whinging wednesday

i thought of this title this morning
when things seemed grim and i struggled to stay awake in the van (think i did drop off at one point...but it was ok, i'm not driving at the moment, i'm learning a new run, so someone else was driving)

but it turns out i've had a pretty good day all in all

there'll be a video at the end...if i remember to post it...which i like

and there's some positive vibes flowing out as well...

anyway reasons to be cheerful
1) it's less than 3 weeks until my holiday :)
2) the non-job called today and the position that they wanted me in has been authorised, although i still don't have a start date, it's a step in the right direction
3) i'm feeling much more chilled out this week
4) non-job want me to go in tomorrow to have a chat about a few things related to the job, this means a sick day for the driving, which in turn means a bit of a lay-in for me :)
5) i won just under £50 at the weekend...cash...that was good
6) i did a shed load of hours at the pub last week, which means that i'll get a pile of cash this week, half of which will be saved and put towards spending money for the holiday
7) my new books arrived yesterday in the post from amazon...a whole day early, shame i'm still reading the last one though, but it does mean that i'll have a new book for the flight
8) at the quiz on monday, although i got a frosty reception at the bar (my ex was working it) everyone else there was pleased to see me, and we won the music round, and we had the overall highest score
9) seeing said ex on monday brought back no memories or bad feelings for me, in fact i was totally fine with it, leading me to believe that she didn't have as much as an effect on me as i apparently had on her
10) (yep that's right...10 reasons why i'm cheerful) this is the 3rd time i've blogged this week and although this is the first original blog, it feels good to get back into the swing of things, i've even got a HNT ready for tomorrow :)

see
i'm positive all over

now
on to the video
this video is from youtube, and is a UK advert for chocolate, cadbury's in fact, and it caused a big stir, it was talked about on the radio and in the papers...
it's really random
and has no obvious bearing on the product
but it's still cool and i like it...

anyway, that's me done for today
take it easy peeps,
laters,
Px

apologies

i've been busy
last weekend i was at a party, so i didn't get a decent chance to blog
it was messy

this week has been really really busy...
but i had a school reunion that i'd organised on friday which was so much fun to see people again, shame that not everyone could make it though, but it was awesome to see the people that were there :)
then last night i hung out with a couple of friends again, both nights were late ones though, friday was 4am, saturday was 5am...

other news, i've got a new job
and basically things are on the up :)
positive Px
can you believe that :)
anyway i've gotta head off to work...
catch up soon, i promise
laters
Px

still life in the old dog yet

i know it's been a while since i posted...
just over a week by my count
but that's ok isn't it?

anyway, i've not been up to much this week
mostly work, work and more work

i'm still working on the plan, that's why
the next step is a holiday, so the more i can work the more money i can get in and the closer a holiday becomes :)

i've also been playing far too much guitar hero 2 during my down time
well that and on the PSP when i've been at the hotel

film-wise, i'm waiting for the simpsons movie to come out, and transformers and for someone to go with me to watch harry potter. dvd's i've watched recently include teen wolf (that classic with michael j fox...pure genius) and fantastic four in preparation for watching the second at some point soon (i've been offered a chance to see it with a friend of a friend, but i've not heard from her about it)

book-wise, i finished fear (by jeff abbot) a little while ago, liked it. been reading a book called and penguins stopped play...but i'm not really into it at the moment, so now i've switched to world war z which is about the zombie war...so far it's really good, scarily realistic, it's by the same bloke who wrote the zombie survival guide, which was also scarily realistic...

tune-wise, i've just downloaded the new hayseed dixie album...gotta love the idea of bluegrass/country versions of pretty much everything, including this time the scissor sisters!

ayway, enough with all this, i've got something to say...
today someone special is celebrating her 30th birthday, and i know that it scares the pants off her! so i came up with a little plan to try and make her feel a little better...
this involved me sending her a text message yesterday, faking that i'd be too stupid to remember that her birthday is today...this was done so that i could work out the time difference between us so that when i called her this morning i wouldn't be waking her up.
i then called my network provider to check that i could make international calls, they said i could
so today i set a reminder on my phone for the right time to give her an early morning call to wish her a happy birthday...
so when the alarm went off i called her
only to find that my network hadn't updated my account so i couldn't call her
i phoned them and they said it would take anywhere between an hour and 24 hours...thus i'd miss her birthday
they also said i'd need to turn my phone off so that the update could take place
which i did
i then turned it back on again half hour later and tried her number
while driving
and to my shock it connected...
and the conversation didn't go anything like the way that i'd planned it to
i wanted to sing happy birthday
but instead i stumbled through it, wishing linny a happy birthday and telling her that i hoped that she was feeling a little better and i wished i was there to help her celebrate, it was great to hear her voice again, i'd forgotten how sexy she sounds, even if i did shock her while she was at work...and i hope i didn't get her into trouble for accepting personal calls
anyway, she's getting a lot of love from everyone today
and she deserves it...

Happy Birthday Love!

right, the rest of the week i'll be mostly working
and playing guitar hero (PS2) or burnout (PSP)
laters peeps
Px

i'll get told off if i don't write this...

ok a little back story
10 months ago i was in an unhealthy relationship, as is always the way, i didn't see this at the time and therefore squandered the following opportunity.
10 months ago i met someone who to this day i think about regularly.
10 months ago i met lindsey (aka linny)
a planned holiday to the UK with her friend and a half arranged attempt for us to meet up while she was here before she left didn't hold much hope for me and her to meet, however we exchanged numbers in the hope that she would be able to arrange things that we could meet up.

things worked out that she'd breeze into oxford for the evening on her way to london. just enough time to meet up and have a pint.

but during the evening i flirted with not only lindsey, but also with her friend. this lead to confusion that wasn't fully resolved until last weekend.
and it wasn't until this past weekend that i broke my silence with regards to my true feeling from that night.

lets break it down
when we sat down i didn't sit next to lindsey, i sat next to her friend, this was partly intentional on my part, it's a lot easier to study a person and take in everything about them when you can look at them.
through the evening i found it hard to take my eyes off lindsey, but i think i was doing a pretty good job of not lingering too long
through the evening we had a good time, so much so that the girls cancelled that night's accomodation in london and favoured a night in oxford (they ended up in a hostel, not ideal as i'm sure lindsey will tell you, i initially suggested a motel saying that i'd come and get them in the morning and make sure that they made it to the station safely) i would've offered space in my own home, but at the time i was in the spare bed because i'd been out and if i got home late and woke up her, then my life would've been hell.
at the end of the evening, when i dropped them off at the hostel, we shared a kiss, first i kissed her friend, then i kissed lindsey. she's said tha ti kissed her longer than i kissed her friend, and at that point she half realised that it was her i'd been interested in. at that time i wanted to kiss her much more passionately, but i refrained because of the relationship that i was in.
since that night i've often thought what it would've been like to kiss her that way.
since that night i've had much deeper thoughts about things
since that night i've found myself a little jealous
since that night we've kept in contact
since that night we both hid things from each other about how we both wanted to kiss passionately that night

that is until this past weekend when it all started innocently in a conversation on MSN
and ended up with my inviting FU to be the best man at our vegas wedding, but only if he gets in the elvis suit. venue set and you'd all be invited and it's down to me to pick a date, i'm thinking late september

now i know that it wasn't serious
but there's a big part of me that does hold on to those memories of that evening and there's a bigger part of me kicking myself for not spilling my guts to her sooner or kissing her that night. there's a part of me that would love to marry lindsey
anywhere
anytime

i hope she now knows how i feel
and i hope that she knows that i love her
laters
Px

and so it's done

ok well honestly nothing's been done for a while
in fact i've done next to nothing all weekend...and that's just how it should be!

yesterday i went searching for a skateboard, no major reason apart from wanting one and thinking that it would be an easier way of getting round than walking everywhere...yes i am that lazy! but i couldn't find one, i found a shop that sold decks, trucks and wheels and all that, but being the lazy sod that i am i didn't get all the parts
i nearly bought a nintendo Wii...thought it would be fun, but didn't thought that i should save my money, but it's still there in my mind :)
also was debating on getting guitar hero 2 for the PS2 with the guitar thing as well, but once again decided not to...
in the end i bought a drink and a kitkat...lol

last night i was going to stop in with jenfer, watch a film and just chill...which we did, then i went out with chunk, who i've not seen for months and we had a really good night out, i got drunk, but not wasted which is always a bonus. and for the first time in ages i actually just switched off and enjoyed myself

so yeah :)
it's better than it has been
part of my wishes i'd got a wii
part of me wishes i'd got guitar hero
all of me knows that saving money was the sensible option!

btw hi to the peeps sneaking in from facebook...you know who you are :)
and hi to the person from bedfordshire who checks in fairly regularly...

laters peeps
Px

disjointed ramblings

lots of little bits and pieces today i guess

i got one easter egg...that was nice :) not eaten it all yet, in fact i only just started it today
(there's a pic of me and it over at the 365 place)

had to work yesterday even though it was a bank holiday and all of the independent places that i should've delivered to were shut, hell half the other stores weren't prepared for me either! everywhere i went yesterday didn't have any returns, nor did anywhere i was at today either apart from 2 places...

i spent yesterday afternoon on the beach...it was a stoney beach though so i didn't get sand anywhere thankfully :)

keep driving past heathrow airport, it's really making me want a holiday! (suggestions still welcome)

i miss doing the quiz :(
but work takes precedence

i've got that cold again :(
it looks like i'm not going to shake it until hayfever season kicks in with avengence and then i'll be plagued by that too...
dammit!

i move this weekend, i've not even thought about packing anything up, gave the ex some boxes for her to pack my stuff into, think it pissed her off a little that i'm moving and want all my furniture and saucepans and crockery and kitchen stuff and all that...but she knew i'd find someplace eventually and that i'd want it all when i did.

got sent a sound clip of a friend of mine singing a song by paulo nutini last night, it was really good, although she'll hate me for saying that, she's made me promise that i won't play it to anyone. i keep my promises
sorry, i want people to hear it

i bought season 2 of lost the other day (didn't watch it when it was on the tv because the ex couldn't understand it and wanted me to tell her what was going on or change channels all the time) started watching that last night in the hotel (the rooms have all got tv/dvd players :)

also bought myself a PSP yesterday, i had some spare cash sloshing around and though it would be something of a treat and it'll keep me entertained while i'm away for work...which is did this morning while i waited 45 minutes for a shop to open...

apart from being ill again, life isn't doing too badly :)
hope everyone had a great easter
i promise to be over ot everyone's blogs this week if i can...
laters
Px

proper hanging...

i went out last night
didn't realise that is was going to be a big night out though...
felt proper hanging this morning when i woke up after under 4 hours sleep because of it
felt fine last night though
but then last night i'd had:
1 pint of guinness
5 bottles of guinness
5 bottles of corona
and 5 shooters
it was a good night :)
and there were LOTS of fit young ladies about too

anyway just to keep you guys informed
i didn't get the flat that i'd put the offer in for (which is fine with me, like i said, it was too small for the money)
i've still not been paid from the print shop, apparently i'll get something on friday (i'll believe that when i see it)
but i'm in a better mood

i worked monday night, which was good, it'll give me a bit extra for next week :)
the quiz was pretty good, still played, even though i was working, but was a member of the bar team, which was me, steffi and sweet...sweet doesn't work there, he's just there all the time!
yesterday i didn't do much at all, apart from go out in the evening
today i went and had a very quick interview for a job that i'll be starting on monday, t's a driving job, and the hours are long, but the work is easy and its full time :)
i've got another interview next week, which will be more normal hours and should be better if i can get it (more money too)

on idea really what to say at the moment, things have been a little weird this week and going out last night has left me with my mind elsewhere
that in mind,
laters peeps
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friday funtime

hey hey peeps
how's it all going with you all?
things with me are not too bad at all
i think i've conquered my fear of the dentist...so life is all good
although my mouth is really sore today (it's not the only bit of my that's sore, but more on that in a minute...)
so i had my 2nd wisdom tooth out yesterday and one of the 5 fillings that i need done. only one because basically i have that many issues with the dentist that i hate going and usually when i need to have work done i have to be sedated...but in trying to get over this i went in yesterday and had the work done without sedation...just the local needle thingy and that's it
and i coped quite well :)
just aches today because of the removal...

anyway, my backside is sore!
now there's a decent reason for this...
i bought myself a new bike, and i rode the 5 miles to work this morning
it felt good, although my arse hurts because i've not been on a bike for about 5 years! and i'm unfit, so the plan is to cycle as often as possible as in attempt to save money and get fit...
all good :)

now at the start of the week i wasn't feeling myself, i was feeling a little blue and i've been a quiet as a result. but, i'm getting through it ok and well i've had this with me all week too, sad i know, but it's kinda made me feel better :) now...
the eagle-eyed of you may have noticed yestrerday that a new link was added to the site...for the 365 P(roject)X which is basically just me joining in with some things that other people are doing. basically i'll be putting up a pick of myself every day that i'll take on that day...it's not like HNT, these are going to solely be portraits, i may have a play with them when i get more into photoshop...but at the moment they're just being taken using my phone

ok finally
song for the weekend
i've had a couple of choices this week, ranging from songs by the monkees (in honour of the above for helping me get through the week to this, which i thought was the most appropriate:

Ok that's me done for the day (i think)

if i don't see your again, have a good weekend peeps

Laters

Px

that's better :)

right
i went off the radar this week a little
but yesterday and friday i did something that i've needed to do for a while
i went out on the lash
i went and got drunk
and it was good

i did it a couple of weeks ago in high wycombe with my mate who's at uni there...
but this weekend was something different, this weekend i was at home and just drank locally...
this weekend it wasn't a big group of people
this weekend is wasn't so much about mixed company
this weekend was all about putting money across the bar and just kicking back.

it started friday, i decided that after finishing early i'd wing into the pub and have a pint before heading home, i actually ended up having 2 before heading home, but that was ok, i went home, didn't have any dinner, chilled out for a while then went back over to the pub to pick up the chef. now this is the same chaf that got sacked from the pub i work at, and i see him a fair amount these days. well we had a couple of pints there and headed back to deadcat for a few more and not having to worry about the car...
a few more became 6 or 7 i think...
i got in at about 3 saturday morning
but more importantly i'd had a good time

saturday i had to get up and be in work for 11 in the morning (pub work)
it was a very slow day, it's the first real sunny weekend so everyone is out in the garden and doing things and not coming to the pub...anyway when i finished i intended to go next door for one pint and then head home.
when i got next door i bumped into a few of the guys that i went out with the other week
one pint became 3
then we moved venues and went back into the pub where i had spent all day working
those 3 got added to
with 5 more
again it was a good night
i crashed out at a mates house on the sofa
got up at about 8 this morning, walked back to the pub because i'd been a good boy and left the car there and drive home

so ive been out a couple of times this weekend and had a very good time
it was a much needed time it has to be said
i was able to switch off and chill

it was all good

anyway, that's what i've been up to this weekend
hope you're all having a good one too :)
laters
Px

hmmm...interesting

ok so i've got less than 2 hours until i'm due at today's interview
i thought it would be for an estate agent...which i guess it kinda is, but not really.
although they are in the property market
it's not local property they sell, it's global!
why am i just finding this out?
i guess i should research things a little earlier than the morning of the interview. still it sounds more interesting now than i first thought, so that's got to be a bonus.

feeling better again today, seems as though i'm feeling better as each day passes...still no idea why i was down the other day, but a weekend of laying around on the sofa does wonders!

mum made a fatal mistake yesterday when she told my sister and nephew that he should be playing on the playstation because it strengthens your eyes...(according to some research that she'd read some place...) so i spent the next couple of hours strengthening my eyes :)

had a call at 1am this morning from a mate that i've not spoken to since xmas, she's invited me to go and be a student for the night at the end of the week...cheap drinks, good friends, i didn't need much convincing about that one. and it gets me out of the area for the day too

quiz tonight looks like i'll be either entering on my own or joining a different team again...but that's all good. jenfer can't make it this week, which is a shame. (if i win sweets i'm not sharing them with you love!)

anyway, i've got to hit the shower and get myself suited and booted for my interview. got another one tomorrow too...the plan is slowly unfolding

laters peeps
Px

you ever had one of those days?

you know the ones...
the ones that no matter how much of a downer things might be around you, you just can't help but be bouyant?
i'm having one of them
today i'm still waiting to hear back from al the interviews and applications from last week, and with every passing minute i can feel the positive vibes seeping away to be replaced with the monotony of yet another dumbass rejection based on me being too experienced or not experienced enough to suit people's expectations. well even though this should be happening...it's not
and i have no idea why
i'm just having one of those days
today i went to speak to some people about getting some advice with regards to having to find someplace to live fairly soon. and they couldn't help me today and i'd have to make an appointment to come back and speak to them when it was more convenient to them...yeah great, no problems...i'm just having an issue that needs advice, but you know what, i'll come back when it suits you!
but you know what, i sat there when i heard this and thought...ok, fair enough
my mum has the week off this week, which is going to hit into my 'net time because she'll want to know why i need to spend so much time online, wasting her electric. but she is at least being civil and letting me get up without her bugging me too much...although this morning she decided that she was going to do some DIY and therefore was banging around a bit, we've also played cards, she whooped me! i wanted to hit the PS2 for a while and have another bash at lego starwars, but that didn't happen, maybe in a bit though.

anyway things are looking up today and i have no clue why, none at all
i'm off to the quiz tonight with jenfer, we're reforming sax and violins i think tonight, which means i won't see much of tango girl, probably a good thing because otherwse it'd just be in my head again...

thought that i might hve to make an emergency appointment with my dentist the other day because i had a bad toothache, but it's gone again today...that's me sticking my head in the sand good and proper. me and dentists do not mix well...i've threatened to bite the current one before, but he's better, much better than the last one i used to see...
he numbed one tooth and then said, "opps! i've just numbed the wrong tooth, it'll be ok though, you shouldn't feel a thing" needless to say he was wrong and he had to stop before i punched him because i'd gone very pale...
that experience didn't sit too well with me, so i tend to avoid the dentist if i can help it

i would say to expect double posts at least this week because i'm working lunchtimes at the pub on a few days, so there'll probably be a pre- and post- work blog session...we shall have to wait and see though

if not there will certainly be some emails flying around i think...

laters peeps
Px