the moment i'm considering giving up working in the pub, it's changed there, and it's not for the better. i still enjoy it to an extent, but it's starting to get me down more and more, part of that is because of the hours that i'm working left right and centre too though, so we'll see.
i'm getting my tongue pierced tomorrow i think (well hopefully)
and i'm getting the latest tattoo finished off in a couple of weeks too :)
there's so many things that i want to do at the moment too, but i'm just struggling to get myself settled and i need to do that before i can think about doing these other things...

it's a bit pants at the moment
i need lots of cuddles
laters
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proof

i'm still alive :)

i've not been about much and i've still not sorted the phone line or anything in the new place, although i'll be dealing with that this week hopefully

went out last night and it got very messy
i got very drunk
it was an awesome night out though
but very very messy

felt it this morning when i got up

anyway work is a bit mental
but it's nice to be working
and on a monday and thursday evening it's nice ot be able to sit at the beach and eat my fish and chips or whatever take away i'm having that night :)
the pub work is going well too

on the pub front i passed the exam i tok about 3 weeks ago which means i can now apply to hold a personal license, which is just another step on the ladder to running a pub :)

still thinking about where i should go on holiday this year...probably end up going someplace in the uk at this rate...and only for the day!

anyway peeps, it's lunch time and i've got to go and mow the lawn for my mum too, so i'll catch up with you all sometime soon i promise
and linny, i've read your email, i'll reply in the week if i get time, but love and hugs are going out to you
laters
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disjointed ramblings

lots of little bits and pieces today i guess

i got one easter egg...that was nice :) not eaten it all yet, in fact i only just started it today
(there's a pic of me and it over at the 365 place)

had to work yesterday even though it was a bank holiday and all of the independent places that i should've delivered to were shut, hell half the other stores weren't prepared for me either! everywhere i went yesterday didn't have any returns, nor did anywhere i was at today either apart from 2 places...

i spent yesterday afternoon on the beach...it was a stoney beach though so i didn't get sand anywhere thankfully :)

keep driving past heathrow airport, it's really making me want a holiday! (suggestions still welcome)

i miss doing the quiz :(
but work takes precedence

i've got that cold again :(
it looks like i'm not going to shake it until hayfever season kicks in with avengence and then i'll be plagued by that too...
dammit!

i move this weekend, i've not even thought about packing anything up, gave the ex some boxes for her to pack my stuff into, think it pissed her off a little that i'm moving and want all my furniture and saucepans and crockery and kitchen stuff and all that...but she knew i'd find someplace eventually and that i'd want it all when i did.

got sent a sound clip of a friend of mine singing a song by paulo nutini last night, it was really good, although she'll hate me for saying that, she's made me promise that i won't play it to anyone. i keep my promises
sorry, i want people to hear it

i bought season 2 of lost the other day (didn't watch it when it was on the tv because the ex couldn't understand it and wanted me to tell her what was going on or change channels all the time) started watching that last night in the hotel (the rooms have all got tv/dvd players :)

also bought myself a PSP yesterday, i had some spare cash sloshing around and though it would be something of a treat and it'll keep me entertained while i'm away for work...which is did this morning while i waited 45 minutes for a shop to open...

apart from being ill again, life isn't doing too badly :)
hope everyone had a great easter
i promise to be over ot everyone's blogs this week if i can...
laters
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sweet release

it's sunday and i've lept really well the last two nights
it's been bliss
and better than that i've managed to go out both nights and have a good time while only having 2 pints...

so friday night i was supposed to be going out with mates from the pub, we were going into abingdon...but at the same time we were starting in abingdon...which is confusing i'm sure.
anyway i've been taking all sorts of tablets to try and ease this cold away, none have really been working much, but it is getting better... so due to this and the fact that i wasn't really in the mood, i drove over and thought that maybe if ihave a few drinks then i'll kip on the sofa again, or i could drive home later. i chose the latter
i got called weak through facebook because i didn't go out all night...which is fair enough, i called the guy weak last weekend for the same reason...lol

then last night i met up with my soon to be housemate and had a drink with her
she's getting very excited at the prospect that we're becoming housemates, and to be honest i'm looking forwad to it too. she's going to help me find a woman by vetting any that i introduce to her, so i think i'm going to add that into the plan!
we also joked about having dinner parties and things like that, you know, generally being civilised and cultured adults...yeah i can hear you all laughing from here...

get this too, i spent 3 hours emptying the loft yesterday, rooting through years and years worth of rubbish, or treasure depending on how you look at it. i found records, vinyl 7", 10" and 12" stuff dating back to the early 60's if not a little older. i found a record player from the same era that i'm dying to fix and see if i can get it working again...think of the money i could make from these things!!!
i also found my old school reports from when i was like 7...how freaky is that? according to one report at the age of 7 i have a reading age of 9 and a half...see i was intellegent at one point!

anyway, seeing as it's sunday, i've got roast dinner today :) and it's not going to be long, so i'm going to sign off in a minute...
just a warning, because this driving job is proper rubbish, it's unlikely that i'll be blogging on a daily basis any more :( and seeing that this week i've agreed to do a stupid amount of cover at the pub as well, i'm not sure when i'll be able to blog...however when i get my new home (under 2 weeks now) and get it up and running and will likely blog whenever i can...

right, hope you're all enjoying your weekend
take care
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Addendum
i forgot to say that even though i'm not going to be blogging every day i will still take a pic of myself every day and post them over on The 365 P(roject)X in bulk when i next can get online

one last thing, i found this on youtube...it was done for comic relief the other week, and because i missed it, i searched youtube for it and now i'm going to share it because it's AWESOME!
enjoy

friday funtimes

ok so its friday
i've done the course
and i've done the first week as a white van man
and in all honesty i can say that the course was by far the more interesting of the pair!

and i've seen the wrong side of 7am more times this week than i'd like to mention...
and i've also seen the wrong side of midnight most nights as well

still it's all for the plan

you remember the plan right?
get job
get house
have holiday
(have abridged the plan slightly and ignored previous plans which had a step 4 which was get woman, this has been put on hold until i've decided that it's time that it should go back on there as i'm having as much trouble as you are keeping up to date with my own whims...)

anyway
i can now check off the first item
and seeing as i shall be moving in just over 2 weeks, i'll soon be checking off the second one as well
once they are out of the way and i've got things settled with the job front (i reckon about a month to six weeks) i'll start thinking about where to go on holiday too...
i'm thinking a return to the states might be good
i'm also thinking about doing something different though, so something like a trekking holiday somewhere hot and where i can do stuff other than get drunk and get sunburnt

anyway i've not had much in the way of interesting things happen to me this week
although at the course yesterday we had a 40 minutes examination at the end of the day, it was one of them multiple guess question papers... i finished in 10 minutes and got up and left much to the shock/horror of other people in the room... i was allowed to, before you all think anything else... anyway hopefully next week i'll find out if i can apply for my personal license (which will legally allow me to sell and authorise the sale of alcohol within a designated premises (which must also have a license)) and from there i'm going to look into getting into the pub trade properly, you know, actually running my own pub
i think i could do that and i'd enjoy it too...

right then peeps
leaving you with this...they're a brit group, some would call them pop, some would call them rock, i'm not going to pigeon hole them, you decide...
this is the feeling with never be lonely
and i'm dedicating it to all of you, with you all out there i know that no matter how bad things seem and no matter how down i get and alone i may feel, deep inside i'm never lonely

take care peeps and have a good weekend :)
laters
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my first day

ok, so yesterday i embarked upon the career of being a white van man
yep, that's right, i'm now a multi drop delivery driver...
sounds exciting doesn't it!

it's not really

anyway yesterday was my first day i was due to spend it as basically a drivers mate with a guy called roger, this was so that i could learn about the paperwork and other such things, that was all.
as me and roger left the depot he got a call because one of the other drivers had called in sick...typical right?
well seeing as i was the only other preson around, i did his run
on my own

i wasn't overly sure where i was supposed to be going, but i had a road map and that was good enough for me
i got to the first drop and clipped a lexus while trying to park up
can you believe it, not only am i on my own, but i've hit an expensive car!
typical right
anyway i was writing a note to say that i'd hit the car and to contact my boss (i'd called him and told him too) when the guy who owned it showed up, he was actually fairly nice about the who situation, considering i'd just busted his light up nicely!
and after all this the first drop was closed anyway!

the rest of the day wasn't too bad, the boss called me just after i'd filled the van up to remind me that they took diesil and not petrol...i'd already worked this one out though, so that was ok, but as i was trying to pay for it (with the fuel card...not my money) it took 3 attempts to get the card to work

last night was quiz night
it was a good laugh, we didn't win anything
i told the girl that i worked the shift with last week that she had to come along, she did and she joined the bar team (not my team unless i'm working) but kept popping round to see me whenever the rounds had finished...she's quite nice :)

still no word on the flat yet, but i've got my fingers crossed, i'll call them later today if i've not heard anything

went to the dentist today again to have another 2 of the fillings done... got one more appointment to go to in a couple of weeks and then i should be all sorted for the time being.
half of my face is numb at the moment and as it's slowly coming round it feels like it's burning and it's really sore :(
still i've been a big brave boy again and all that, i'm conquering my fear slowly
i'll get there in the end :)

right i've got an interview this afternoon, hopefully my face will have come round by then, so i should go and start thinking about what i need to say there.
laters peeps
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ps not in the TMI mood today

ok lodas to report, things that i've been sitting on a while
ok maybe a while is a little bit of an exaggeration
things that i've been sitting on since tuesday...
1.) i have a full time job...the driving one that i was on about yesterday. this is a full time job, that's the important bit. the print shop work isn't full time, and as such wasn't helping things out as much as i'd have liked. however, i'm going to keep doing some work for the print shop on an ad hoc basis because it's fun work and it's not like i can't do it :)
2.) i've found a flat to live in, and although it's a bit on the less desirable side of things, once it's been made a little homely i'm sure it'll be fine. and i've got a flat mate to live there as well, making things a little easier for both of us :)
3.) things on the woman front are as always a little weird, i think that there's a possibility of someone coming along and things will be ok...but we shall see what happens there, i'mnot holding my breath though

so all in all the plan looks to be going ahead :)
wuhoo!!
anyway that's all really, i promise something fun for tomorrow peeps :)
take care
Laters
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problems

interview:
the interview on tuesday went really well, right up to the point where they said that i hadn't got the job. it's cool though, it was an experience.
the presentatoin went well, i've proved to myself that i can do powerpoint and webpages, so that's cool, they even said that my presentation was strong. they also said that i was an obvious leader and that i had very good interactive skills from observing me with the rest of the group. but it all came down to a points system (?) and i hadn't scored enough...and it was very close...
oh well
they are keeping my details on record as they have a few vacancies coming up that they think i might be well suited for...

quiz:
so tango girl is on holiday at the moment, so i managed not to be thinking about that in the evening...
and jenfer came along again so that was cool, but seeing as we both arrived a little too late to be of any real use for the first round, we joined another team to see how we could do, we tied a couple of rounds, but as always we lost out on the tie-breaker, and came second overall so it was the usual performance from us :)
thanks again to linny who tried to help out, but we both got confused by which football this bloke played with...english or american...anyway it's all good :)

home:
i've been asked to move out asap
seeing as i don't have a real job at the moment i might have a few issues with that, but i've emailed a couple of places so hopefully i'll be able to view them soon, and then put down the money for them...fingers crossed i get a real job before i run out of money...we shall have to wait and see though
bit crap really that i need to move so quickly, but it's ok in other ways because i need my space and all that and i guess that this will make me pull my finger out and get things done...

anyway i think that's pretty much all the news i have for the moment
check out the video from yesterday, it made me laugh and reminded me of a "better time" sitting in the back of 'A' level chemistry with woja and other peeps singing this song :)
have a good day peeps
laters
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