ffs...this is the 3rd time i've started this blog today, but somehow i just can't get it started right
"those who take no chances recieve no rewards" - bleachers by john grisham
the last few days have been a bit weird, there is no other way of putting it, it's the truth! weird is as weird does
the quote is important, but i'm not sure how important it will be to everyone, but i like it
i've been told some stuff over the last few days that has made me smile, think and worry...not in that order and not in the ways some of you will thing
i'm smiling because i'm happy sometimes
i'm thinking because i do that all the time and i wish sometimes i just wouldn't
and i'm worried because it looks like in 6 months time i'll have to move home again as my brother will want to sell his place...although i've been told that i might be able to get some help to buy the place off him outright, but it'll depend on being able to get a mortgage and that looks like a slim chance, going to speak to my boss today see if he can give me more money than he really wants to, it'll give me more chance to buy the place
i'm worried about me as well...but then everyone worries about themselves...right? and at the moment i'm not really in the mood to talk about it...not like this to everyone, there are people who know who they are and i'm willing to talk to them, but for now...it's just me
the pay & go things seems to be working, but i've just used my last 10p to give someone a cryptic message which no doubt she'll eventually work out, but it means that at the moment i can't give her anymore help or reactions to things she might say...evil is good
i've been lazy and not done anything at all about looking for a job abroad, i've been lazy in looking for one in this country to be honest...but i need more money and the only way i can see of getting it is by getting a new job...my boss is too tight to pay me more, but i'll ask anyway
people have been stirring recently...you know who you are and it's not appricated
last night was weird...only because of the number of times it was on and then off, then on again...i enjoyed the evening, we did a pub quiz...there seemed to be some really bizarre and harsh questions though, but we made the opposition teams laugh with a couple of answers...including "stalker" being someone's occupation...still we didn't come past and we got over 50%, but only just, we scored an amazing 42/80 and most of those were on the picture round which was football shirts...scarily i managed to get nearly all 20 right! but that tells you how bad we did in the rest of the quiz...heh heh...we kept making up names...the kept asking a lot of questions about irish people who we didn't know so we made up the names...very convincing irish names they were too...like sean o'driscoll...very irish, not as irish as paddy murphy, but that was a bit too stereo-typical for my liking. i hope that there are more evenings like that in the future
moving sometime next week hopefully, maybe the weekend, maybe just after the weekend, not sure yet
need to finish my NPLQ trainer/assessor course soon by running a course of my own, then i can really start earning some money. speaking of money, i'm getting some back pay this month, for some reason i'd not been paid the £12.something that i'm supposed to get each month for being first aid at work qualified, so i'm getting 11 months worth in one hit this month...sweet!
right...i'm done for now...people who i feel i can talk to will be talked to, people who worry about me...don't tell me about it...i don't want to know...people who think too much...shouldn't...people, i'm done
take care peeps
Px