Wednesday, 20 June 2007

i'm sure

there was something really blog worthy that i was going to write today, but i can't for the life of me remember what it was...

bugger

laters
Px

Sunday, 17 June 2007

and so it's done

ok well honestly nothing's been done for a while
in fact i've done next to nothing all weekend...and that's just how it should be!

yesterday i went searching for a skateboard, no major reason apart from wanting one and thinking that it would be an easier way of getting round than walking everywhere...yes i am that lazy! but i couldn't find one, i found a shop that sold decks, trucks and wheels and all that, but being the lazy sod that i am i didn't get all the parts
i nearly bought a nintendo Wii...thought it would be fun, but didn't thought that i should save my money, but it's still there in my mind :)
also was debating on getting guitar hero 2 for the PS2 with the guitar thing as well, but once again decided not to...
in the end i bought a drink and a kitkat...lol

last night i was going to stop in with jenfer, watch a film and just chill...which we did, then i went out with chunk, who i've not seen for months and we had a really good night out, i got drunk, but not wasted which is always a bonus. and for the first time in ages i actually just switched off and enjoyed myself

so yeah :)
it's better than it has been
part of my wishes i'd got a wii
part of me wishes i'd got guitar hero
all of me knows that saving money was the sensible option!

btw hi to the peeps sneaking in from facebook...you know who you are :)
and hi to the person from bedfordshire who checks in fairly regularly...

laters peeps
Px

Thursday, 14 June 2007

HNT 2fer

ok so i've been kinda promising for a while to show off my new ink and my new piercing...
well seeing as i can't show off both in one pic i'm putting up 2 pics today...
first we have the new ink...
you all remember the fire around the right ankle, yeah? (what do you mean no?...shame on you...oh well it's in this shot too...) well recently (about 6 weeks ago) i added waves to my left ankle and this is the result:
and second we have the new tongue piercing
people keep asking why?
if you have to ask, then you really shouldn't want to know the answer because you're just to innocent... ;)

anyway...HHNT peeps
take it easy
and thanks to those who felt the need to leave a message or get in touch as a result of the previous post...honestly i'm ok, i just needed the space to let it out (if you don't know what i mean, then you really should go and have a read, it's about a serious topic and it would mean a lot to me if you could all just pop along to the next post and take a look, it might help you understand what someone you know is going through)
laters peeps
Px

Wednesday, 13 June 2007

it's been a week

only a week, but still, surely you'd think i should've said something since last week!

well it seems blogging buddies are dropping like flies this year
not heard anything from becca for a while, fu has just announced he's turning his back on the blog life and switching to facebook, rawbean slipped out earlier, as did steve novak...
oh well, i'll just add them to the list which also includes woja and tochy...people that con't really blog anymore list

an quick update on the car, i've got it back...it's becoming a money pit though, whihc is pissing me off...think i'll just get rid of it when the work has finished...
yeah that's right, i've got it back, but the works not finished yet...
you remember the comment i made about the bonnet blowing open while the bloke from the garage came to get it...well they've got me a bonnet, and it's a different colour to the original! but they have said that they'll re-spray it for me, so that's ok

work is hectic at the moment

i'm not getting enough sleep at the moment

i'm feeling very lonely most of the time

not a lot else to say at the moment

there was a big report on the radio news today about suicide, and that every day 3 men between 18 and 35 kill themselves in the UK each day, it's the main reason for death in this gender/age bracket... can you believe that? i can...i'm in this age bracket and i've contemplated t many times, from wondering what it would feel like and how much it would hurt to do something like slit my wrists to driving my car way too fast and just rolling it or making it hit a wall to wondering if i'd notice myself slipping away if i took an overdose. the general consensus was that men don't feel like they can talk to anyone about their problems and that they put up a mask of being this happy jovial person when others are around. having been there and done that, it's all true. but it also doesn't help when you think about opening up to someone and that person thinks that you're talking rubbish, or is more concerned in relating every thing that you tell them back into being about them and how difficult their life is and all that. or worse still,the person you're opening up to doesn't take it seriously, they eother focus on one thing that they feel is important (in my case the counsellor that i was seeing took her issue with my family, and seemed to think that my relationship to my siblings and the fact that i referred to them all as brothers and sisters when they are only half brothers and half sisters) or, and this can sometimes be worse, they think that your problems are pathetic, petty or trivial (in my case this related back to the last full time job i had and the fact tat i was less than happy in it, the person i spoke to when i tried to open up about it told me that i was being stupid and that it was all in my head and i should get a grip on myself). these reactions will often lead to the depressed person feeling lower than they do already, and will make them even more introverted when it comes to dealing with the problems that they face. it made me feel worse, it also made me feel less and less comfortable with opening up to people about my issues. i've chosen specific people in the past to help me through rough times, some of these people are still in my life now, some thankfully are not. but even now, knowing that there are people out there who are willing to help and are capable of just listening and offering helpful advice, doesn't mean that i'm willing to open up to them...some of them read this blog, they know that i've called them or texted them when i needed to get something off my chest, but others who read this know that this is used as an outlet for me, and that's part of the way i cope with things. but ever increasingly, im finding that i am becoming more introverted with regards to depression and telling people that i've got a problem and that i am asking for help...because i don't want the reactions that i've had from the people that are no longer around or the sympathy that comes my way too

i know it's tmi tuesday again, but i think the whole thing above covers me for this week with regards to the tmi thing...

laters peeps
Px

Tuesday, 5 June 2007

oi!

ok first things first...the image of me in the previous post (my HNT) is NOT my ass/fanny/behind/hinney/butt/arse/backside/bum...it's the crook of my elbow...
it just goes to show that you people are all a little pervy!!!

not doing too great at the moment
in fact i'm really pissed off with a lot of things
my car...not only have i spent over £1000 in the past month trying to get it sorted, but now the battery is completely flat and the alternator is buggered...i broke down twice today trying to get home from work...a journey that is only about 5 miles...if that. the battery was so flat that i couldn't even put on my hazard warning lights...
i am truly pissed off with the fucking machine
so this leads me to my next thing to be pissed off with...
i go back to my mum's to collect my bike, thinking that in the meantime i can use this to get me around...only to find the fucking thing has a puncture...how fucking typical is that?
bastard thing
i'm pissed off with the traffic warden who gave me a ticket this morning for being parked in a taxi rank but let 3 other vehicles off for delivering to shops in a pedestrianised zone out of the regulated hours (i.e. after 10am), in fairness i shouldn't have parked in the taxi rank and paid the ticket without worrying about it
i'm pissed off with my job and working all the hours that which ever god i've pissed off this time is sending...at last count i'm averaging 70 hours a week, at least 2 nights a week i get about 5 hours sleep before i'm up again and struggling to get ready for the next job. factor into this that i'm away with work 2 nights a week too, i rarely spent anytime at my home...and pretty much the only time i see my housemate is during our weekly salsa class...yes i am finally learning to dance the salsa, no it's not the tango that i thought i might be learning at the start of the year, no it's not with tango girl, yes i've not mentioned her in a while, no i'm not interested there anymore

there's a shit load of other little things that are pissing me off no end too...but they're all trivial little things, like the people who drive along in the middle lane of the motorway all the time, regardless of the fact that they're not overtaking anything and refuse to move across into the outside lane (fast lane) when i want to pull out to overtake something in my van, even though that lane is clear

generally not having a good time at the moment
would love dearly to just run away
far away
but i can't
i have responsibilities

by the way, i've been tagged in a couple of pics on facebook (for those of you with it) they're pics of me with jay and silent bob...my dragons, not the kevin smith creations...so you can see them up there.

whinge over
laters
Px

Thursday, 31 May 2007

HNT?

ok i'm trying to get a HNT up for you guys, technically it's thursday here, but i'm not able to get anything on Os's site to say that i'm up because comments are disabled over there to prevent early HNTer's getting in and posting...trouble is i won't be around tomorrow to tell everyone that i'm up either...oh well we'll just have to wing it
this is my HNT for this week...i guess you're all expecting a pic of the tongue or the new tattoo...but alas that's not to be just yet
but i'm giving you this instead
enjoy
and HHNT peeps
Px

Tuesday, 29 May 2007

TMI...the return

ok it's tuesday, it's a late TMI
but i'm back and i said i'd TMI when i came back...so here is!!

1. When you orgasm, do you hold your breath?
i've no idea...it's not something that i can ever remember...
2. Have you ever had sex or played around with a celebrity?
nope...although there's a few that i wouldn' mind fooling around with ;)
3. Do you think prostitution should be legal? Why or why not?
prostitution...i think it should be decriminalised and that way you're going to get some form of control over the situation, people are always going to pay for sex, the government may as well get some of it and tax us less...
4. How do you masturbate? Do you romance yourself? Get straight to the point? Read erotic material?
i masturbate with my hand...do i romance myself? no i'm a bloke...romance is something that other people do...
5. Which gives you the most pleasure - intercourse, masturbating for/with your partner, being masturbated by your partner.
i'd have to plump for intercourse (too sterile)..i like fucking
Bonus (as in optional): Have you ever had a crush on a relative?
i had an attractive cousin...but that's it

TMI is done
sorry peeps
and i did it, i got my tongue pierced yesterday
and thanks for the cyber hugs the last couple of days...much needed
laters
Px

Sunday, 27 May 2007

that's life

i spent a lot of yesterday feeling a bit lost and lonely
i say a bit, i mean quite a bit
like really badly lonely

it's a feeling i get a LOT
and it sucks

anyway
i've no idea what's going on in my life at the moment, there are a few things that i'd really like to get off my chest, but i've not idea when i'm going to get time to sort them out...
at the moment i'm considering giving up working in the pub, it's changed there, and it's not for the better. i still enjoy it to an extent, but it's starting to get me down more and more, part of that is because of the hours that i'm working left right and centre too though, so we'll see.
i'm getting my tongue pierced tomorrow i think (well hopefully)
and i'm getting the latest tattoo finished off in a couple of weeks too :)
there's so many things that i want to do at the moment too, but i'm just struggling to get myself settled and i need to do that before i can think about doing these other things...

it's a bit pants at the moment
i need lots of cuddles
laters
Px

Saturday, 26 May 2007

GET IN

yes
yes
it's me

i have finally got my internet hooked up at home
and you know what that means :)

i'll be blogging more often again

i'll be bugging you all again

and i can HNT and TMI again

and basically i'm BACK!!!

so soon i'll be able to show you all about the flat, jay and silent bob, and my new inkwork :)
and everything dull thing else that has been happening in my life

you know it's worth it
anyway i'm going to go and read the most recent posts from you all
cathc up soon
Px

Sunday, 13 May 2007

still alive

hey peeps
just so you know i'm still here
have been so stupidly busy the last week or so
so much to tell you all, but i'm holding on somethings for a little while longer, all will be revealed soon enough though ;)
just called the ISP up about moving home again, i'm hoping that this should all be sorted within the next couple of weeks so that i can get back into all my blogging, TMI and HNT as well. and not forgetting the 365 P(roject)X thing which i've not updated for a while.
once i'm back and alive i promise to swing by all your sites and read back through everything that's been going on
hope everyone's all ok
take care
Px

Sunday, 29 April 2007

here be dragons

ok just a mini update to show you the new additions to my family

ok so you remember last year when i got that cheap vivarium with the intention of buying a snake to live in it...well i changed my mind on the snake, but yesterday i found a use for it and i bought myself a pair of baby bearded dragons, at the moment they're about the size of my thumb (plus tail) but they should get bigger (up to about 20" max). they were going to be called errol and winston, but after having a bit of a kevin smith marathon yesterday they've been christened Jay and Silent Bob :) that's jay in the pic

laters peeps

Px

Sunday, 22 April 2007

proof

i'm still alive :)

i've not been about much and i've still not sorted the phone line or anything in the new place, although i'll be dealing with that this week hopefully

went out last night and it got very messy
i got very drunk
it was an awesome night out though
but very very messy

felt it this morning when i got up

anyway work is a bit mental
but it's nice to be working
and on a monday and thursday evening it's nice ot be able to sit at the beach and eat my fish and chips or whatever take away i'm having that night :)
the pub work is going well too

on the pub front i passed the exam i tok about 3 weeks ago which means i can now apply to hold a personal license, which is just another step on the ladder to running a pub :)

still thinking about where i should go on holiday this year...probably end up going someplace in the uk at this rate...and only for the day!

anyway peeps, it's lunch time and i've got to go and mow the lawn for my mum too, so i'll catch up with you all sometime soon i promise
and linny, i've read your email, i'll reply in the week if i get time, but love and hugs are going out to you
laters
Px

Monday, 16 April 2007

get this!

i've moved :)

it was made difficult by someone who was just being a pain in the ass for the sake of it i think, but i've moved into my new flat with jenfer :)

so i've almost got my bedroom sorted, then it's the living room to be tackled next...should be ok though

missing a few things, like a freezer and a sofa and chairs, but i'll be searching for them in the coming days/weeks and soon i'll have a place to be jealous of :)

anywaythat's about all i've got time to update at the moment, might be back tomorrow, but we'll have to see, i've got to go to the dentist again tomorrow, should be the last visit for a while though :)

laters peeps
Px

Wednesday, 11 April 2007

i'm not fat, but...

it would appear that i hulked out of my jeans earlier :(

bugger! (and that's pocket, not pants!)

laters peeps :)

Px

Tuesday, 10 April 2007

disjointed ramblings

lots of little bits and pieces today i guess

i got one easter egg...that was nice :) not eaten it all yet, in fact i only just started it today
(there's a pic of me and it over at the 365 place)

had to work yesterday even though it was a bank holiday and all of the independent places that i should've delivered to were shut, hell half the other stores weren't prepared for me either! everywhere i went yesterday didn't have any returns, nor did anywhere i was at today either apart from 2 places...

i spent yesterday afternoon on the beach...it was a stoney beach though so i didn't get sand anywhere thankfully :)

keep driving past heathrow airport, it's really making me want a holiday! (suggestions still welcome)

i miss doing the quiz :(
but work takes precedence

i've got that cold again :(
it looks like i'm not going to shake it until hayfever season kicks in with avengence and then i'll be plagued by that too...
dammit!

i move this weekend, i've not even thought about packing anything up, gave the ex some boxes for her to pack my stuff into, think it pissed her off a little that i'm moving and want all my furniture and saucepans and crockery and kitchen stuff and all that...but she knew i'd find someplace eventually and that i'd want it all when i did.

got sent a sound clip of a friend of mine singing a song by paulo nutini last night, it was really good, although she'll hate me for saying that, she's made me promise that i won't play it to anyone. i keep my promises
sorry, i want people to hear it

i bought season 2 of lost the other day (didn't watch it when it was on the tv because the ex couldn't understand it and wanted me to tell her what was going on or change channels all the time) started watching that last night in the hotel (the rooms have all got tv/dvd players :)

also bought myself a PSP yesterday, i had some spare cash sloshing around and though it would be something of a treat and it'll keep me entertained while i'm away for work...which is did this morning while i waited 45 minutes for a shop to open...

apart from being ill again, life isn't doing too badly :)
hope everyone had a great easter
i promise to be over ot everyone's blogs this week if i can...
laters
Px

Friday, 6 April 2007

good friday good times

today i slept in and it was good
yesterday i worked from 5am to 9pm behind the wheel all day
things have been a bit mental this week what with working 2 jobs!

anyway, it's good friday which means that i've got the day off
so i'm going to head out on my bike this afternoon :)

right...i'm sure there's loads of things i've got to up date everyone on, but i can't remember anything for it :(
ok the lack of HNT was made up for, i did actually HNT over on the HNT anon site...PLEASE don't comment mentioning my name as it's the ANONYMOUS site...you must also note that this is a NSFW page...you were warned!

ok seeing as it's friday i'm giving you a massive tune this week, this has been getting a shed load of airtime over the last couple of weeks and it's awesome!
it's also a brilliant commentary on life...just push play and give it a listen, seriously it's worth it!
enjoy :)
i give you "thou shalt always kill" by dan le sac vs scroobius pip

right it's nice and sunny here, so i'm going to head off and enjoy the long weekend.
have a good easter peeps
catch up with you all soon :)
laters
Px

Wednesday, 4 April 2007

the weird czech guy

he sat there the other day eating a green pepper (capsicum/bell pepper) like it was an apple...

he was weird

anyway i went out today on my own again and it's odd...when i'm on my own in the van things are ok
all except for the stupid satnav...which today said i was off-roading (in a van, doing 60mph)
don't you just love it when people don't update things for you?

anyway, i heard back from the job interview i had last week, they chose someone with more accounts experience...fair do's, i don't mind
i spoke to the landlord yesterday, he got rid ot the new chef at the weekend, and i told him that seeing as i was seriously considering getting into the trade a lot more i was interested in the chef's position...he's waiting to hear back from someone else first, but thinks i could do it easily... i'll keep you posted on that

hi to anyone who's ventured over from facebook, leave a comment!

i'm not going to be able to HNT tomorrow, until late in the day...although there's a chance that i might appear on a different site in true HNT fashion...more on that later too

right i'm shattered, but i need to jump in the shower and get my butt in gear as i'm at the pub again tonight...all this work, and all i'm thinking about now is the money...give it to me!
dammit now!

anyway, i'm off to get clean and fresh
laters peeps, take care
Px

PS i'm still open to suggestions for holiday destinations...although i have an idea that might work...more on that too later...

Tuesday, 3 April 2007

tmi time

ok so i'm back from my over night trip, lets just say it was more than a little pointless and very boring
i so how that i can get a real job sooner rather than later as this one is shit

anyway it's tmi time
so here we go
1. What is your middle name?
Biblical as my parents are and i'm not, i'm named after 2 saints, peter for my first name, john for my middle name
2. Where do you keep your toys? In your nightstand?
I assume we're not talking meccano...
actually i don't have any toys of that nature, i had an ex who did though, her's were kept under the bed
3. How many toys do you have? List them! (links & pictures are nice, too!) =P
again, no toys of that nature, i'm a gadget freak though...but not in a sexual way
4. Are you a swinger? Ever wanted to be?
no, and not really...it's just somehting that's never really appealled to me...
5. When should parents sit children down for the "birds & bees" talk?
whenever they feel that it's appropriate, i know that i started asking awkward questions when i was very young (5 or 6) but never really had the talk until i was 11 or 12

there you go, a harmless TMI this week
anyway i'm working in the pub in about half hour so i'd better head off
i think the next time that i'm going to be able to give you a proper update is going to be thursday...but that depends too
laters peeps
Px

PS i'm thinking it'll soon be time to decide where i should go on holiday so i'm looking for suggestions peeps...

Sunday, 1 April 2007

sweet release

it's sunday and i've lept really well the last two nights
it's been bliss
and better than that i've managed to go out both nights and have a good time while only having 2 pints...

so friday night i was supposed to be going out with mates from the pub, we were going into abingdon...but at the same time we were starting in abingdon...which is confusing i'm sure.
anyway i've been taking all sorts of tablets to try and ease this cold away, none have really been working much, but it is getting better... so due to this and the fact that i wasn't really in the mood, i drove over and thought that maybe if ihave a few drinks then i'll kip on the sofa again, or i could drive home later. i chose the latter
i got called weak through facebook because i didn't go out all night...which is fair enough, i called the guy weak last weekend for the same reason...lol

then last night i met up with my soon to be housemate and had a drink with her
she's getting very excited at the prospect that we're becoming housemates, and to be honest i'm looking forwad to it too. she's going to help me find a woman by vetting any that i introduce to her, so i think i'm going to add that into the plan!
we also joked about having dinner parties and things like that, you know, generally being civilised and cultured adults...yeah i can hear you all laughing from here...

get this too, i spent 3 hours emptying the loft yesterday, rooting through years and years worth of rubbish, or treasure depending on how you look at it. i found records, vinyl 7", 10" and 12" stuff dating back to the early 60's if not a little older. i found a record player from the same era that i'm dying to fix and see if i can get it working again...think of the money i could make from these things!!!
i also found my old school reports from when i was like 7...how freaky is that? according to one report at the age of 7 i have a reading age of 9 and a half...see i was intellegent at one point!

anyway, seeing as it's sunday, i've got roast dinner today :) and it's not going to be long, so i'm going to sign off in a minute...
just a warning, because this driving job is proper rubbish, it's unlikely that i'll be blogging on a daily basis any more :( and seeing that this week i've agreed to do a stupid amount of cover at the pub as well, i'm not sure when i'll be able to blog...however when i get my new home (under 2 weeks now) and get it up and running and will likely blog whenever i can...

right, hope you're all enjoying your weekend
take care
Px

Addendum
i forgot to say that even though i'm not going to be blogging every day i will still take a pic of myself every day and post them over on The 365 P(roject)X in bulk when i next can get online

one last thing, i found this on youtube...it was done for comic relief the other week, and because i missed it, i searched youtube for it and now i'm going to share it because it's AWESOME!
enjoy