je suis tres tired
i only do a little bit of french so that'll do me for this week
it's true though i'm absolutely knackered at the moment, something to do with seeing kill bill pt1 last night and doing the early again this morning
it's been a funny old day at work, we threw out over £900 worth of frozen food, mainly because it wasn't frozen anymore, and the boss phoned in sick, then the other boss phoned in sick too, then the big boss phoned and i took his call whilst i was lifeguarding, not the cleverest thing to do, but it's not like he knew what i was doing and basically there was no-one there today...and i still couldn't be bothered to do anything
i've not done any packing for a few days either, i'm either going to do some tonight for a little while, ie before i fall asleep, or i'm just going to leave it all until friday when i've got to sort it all out and pack it all up because i move on the saturday
i've got a really nast taste in my mouth too...ate some raw onion today, it was in my sandwich, but seeing as i asked for a bacon sarnie with cheese and onions i assumed that i'd get a hot sarnie, but i got a cold one, with raw onion and cold precooked bacon...obviously i still ate it, but it's the principal of it
i've not had a shave for a while...must have one before tomorrow really
i'm off to watch tottenham play tomorrow, mentioned that yesterday, but i'm mentioning it again because it's cool...although spurs'll probably lose
i'm having troubles with my hotmail account at the moment again...it keeps telling me that "this server is too busy"...you'd think that one of the most popular sites in the world would sort out it's server problems...i mean what's the server too busy doing? do servers go fishing? do they have sideline jobs as cyber pimps? do they blog? do they think i have nothing better to do with my spare time that sit here complaining about them and not reading my email?
i think i'm going to just log off in a minute if i can't get my bloody emails and go to bed, it's not like i've got anything really important to do, honest
take care peoples
Px
Tuesday 28 October 2003
Monday 27 October 2003
Tiny secret agent spy hamsters with giant guns and rockets packs
well it made me chuckle to myself
it's starting to hit me that i've only got a few days before i move out which means i've really got to do some more packing, except i still really can't be bothered at the moment! How bad is that?
going to see kill bill tonight hopefully
not much is happening in my life at the moment, it's all quiet on the western front, not to mention the eastern, northern and southern fronts as well...
going to see tottenham play west ham on wednesday, its a cup game apparently, not that i care, it's a football match and i've not been to one since i was 11, which seems like years ago...considering i'll be like 25 soon i guess it is years ago!
i've been granted my annual leave request for the 5th of november which means i can go and see Flogging Molly again...hint hint you know who you are!!!
and what's this i hear about a certain mr roger conversing with my lady about my birthday present?
"what should i get him, he's got everything?" her
"he has now he's got you" him
what's that all about??? that's what she told me anyway
only kidding
must go, going to try this packing jobbie again, but i'll probably end up doing something else. take care peoples
Px
well it made me chuckle to myself
it's starting to hit me that i've only got a few days before i move out which means i've really got to do some more packing, except i still really can't be bothered at the moment! How bad is that?
going to see kill bill tonight hopefully
not much is happening in my life at the moment, it's all quiet on the western front, not to mention the eastern, northern and southern fronts as well...
going to see tottenham play west ham on wednesday, its a cup game apparently, not that i care, it's a football match and i've not been to one since i was 11, which seems like years ago...considering i'll be like 25 soon i guess it is years ago!
i've been granted my annual leave request for the 5th of november which means i can go and see Flogging Molly again...hint hint you know who you are!!!
and what's this i hear about a certain mr roger conversing with my lady about my birthday present?
"what should i get him, he's got everything?" her
"he has now he's got you" him
what's that all about??? that's what she told me anyway
only kidding
must go, going to try this packing jobbie again, but i'll probably end up doing something else. take care peoples
Px
Sunday 26 October 2003
still...
...here
...bored
...alive
...moving in under a week
...hungry
...feeling a little low
i'm moving next saturday, so after a couple of blogs this week don't expect that many after then...certainly not anything regular like there has been in the past. i'm actually looking forward to it now...not excited yet, but looking forward to it. I think i've got everything redy for it, but i'll not know until i'm there and want to use something only to realise that i don't own one
got work later today, should be ok, better than yesterday anyway, unless the dodgy "new" receptionist phones in sick again, which she seems to have a habit of doing at the moment, either there;s something really wrong with her, or she's not big on being reliable, personally i think it's more of the latter, but i shouldn't doubt her so much, she might be really ill!
anyway yesterday at work, during the naturist session, one of the old blokes collapsed, ambulance was called, he didn't want to go with them and said he felt fine, needless to say he decided against going for a swim, but when it came to him leaving, he collapsed again, another ambulance was called, and again he decided against going with them, but at least this time he wasn't naked!
and we were short staffed yesterday too, which made it all good fun!
enough with the work type stuff...everyone has left me this weekend, all my mates are elsewhere so i've been bored as sin so far this weekend, my fault partially i guess, i should've given some other people a shout to see what they were up to, but i was working so i shouldn't have been socialising that much anyway.
i was very glad of the extra hour in bed this morning, and i made the most of it by rolling over and going back to sleep.
watched the rugby this morning, glad we won, disappointed in the general performance of the team, there were a lot of scrappy passes and the throw-in's were awful, still a couple of good trys and it was all good in the end.
i've still got loads to pack before i move, i just can't seem to get motivated to do it, everytime i think about doing some more i just can't be bothered.
Monsterous Regiment, the book i'm reading is superb and i'm liking it a lot, not sure where the stories going, but that's a good thing, i'm not a fan of really predictable storylines, obviously you can make a rough guess as to what happens in the end, but it's when you can guess what's going to happen in the next few chapters, that's when reading stops being fun
anyway, i'm going to hide and read some more of my book now that i've got it in my head...take care peoples
Px
...here
...bored
...alive
...moving in under a week
...hungry
...feeling a little low
i'm moving next saturday, so after a couple of blogs this week don't expect that many after then...certainly not anything regular like there has been in the past. i'm actually looking forward to it now...not excited yet, but looking forward to it. I think i've got everything redy for it, but i'll not know until i'm there and want to use something only to realise that i don't own one
got work later today, should be ok, better than yesterday anyway, unless the dodgy "new" receptionist phones in sick again, which she seems to have a habit of doing at the moment, either there;s something really wrong with her, or she's not big on being reliable, personally i think it's more of the latter, but i shouldn't doubt her so much, she might be really ill!
anyway yesterday at work, during the naturist session, one of the old blokes collapsed, ambulance was called, he didn't want to go with them and said he felt fine, needless to say he decided against going for a swim, but when it came to him leaving, he collapsed again, another ambulance was called, and again he decided against going with them, but at least this time he wasn't naked!
and we were short staffed yesterday too, which made it all good fun!
enough with the work type stuff...everyone has left me this weekend, all my mates are elsewhere so i've been bored as sin so far this weekend, my fault partially i guess, i should've given some other people a shout to see what they were up to, but i was working so i shouldn't have been socialising that much anyway.
i was very glad of the extra hour in bed this morning, and i made the most of it by rolling over and going back to sleep.
watched the rugby this morning, glad we won, disappointed in the general performance of the team, there were a lot of scrappy passes and the throw-in's were awful, still a couple of good trys and it was all good in the end.
i've still got loads to pack before i move, i just can't seem to get motivated to do it, everytime i think about doing some more i just can't be bothered.
Monsterous Regiment, the book i'm reading is superb and i'm liking it a lot, not sure where the stories going, but that's a good thing, i'm not a fan of really predictable storylines, obviously you can make a rough guess as to what happens in the end, but it's when you can guess what's going to happen in the next few chapters, that's when reading stops being fun
anyway, i'm going to hide and read some more of my book now that i've got it in my head...take care peoples
Px
Thursday 23 October 2003
i'm losing sight of what it all means
i'm back again today because i'm bored and online...
i'm having on of those days today where i just can't seem to get myself up and with it, i know it's a bit late in the day to try and start getting up and with it, but i've been like it all day and it sucks, in fact i could feel it starting yesterday, i was feeling a little down yesterday for no readily apparent reason and today it just seems to have got worse. part of it might be that i know that there is going to be a lot of work coming my way, mainly because of the seminar that i was at today, part of it is that i always seem to get the work come my way. it would appear that i'm in line for a change in job title, so along with the titles of Duty Manager and SwimSchool Co-ordinator, i'm going to become the Site Health & Safety Co-ordinator, it doesn't mean that i get any more money of course, that'd be silly to pay me more just because they're changing my job role. i wish i knew why i was feeling low, but it just seems that i'm due a little down time, as it were. it's probably a combination of things:
the stress of moving, everyone knows that moving is one of the most stessful things that one can do;
the possibility of additional work, although i don't have a lot on workwise at the moment, i get the impression that this is going to add more work than i've got space for, thus leading me to neglect one of my other responsibilities;
i'm still ill, and having other things to worry about isn't going to help me get better, and finally;
trying to do too much, at work, at home, everywhere...it's not good.
i've changed my mind about my general feeling for the day from ambivalent to down.
i think that's about it for today
px
i'm back again today because i'm bored and online...
i'm having on of those days today where i just can't seem to get myself up and with it, i know it's a bit late in the day to try and start getting up and with it, but i've been like it all day and it sucks, in fact i could feel it starting yesterday, i was feeling a little down yesterday for no readily apparent reason and today it just seems to have got worse. part of it might be that i know that there is going to be a lot of work coming my way, mainly because of the seminar that i was at today, part of it is that i always seem to get the work come my way. it would appear that i'm in line for a change in job title, so along with the titles of Duty Manager and SwimSchool Co-ordinator, i'm going to become the Site Health & Safety Co-ordinator, it doesn't mean that i get any more money of course, that'd be silly to pay me more just because they're changing my job role. i wish i knew why i was feeling low, but it just seems that i'm due a little down time, as it were. it's probably a combination of things:
the stress of moving, everyone knows that moving is one of the most stessful things that one can do;
the possibility of additional work, although i don't have a lot on workwise at the moment, i get the impression that this is going to add more work than i've got space for, thus leading me to neglect one of my other responsibilities;
i'm still ill, and having other things to worry about isn't going to help me get better, and finally;
trying to do too much, at work, at home, everywhere...it's not good.
i've changed my mind about my general feeling for the day from ambivalent to down.
i think that's about it for today
px
wow...that was good!!!
i'm not talking about anything dirty people...i am in fact referring to a "really interesting" seminar i attended today on Health & Safety, still as boring as it was, at least i didn't have to go to work in the normal sense of the word...
tenancy agreement arrived today, need to look through it at some point before tomorrow when i should go down and hand it in signed and with the balance on the account, which i mentioned yesterday was totalling £1441.13 which had better be in my account tomorrow seeing as i get paid at some point between now and when i get to the bank
everything else is ok, i'm tired, still not sleeping very well, i'm still not feeling very well either, but i really can't be bothered to see the doctor about it, it's nothing major after all. my teeth hurt, i think that i've got one cutting through, and it's not the most comfortable of things.
general feeling for the day is ambivalent
take care peoples
Px
i'm not talking about anything dirty people...i am in fact referring to a "really interesting" seminar i attended today on Health & Safety, still as boring as it was, at least i didn't have to go to work in the normal sense of the word...
tenancy agreement arrived today, need to look through it at some point before tomorrow when i should go down and hand it in signed and with the balance on the account, which i mentioned yesterday was totalling £1441.13 which had better be in my account tomorrow seeing as i get paid at some point between now and when i get to the bank
everything else is ok, i'm tired, still not sleeping very well, i'm still not feeling very well either, but i really can't be bothered to see the doctor about it, it's nothing major after all. my teeth hurt, i think that i've got one cutting through, and it's not the most comfortable of things.
general feeling for the day is ambivalent
take care peoples
Px
Wednesday 22 October 2003
so much to do, so little time to do it
it's like 10 days until i move
and it's like 3 weeks until my birthday
and i'm feeling really ill to go with it
i was thinking of phoning in sick today, i've not done it yet, i've managed to struggle through, and i know that i'll do the same today, it's only 5 hours today.
i should get my tenancy agreement in the post tomorrow, i had the notification of costs today, a total £1441.13 is still needed, but at least i know that i'm now due to meet the check-in clerk on the day to get all the keys and the like, which is cool. i'm still not getting really excited, but i'm looking forward to it
didn't sleep very well last night, seemed like i was in bed for ages, everytime i looked at my clock it was like 20 minutes since i'd last looked, everytime i wanted to roll over i woke myself up, which just sucked, anyway i slept in until about an hour ago, and now i'm up and doing nothing before i go to work
i forgot to mention that i went to see The League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen on monday, went to wantage because it was cheaper and easier to get to and there was only about 14 people in the cinema. it's a good film, not believable in the slightest, but very good none-the-less, well i enjoyed it, but that's not saying much! i thought it was funny in places where i don't think other people got the joke, but again that's just me!
going to blog off now, tkae care peoples
Px
it's like 10 days until i move
and it's like 3 weeks until my birthday
and i'm feeling really ill to go with it
i was thinking of phoning in sick today, i've not done it yet, i've managed to struggle through, and i know that i'll do the same today, it's only 5 hours today.
i should get my tenancy agreement in the post tomorrow, i had the notification of costs today, a total £1441.13 is still needed, but at least i know that i'm now due to meet the check-in clerk on the day to get all the keys and the like, which is cool. i'm still not getting really excited, but i'm looking forward to it
didn't sleep very well last night, seemed like i was in bed for ages, everytime i looked at my clock it was like 20 minutes since i'd last looked, everytime i wanted to roll over i woke myself up, which just sucked, anyway i slept in until about an hour ago, and now i'm up and doing nothing before i go to work
i forgot to mention that i went to see The League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen on monday, went to wantage because it was cheaper and easier to get to and there was only about 14 people in the cinema. it's a good film, not believable in the slightest, but very good none-the-less, well i enjoyed it, but that's not saying much! i thought it was funny in places where i don't think other people got the joke, but again that's just me!
going to blog off now, tkae care peoples
Px
Tuesday 21 October 2003
knocking on kevin's door
i think G'n'R would've had more success if this was the title, but i guess they'd have to find a kevin then...they could always have used kevin from roland rat fame, i think he was a gerbil, errol was a hamster with a really thick welsh accent and a thing for leeks and i've got this feeling that there was someone else, but i can't think who...if you know, tell me!
getting some more paperwork in the post tomorrow about the flat, the bloke phoned me this morning about it...i started packing yesterday, i successfully packed up 4 boxes, mostly with cds, tapes, videos and dvds, and that's not including the ones that i have in racks and holders and what not!!! i did the really clever thing of packing the case to a cd i was listening too, better than that, it's at the bottom of the box!!! also did he really clumsy thing of knocking a near full can of coke into a box that i had filled over half full with cd's...how clever was that!!!
did some shopping yesterday, got some of the more essential things, iron, ironing board and the like, i spent about £120 in argos getting it all and i had to make 3 trips from the shop to the car to put it all away, and unfortunately i was parked on the 2 floor and on the wrong side of the car park, still it'll get me fit...if i was doing it everyday and not using the lift all the time!
i'm not feeling very excited yet, but i am looking forward to it, come thursday next week i won't be able to sleep through excitement, it's like going on holiday and not having to worry about coming back, but it does mean that i've got a lot of things to sort out and take with me...speaking of which i've got a day off again today so i should crack on...
take care peoples
Px
i think G'n'R would've had more success if this was the title, but i guess they'd have to find a kevin then...they could always have used kevin from roland rat fame, i think he was a gerbil, errol was a hamster with a really thick welsh accent and a thing for leeks and i've got this feeling that there was someone else, but i can't think who...if you know, tell me!
getting some more paperwork in the post tomorrow about the flat, the bloke phoned me this morning about it...i started packing yesterday, i successfully packed up 4 boxes, mostly with cds, tapes, videos and dvds, and that's not including the ones that i have in racks and holders and what not!!! i did the really clever thing of packing the case to a cd i was listening too, better than that, it's at the bottom of the box!!! also did he really clumsy thing of knocking a near full can of coke into a box that i had filled over half full with cd's...how clever was that!!!
did some shopping yesterday, got some of the more essential things, iron, ironing board and the like, i spent about £120 in argos getting it all and i had to make 3 trips from the shop to the car to put it all away, and unfortunately i was parked on the 2 floor and on the wrong side of the car park, still it'll get me fit...if i was doing it everyday and not using the lift all the time!
i'm not feeling very excited yet, but i am looking forward to it, come thursday next week i won't be able to sleep through excitement, it's like going on holiday and not having to worry about coming back, but it does mean that i've got a lot of things to sort out and take with me...speaking of which i've got a day off again today so i should crack on...
take care peoples
Px
Monday 20 October 2003
12 days to go and counting
must quickly thank alison for correcting the quote...thank you alison! i wasn't far off
finally started reading the new Terry Pratchett book, Monsterous Regiment, last night after finishing Valhalla the other day...first impressions...it's terry pratchett, definately pratchett material, i've not read enough to give it a full evaluation yet, probably won't give it a full evaluation until i've finished it, hopefully i'll have finished it before i move.
it's my day off today, but i'm not doing anything constructive with it at the moment, might pop into argos and get a few of the things i need to get before i move, seems like a good idea...but i might not bother doing that either...might even start packing, i've been talking about it for ages, but not done anything about it yet!
anyway, i guess i should do something...take care peoples
Px
must quickly thank alison for correcting the quote...thank you alison! i wasn't far off
finally started reading the new Terry Pratchett book, Monsterous Regiment, last night after finishing Valhalla the other day...first impressions...it's terry pratchett, definately pratchett material, i've not read enough to give it a full evaluation yet, probably won't give it a full evaluation until i've finished it, hopefully i'll have finished it before i move.
it's my day off today, but i'm not doing anything constructive with it at the moment, might pop into argos and get a few of the things i need to get before i move, seems like a good idea...but i might not bother doing that either...might even start packing, i've been talking about it for ages, but not done anything about it yet!
anyway, i guess i should do something...take care peoples
Px
Sunday 19 October 2003
all systems are go
we have a green light
the move is on
1/11/03
i had an email confirming everything is ok to go ahead with the move so i'm going to maybe start packing this week, but you know me, i doubt it'll happen, but i really should start getting things organised
i did go out in the end last night, to the cinema, and i'm glad i did because i went to see Finding Nemo, and i loved it! it was a corking film. it was really busy too so i did the sneaky thing of going into the cinema to check times and availability then standing outside to book tickets using my phone because the ticket hall bit was packed and there was a huge queue...it's not really cheating, but it was a hell of a lot quicker than standing in the queue to get a ticket, then having to stand in another queue to get into the screen...but we got pretty good seats in the middle of the auditorium (?) and everything was cool
not really got much to say now, there was something that i wanted to go on about, but i can't for the life of me remember what it was
if you go to see finding nemo, watch the credits, mike from monsters inc can be seen swimming across the screen at the end, just so you know ;)
anyway, take care peoples
Px
we have a green light
the move is on
1/11/03
i had an email confirming everything is ok to go ahead with the move so i'm going to maybe start packing this week, but you know me, i doubt it'll happen, but i really should start getting things organised
i did go out in the end last night, to the cinema, and i'm glad i did because i went to see Finding Nemo, and i loved it! it was a corking film. it was really busy too so i did the sneaky thing of going into the cinema to check times and availability then standing outside to book tickets using my phone because the ticket hall bit was packed and there was a huge queue...it's not really cheating, but it was a hell of a lot quicker than standing in the queue to get a ticket, then having to stand in another queue to get into the screen...but we got pretty good seats in the middle of the auditorium (?) and everything was cool
not really got much to say now, there was something that i wanted to go on about, but i can't for the life of me remember what it was
if you go to see finding nemo, watch the credits, mike from monsters inc can be seen swimming across the screen at the end, just so you know ;)
anyway, take care peoples
Px
Saturday 18 October 2003
Mother is the word for god on the lips and hearts of all children
knowing me i've got that quote wrong, but it's cool none-the-less, if anyone can correct it, let me know and I'll re-edit it so it's right...that is assuming you know where it came from in the first place and seeing as i haven't told you, you'll have to either guess or work it out!
it's from a film
my poor woody is getting irritating, he went to the vet's today to have the dressing removed, but he's doing all the things he's not allowed to do, things like jumping up onto the chairs in the kitchen, he shouldn't be jumping at the moment and i've told him that i'll laugh at him if his stitches burst, but he just won't listen...
one of my favourite films
on the home front things have been fairly quiet...apart from the dog... been feeling very tired and not very well for a few days, i've put the former down to suffering from the latter, seemed like a good idea to me...
a man died in the film
i'm in a not really bothered type of mood today, in other words i can't be arsed with doing anything...i'm supposed to be going out tonight, but i don't really feel like it, i just wanna sit in and watch telly and just chill basically...i'll probably end up going out for a while though, don't want to go out for long if i do go out though...
it's a dark comicbook film
right i'm going to have a look at a last few websites...argos mainly...to see if there is anything else i can get or need for my move
take care peoples
Px
knowing me i've got that quote wrong, but it's cool none-the-less, if anyone can correct it, let me know and I'll re-edit it so it's right...that is assuming you know where it came from in the first place and seeing as i haven't told you, you'll have to either guess or work it out!
it's from a film
my poor woody is getting irritating, he went to the vet's today to have the dressing removed, but he's doing all the things he's not allowed to do, things like jumping up onto the chairs in the kitchen, he shouldn't be jumping at the moment and i've told him that i'll laugh at him if his stitches burst, but he just won't listen...
one of my favourite films
on the home front things have been fairly quiet...apart from the dog... been feeling very tired and not very well for a few days, i've put the former down to suffering from the latter, seemed like a good idea to me...
a man died in the film
i'm in a not really bothered type of mood today, in other words i can't be arsed with doing anything...i'm supposed to be going out tonight, but i don't really feel like it, i just wanna sit in and watch telly and just chill basically...i'll probably end up going out for a while though, don't want to go out for long if i do go out though...
it's a dark comicbook film
right i'm going to have a look at a last few websites...argos mainly...to see if there is anything else i can get or need for my move
take care peoples
Px
Friday 17 October 2003
my poor woody
woody is the name of my dog before anyone gets the wrong impression! i know what you're all like and i know what you were thinking!!!
and it's poor woody day because he had his bit's lopped off yesterday, no longer should he be shagging legs, cushions, bags or anything else he can lock his little legs around and start pumping against. he's walking a little funny this morning, and he's not allowed to jump up at anyone or anything like that which is good. he was very quiet when i came in last night, he just sort of laid there looking pityful and ridiculous with his tail curled between his legs covering what wasn't there anymore.
i'm still not feeling great, but better than yesterday, my throat is still really sore, but at least i don't ache like i did yesterday and although my head is still a little fuzzy, it's clearer than it was last night.
I got one of the girls at work to go to the shop last night and get me some soup, she got me chicken soup and although i'm not a big soup fan i really enjoyed it and i felt better for it, it was about the most i'd eaten all day though so that might have something to do with it too...bizarre chicken soup and tlc is the remedy for everything!
dad's got the things down from in the garage that i took to uni, pots and pans and that sort of thing so we're having a look at those this morning, anything that i don't want the bin is having.
anyway, that's about all for today, take care peoples
Px
woody is the name of my dog before anyone gets the wrong impression! i know what you're all like and i know what you were thinking!!!
and it's poor woody day because he had his bit's lopped off yesterday, no longer should he be shagging legs, cushions, bags or anything else he can lock his little legs around and start pumping against. he's walking a little funny this morning, and he's not allowed to jump up at anyone or anything like that which is good. he was very quiet when i came in last night, he just sort of laid there looking pityful and ridiculous with his tail curled between his legs covering what wasn't there anymore.
i'm still not feeling great, but better than yesterday, my throat is still really sore, but at least i don't ache like i did yesterday and although my head is still a little fuzzy, it's clearer than it was last night.
I got one of the girls at work to go to the shop last night and get me some soup, she got me chicken soup and although i'm not a big soup fan i really enjoyed it and i felt better for it, it was about the most i'd eaten all day though so that might have something to do with it too...bizarre chicken soup and tlc is the remedy for everything!
dad's got the things down from in the garage that i took to uni, pots and pans and that sort of thing so we're having a look at those this morning, anything that i don't want the bin is having.
anyway, that's about all for today, take care peoples
Px
Thursday 16 October 2003
"bullets and bombs might break his bones or even vapourise him completely, but vern could do him a nasty injury"
taken from Valhalla by Tom Holt
that's what i've been reading at the moment, reading it like mad because i've got the new terry pratchett book sitting on my desk glaring at me, darig me to start reading it before i finish the book i'm on
things are going fairly well at the moment, although i'm feeling fuff as ruck, i think i'm coming down with a cold...throat's very sore, feeling cold and i ache all over...still not calling in sick though because if i call in sick there's no-one to cover me, might have to call it in tomorrow though if i don't get better today
other than that, like i said, things are going well, looked in the argos book last night for the essentials and i've picked out a few things that i'll need that are reasonably priced, migt start getting them at the weekend, but might be better to leave some of it until after i've made the move, that way i won't have to move it twice
take care peoples
Px
taken from Valhalla by Tom Holt
that's what i've been reading at the moment, reading it like mad because i've got the new terry pratchett book sitting on my desk glaring at me, darig me to start reading it before i finish the book i'm on
things are going fairly well at the moment, although i'm feeling fuff as ruck, i think i'm coming down with a cold...throat's very sore, feeling cold and i ache all over...still not calling in sick though because if i call in sick there's no-one to cover me, might have to call it in tomorrow though if i don't get better today
other than that, like i said, things are going well, looked in the argos book last night for the essentials and i've picked out a few things that i'll need that are reasonably priced, migt start getting them at the weekend, but might be better to leave some of it until after i've made the move, that way i won't have to move it twice
take care peoples
Px
Wednesday 15 October 2003
all my people come on choose your side you're a long way from home, but not alone
dunno why i'm putting that as my title apart from it's on the song i'm listening to at the moment
having a good day again today, i think all this positive energy is justified after the last few weeks and a lot of negative energy, that and i'm moving out, that's probably making me cheer up too
mum got me the 2nd matrix film on dvd yesterday, to go with the first one and the animatrix dvds, watched it this morning...understood it some more time round, watched the MTV Movie Awards Reloaded too, an extra on the bonus disc which parodies reloaded...it's all good!
i've been to get an argos book today so i can start pricing up the essentials, things like an iron and ironing board, that kind of thing, probably do that at work, people seem to be offering me things for the house which is cool...gonna have a look at the argos book tonight at work, mark a few things that i'm going to have to get hold of...saucepans for a start
i'm really tired at the moment too, and i've been sleeping really well, no idea why i'm tired though...it's weird i really need a decent night's sleep and i'm sure i'll feel better, either that or i'll have to stop reading before i go to bed or something
anyway i'm on lates again today so i should get ready to go seeing as i'm due in in 20 minutes
take care peoples
Px
dunno why i'm putting that as my title apart from it's on the song i'm listening to at the moment
having a good day again today, i think all this positive energy is justified after the last few weeks and a lot of negative energy, that and i'm moving out, that's probably making me cheer up too
mum got me the 2nd matrix film on dvd yesterday, to go with the first one and the animatrix dvds, watched it this morning...understood it some more time round, watched the MTV Movie Awards Reloaded too, an extra on the bonus disc which parodies reloaded...it's all good!
i've been to get an argos book today so i can start pricing up the essentials, things like an iron and ironing board, that kind of thing, probably do that at work, people seem to be offering me things for the house which is cool...gonna have a look at the argos book tonight at work, mark a few things that i'm going to have to get hold of...saucepans for a start
i'm really tired at the moment too, and i've been sleeping really well, no idea why i'm tired though...it's weird i really need a decent night's sleep and i'm sure i'll feel better, either that or i'll have to stop reading before i go to bed or something
anyway i'm on lates again today so i should get ready to go seeing as i'm due in in 20 minutes
take care peoples
Px
Tuesday 14 October 2003
flat's the way uh-huh uh-huh
i like it uh-huh uh-huh
it's been confirmed...i now have a shag pad and i can move in from the 1st of november, the money for the deposit is in my bank account and everything is go! i've already got the weekend the i'm moving off...flukey or what!
everything else is hunkydory
got to start the packing thing sometime soon, i've got a couple of boxes from work and i'll start bringing home some more now that it's been confirmed, not sure how i'm going to move all my shit yet, but i'll get everything sorted before i move
that's all for today
take care peoples
Px
i like it uh-huh uh-huh
it's been confirmed...i now have a shag pad and i can move in from the 1st of november, the money for the deposit is in my bank account and everything is go! i've already got the weekend the i'm moving off...flukey or what!
everything else is hunkydory
got to start the packing thing sometime soon, i've got a couple of boxes from work and i'll start bringing home some more now that it's been confirmed, not sure how i'm going to move all my shit yet, but i'll get everything sorted before i move
that's all for today
take care peoples
Px
Monday 13 October 2003
Must stop all the quizzes
ah to hell with it...here's today's quiz
Bondage Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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ah to hell with it...here's today's quiz
Bondage Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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BONUS
my lovely dad's going to give me an early birthday present which will cover my deposit and give me a little extra cash for the new flat, still not heard as to if i've got it yet, but i'm sure it'll ok.
Also on the up side, dad know someone who's getting rid of a 3 piece suite which i may be able to get hold of, it's pink, but pink is better than nothing when it's a sofa...am i right?
haven't done the haircut thing, but i'm going to go and wash it in a minute so i might get the clippers out afterwards, i am in desperate need of a shave too, so i'll do that at the same time.
i was that bored last night that i sat and watched the last session of the LG cup, it's snooker, it was actually pretty good, but the winner got like £82500 for it and that's just wrong, i know he's good, i can see that he's good, but is he really worth that much money when it comes to hitting lots of coloured balls around a big green table? it's the same with footballers, some of them earn in a week what i earn in a year, some earn more than that, it's ridiculous, especially when they ponce around when they're not playing and get in all the papers for all the wrong reasons...i'm worth more than they are morally and i don't have any morals! just think if i'd have been pushed into playing football i could've been a highly paid jerk like them, instead i'm just a jerk.
thankfully my parents didn't push me into playing anything, i think i would've ended up resenting them if they had done. sometimes i wonder though if they had pushed me more if i'd have been something special, or made something more of myself, but like i said i'm glad they didn't push me.
i had a good night's sleep eventually last night, spent some time catching up with a few freinds via the wonder of sms, but as is always the case, i fell asleep mid text and i woke up at 6 this morning thinking where the hell is my phone, and what's that digging into my ear???
i've noticed i'm blogging more frequently again, not sure why, everything is going well, i haven't been to work yet though, just kidding even work is going well at the moment, although i get the impression that the receptionist that shold be working tonight will be phoning in sick again, she's been there 3 weeks and so far she's yet to work a monday on her own...sounds promising doesn't it!!
just thinking what i could buy with the remainder of the money that i'm being given, might have a lok at the cost of tv's as i'm only taking the little portable that's in my room, but i guess i should really look at buying in the essentialt first, like pots and pans to cook with, that kind of thing...argos here we come!!!
anyway, better be off, i wasn't expecting to blog so much again today
take care people
Px
my lovely dad's going to give me an early birthday present which will cover my deposit and give me a little extra cash for the new flat, still not heard as to if i've got it yet, but i'm sure it'll ok.
Also on the up side, dad know someone who's getting rid of a 3 piece suite which i may be able to get hold of, it's pink, but pink is better than nothing when it's a sofa...am i right?
haven't done the haircut thing, but i'm going to go and wash it in a minute so i might get the clippers out afterwards, i am in desperate need of a shave too, so i'll do that at the same time.
i was that bored last night that i sat and watched the last session of the LG cup, it's snooker, it was actually pretty good, but the winner got like £82500 for it and that's just wrong, i know he's good, i can see that he's good, but is he really worth that much money when it comes to hitting lots of coloured balls around a big green table? it's the same with footballers, some of them earn in a week what i earn in a year, some earn more than that, it's ridiculous, especially when they ponce around when they're not playing and get in all the papers for all the wrong reasons...i'm worth more than they are morally and i don't have any morals! just think if i'd have been pushed into playing football i could've been a highly paid jerk like them, instead i'm just a jerk.
thankfully my parents didn't push me into playing anything, i think i would've ended up resenting them if they had done. sometimes i wonder though if they had pushed me more if i'd have been something special, or made something more of myself, but like i said i'm glad they didn't push me.
i had a good night's sleep eventually last night, spent some time catching up with a few freinds via the wonder of sms, but as is always the case, i fell asleep mid text and i woke up at 6 this morning thinking where the hell is my phone, and what's that digging into my ear???
i've noticed i'm blogging more frequently again, not sure why, everything is going well, i haven't been to work yet though, just kidding even work is going well at the moment, although i get the impression that the receptionist that shold be working tonight will be phoning in sick again, she's been there 3 weeks and so far she's yet to work a monday on her own...sounds promising doesn't it!!
just thinking what i could buy with the remainder of the money that i'm being given, might have a lok at the cost of tv's as i'm only taking the little portable that's in my room, but i guess i should really look at buying in the essentialt first, like pots and pans to cook with, that kind of thing...argos here we come!!!
anyway, better be off, i wasn't expecting to blog so much again today
take care people
Px
Sunday 12 October 2003
yay verily it doth sucketh
i'm trying to find where i can go and see house of 1000 corpses without travelling millions of miles, so far slough is about the closest i can find it and that's too far...damn my quest, damn it all to hell again
i've decided that i can't be bothered with the dodgy hair, so i'm going to cut it off...just as soon as i can be bothered, which might be later today, but then again, it might not be, we'll see...
you'll be pleased to note that i've avoided doing any quiz things today, but that means it's just me...uninterrupted, it's up to you as to whether that's a good thing or a bad one...
actually i havent got much to say
i watched cradle 2 the grave, with jet li and DMX, the other night...tis very good, loadsa action and nice fight scenes...a little wire fighting, which i prefer to all the CG stuff that is appearing in action movies these days...example blade II or the matrix reloaded...wire fighting, although unrealistic, keeps all the body's natural movements, you can do somethings on a wire that your body can't physically do anyway, ie sustain a jumping kick for longer, but the body still moves in a natural way because it's actually doing it, as opposed to the movements of Spiderman when he was web-slinging in the most recent movie when the body arches in a very "flexible" way...a little too flexible at points, it looked like that guy could kiss his own arse. I like CG movies, bu only when the whole movie is CG, like toy story or final fantasy, but movies that are using CG because they don't want, or more likely can't get, the actors do the stuff that is needed of them, it looks wrong and unnatural and silly...enough with the ranting about films...for now
work is going freakishly well at the moment, i think it's probably got something to do with the idea that i could be moving out sometime soon and therefore i have something to look forward to at the moment...it's an adventure, i was thinking about starting to pack up a few of my things ready, but i don't want to be too keen, it's not like i've definately got somewhere to go yet
i need some new tunes...anyone got any recommendations? you know what i like!
i've been looking for some growling mad scientists stuff...but i've not found very much, only a couple of tracks online, very cool though...trance or something like that...it's all good
if anyone wants any ideas for what to get me for my up coming birthday...1 month today...i'd like some little things that will brighten up my new flat if i get it, i'll keep you posted as to if i get it
i've apparently downloaded messenger plus! which is cool so if i see you online, now i can piss you off with some stupid sounds...mwhahahahahahahahahaha!
anyway, take care peoples
Px
i'm trying to find where i can go and see house of 1000 corpses without travelling millions of miles, so far slough is about the closest i can find it and that's too far...damn my quest, damn it all to hell again
i've decided that i can't be bothered with the dodgy hair, so i'm going to cut it off...just as soon as i can be bothered, which might be later today, but then again, it might not be, we'll see...
you'll be pleased to note that i've avoided doing any quiz things today, but that means it's just me...uninterrupted, it's up to you as to whether that's a good thing or a bad one...
actually i havent got much to say
i watched cradle 2 the grave, with jet li and DMX, the other night...tis very good, loadsa action and nice fight scenes...a little wire fighting, which i prefer to all the CG stuff that is appearing in action movies these days...example blade II or the matrix reloaded...wire fighting, although unrealistic, keeps all the body's natural movements, you can do somethings on a wire that your body can't physically do anyway, ie sustain a jumping kick for longer, but the body still moves in a natural way because it's actually doing it, as opposed to the movements of Spiderman when he was web-slinging in the most recent movie when the body arches in a very "flexible" way...a little too flexible at points, it looked like that guy could kiss his own arse. I like CG movies, bu only when the whole movie is CG, like toy story or final fantasy, but movies that are using CG because they don't want, or more likely can't get, the actors do the stuff that is needed of them, it looks wrong and unnatural and silly...enough with the ranting about films...for now
work is going freakishly well at the moment, i think it's probably got something to do with the idea that i could be moving out sometime soon and therefore i have something to look forward to at the moment...it's an adventure, i was thinking about starting to pack up a few of my things ready, but i don't want to be too keen, it's not like i've definately got somewhere to go yet
i need some new tunes...anyone got any recommendations? you know what i like!
i've been looking for some growling mad scientists stuff...but i've not found very much, only a couple of tracks online, very cool though...trance or something like that...it's all good
if anyone wants any ideas for what to get me for my up coming birthday...1 month today...i'd like some little things that will brighten up my new flat if i get it, i'll keep you posted as to if i get it
i've apparently downloaded messenger plus! which is cool so if i see you online, now i can piss you off with some stupid sounds...mwhahahahahahahahahaha!
anyway, take care peoples
Px
Saturday 11 October 2003
more stupid quizzes
You are Professor X!
You are a very effective teacher, and you are very
committed to those who learn from you. You put
your all into everything you do, to some extent
because you fear failure more than anything
else. You are always seeking self-improvement,
even in areas where there is nothing you can do
to improve.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Congratulations! You're a black velvet!
What Drink Are You?
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You are Professor X!
You are a very effective teacher, and you are very
committed to those who learn from you. You put
your all into everything you do, to some extent
because you fear failure more than anything
else. You are always seeking self-improvement,
even in areas where there is nothing you can do
to improve.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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Congratulations! You're a black velvet!
What Drink Are You?
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My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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sorry about that, but I think I've got them out of my system for now.
work is going ok, life in general is going ok, the only downer of the last few days has been that work seem to think that they can/should phone me when they want to get my g/f to work...I don't live with her and rarely am I with her at 8:45 in the morning!!! Hello people, we're not joined at the hip and her number is and was in the bloody phone book...Silly people!
I went to the estate agent people and paid them the admin fee and filled in the application for tenancy and all that, got to work today and helped my boss fill in his reference for me, it's not cheating, I just made sure that the answers he put down were the same as the ones I put in...Hopefully I'll hear something about it on Monday as to whether I've got it or not and when I can move in and all that...
if I get this place my blogging days will be limited to when I can get home to use the computer to blog...Same with the whole emailing thing...Although me dad did hint that he might give me this "old computer" and buy himself a new one which would be helpful. Furniture is going to be the very basics for a while...ie a patio table and chairs for a while, although I'm taking all my bedroom furniture with me, so at least the kitchen and bedroom will be worthy of living in...Not sure what I'll do for furniture in the lounge just yet, but I'm sure I'll sort something out
I've been having flashes of inspiration at work, so much so that, I've been working really hard in the plant room to make sure that it's the best damned plant room I've ever been in...This week I spent 4 hours sweeping the floor and generally tidying it up, then I got sticky backed plastic and put up all the procedures and COSHH assessments so that the other staff that go down there can't balls things up and make it all shitty and phone me and get me to sort out everything for them...Now all they have to do is look at the sheets that are stuck up all over the plant room near the relevant bits. Only problem was that when I was sticking the bits up I wrecked about 1/4 of the plastic stuff because it kept rolling itself up and sticking together, still there is no excuse now for ballsing it up apart from incompetence
anyway laters
take care peoples
Px
Friday 10 October 2003
House!
I had a look at a couple of flats yesterday, the first was very pokey, the front room was smaller than my current bedroom, which was a bit on the pointless side, the kitchen was ok, the bedroom was too small for me and all my shit and there wasn't enough storage space...the second was a whole £35 pcm more and there were more cupboards, a bigger bedroom, a much bigger lounge, the kitchen was ok too, about the same size as the first, but a different set up, generally it was so much better...and it had the sexy sloping ceiling
everything else is good, managed to have a bit of a lay-in this morning, but only until 9, but that's still 4 more hours than i've had most of the week
anyway, i've got to get dressed and sort out this flat today because if i don't do it now i'll never do it
take care people
Px
I had a look at a couple of flats yesterday, the first was very pokey, the front room was smaller than my current bedroom, which was a bit on the pointless side, the kitchen was ok, the bedroom was too small for me and all my shit and there wasn't enough storage space...the second was a whole £35 pcm more and there were more cupboards, a bigger bedroom, a much bigger lounge, the kitchen was ok too, about the same size as the first, but a different set up, generally it was so much better...and it had the sexy sloping ceiling
everything else is good, managed to have a bit of a lay-in this morning, but only until 9, but that's still 4 more hours than i've had most of the week
anyway, i've got to get dressed and sort out this flat today because if i don't do it now i'll never do it
take care people
Px
Tuesday 7 October 2003
life is what you make it, so make mine a double
firstly i just wanna make sure everyone is ok...i, myself am feeling pretty good this week, thankfully i think i've got a load of things off my chest and i'm thinking about moving out. so much so that i've booked to have a look around a couple of places on thursday after work with one of my bosses because she wants to be nosey i think, but it could be because she wants to make sure it's all good
in fact most things at the moment are going well so before i ruin everything i'm going to leave it at that
one other thing i've got a bit of an afro at the moment, does anyone know of any decent hair products that i could use to tame my hair until i can be bothered to get a haircut
take care peoples
Px
firstly i just wanna make sure everyone is ok...i, myself am feeling pretty good this week, thankfully i think i've got a load of things off my chest and i'm thinking about moving out. so much so that i've booked to have a look around a couple of places on thursday after work with one of my bosses because she wants to be nosey i think, but it could be because she wants to make sure it's all good
in fact most things at the moment are going well so before i ruin everything i'm going to leave it at that
one other thing i've got a bit of an afro at the moment, does anyone know of any decent hair products that i could use to tame my hair until i can be bothered to get a haircut
take care peoples
Px
Thursday 2 October 2003
fed up
I've tried to be sensible
I've tried to think positive
I've tried a lot of things in the last few days and when i'm not thinking about work or what's wrong with me i feel great and even sometimes when i'm at work and busy i feel ok...but only ok
other time unfortunately i just want to run around hitting things and breaking things, especially things at work, ESPECIALLY the telephone, at least that way they can't call me to ask stupid and pointless questions like "pete, it's your day off, what time do you start work today?" or "what is it that i'm actually supposed to be doing?"
(they're yet to ask me either of these questions, but i fear that they are closer to happening than you'd think)
breaking stuff would be so cool, but it's just way to much hassle trying to explain what happened to it when you don't want to have to say "well it was being a stupid piece of shit and not doing what it was supposed to be doing so i threw it out the window, tied it to the back of my car, took it drag racing and then put it back where it came from in the vague hope that it'd started working, but it didn't so i took the hammer to it...do you think i did a bad thing?"
i've been doing lots of stupid tests today, thanks to rum & monkey, so far i've got the following results:
in the "which survivor of the impending nuclear apocolyse are you?" test i was a new media professional;
in the "are you damned?" test i was an atheist;
in the "genocidal maniac test" i was hitler, nice;
in the "peeg test" i was a bliss pig;
in the "the annoying b-list celebrity test" i was regis philbin...who i hear you ask...i have no idea;
in the "glendinning test v2.0" i was owen...you'll have to do it to understand that i haven' got a clue who owen is;
in the "Which Famous Homosexual Are You?" test i was mychal judge...who ever he is;
in the "how dumb are you?" test i'm apparently real dumb, like ya'know;
in the "what kind of drunk are you?" test i was an emotional drunk (last time i came out as a chunder monkey);
in the "Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?" test i came out as robocop;
in the "The Evil Criminal Test" i came out as charles manson;
and finally in the "affliction test" i came out being syphilis, which is nice!
there are some warped people out there who make up these quizzes, but then again there are some warped people in my head that actually did them!
on a lighter note I've finished reading through the 467 or so back episodes of M3g4tokyo and i recommend it to anyone who has way too much time on their hands, better still i think everyone should go and buy a shirt.
seeing as i didn't manage to get round to reviewing AWK...i'd just like to say it was outstanding, my ears stopped ringing sometime on wednesday i think, either that or i'd gotten used to it by then...there was plenty of singing along and bouncing to some very cheesy tunes adn much arm waving was to be had by all, either the punching the air kind or the swinging it from your side over your head sideways...if that makes no sense, tough, i know what i mean and so should the people that were there! dammit if you don't know what i mean you should've been there, you all had the oppoortunity to come! i got dropped on the floor a few times which wrecked my nice white t-shirt that i was wearing...still i'd just bought an AWK t-shirt so i wore that on the way home, even though it was soaked with sweat.
i feel sick again :(
my IBS has been playing me up today too, I've been coping with it, but it's not been very helpful and it's been really horrid at times, it feels like cramp, only it comes on really quickly and sometimes it can last for several hours, today it's been coming and going, but it's been painful everytime, i've been able to control it most of the time, but sometimes it's come on so quickly and sharply that it's taken me by surprise.
anyway this has been a mentally long blog, mainly because of all those quizzes that i've done today
take care peoples
Px
I've tried to be sensible
I've tried to think positive
I've tried a lot of things in the last few days and when i'm not thinking about work or what's wrong with me i feel great and even sometimes when i'm at work and busy i feel ok...but only ok
other time unfortunately i just want to run around hitting things and breaking things, especially things at work, ESPECIALLY the telephone, at least that way they can't call me to ask stupid and pointless questions like "pete, it's your day off, what time do you start work today?" or "what is it that i'm actually supposed to be doing?"
(they're yet to ask me either of these questions, but i fear that they are closer to happening than you'd think)
breaking stuff would be so cool, but it's just way to much hassle trying to explain what happened to it when you don't want to have to say "well it was being a stupid piece of shit and not doing what it was supposed to be doing so i threw it out the window, tied it to the back of my car, took it drag racing and then put it back where it came from in the vague hope that it'd started working, but it didn't so i took the hammer to it...do you think i did a bad thing?"
i've been doing lots of stupid tests today, thanks to rum & monkey, so far i've got the following results:
in the "which survivor of the impending nuclear apocolyse are you?" test i was a new media professional;
in the "are you damned?" test i was an atheist;
in the "genocidal maniac test" i was hitler, nice;
in the "peeg test" i was a bliss pig;
in the "the annoying b-list celebrity test" i was regis philbin...who i hear you ask...i have no idea;
in the "glendinning test v2.0" i was owen...you'll have to do it to understand that i haven' got a clue who owen is;
in the "Which Famous Homosexual Are You?" test i was mychal judge...who ever he is;
in the "how dumb are you?" test i'm apparently real dumb, like ya'know;
in the "what kind of drunk are you?" test i was an emotional drunk (last time i came out as a chunder monkey);
in the "Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?" test i came out as robocop;
in the "The Evil Criminal Test" i came out as charles manson;
and finally in the "affliction test" i came out being syphilis, which is nice!
there are some warped people out there who make up these quizzes, but then again there are some warped people in my head that actually did them!
on a lighter note I've finished reading through the 467 or so back episodes of M3g4tokyo and i recommend it to anyone who has way too much time on their hands, better still i think everyone should go and buy a shirt.
seeing as i didn't manage to get round to reviewing AWK...i'd just like to say it was outstanding, my ears stopped ringing sometime on wednesday i think, either that or i'd gotten used to it by then...there was plenty of singing along and bouncing to some very cheesy tunes adn much arm waving was to be had by all, either the punching the air kind or the swinging it from your side over your head sideways...if that makes no sense, tough, i know what i mean and so should the people that were there! dammit if you don't know what i mean you should've been there, you all had the oppoortunity to come! i got dropped on the floor a few times which wrecked my nice white t-shirt that i was wearing...still i'd just bought an AWK t-shirt so i wore that on the way home, even though it was soaked with sweat.
i feel sick again :(
my IBS has been playing me up today too, I've been coping with it, but it's not been very helpful and it's been really horrid at times, it feels like cramp, only it comes on really quickly and sometimes it can last for several hours, today it's been coming and going, but it's been painful everytime, i've been able to control it most of the time, but sometimes it's come on so quickly and sharply that it's taken me by surprise.
anyway this has been a mentally long blog, mainly because of all those quizzes that i've done today
take care peoples
Px
Wednesday 1 October 2003
i'm trying here...bear with me please
"i don't know what's wrong, at the moment i have no desire to get up in the morning, no reason for going to work and i don't want to come home after i've been there.
the smallest things are pissing me off, like yesterday, work phoned me about something simple, but it was something that i obviously wouldn't know the answer too not having been at work yesterday, yet they still saw fit to phone me up about it anyway...that pissed me off
they phoned me and skirted around the fact that they were a teacher down, but wouldn't come out and ask me to do it directly, so i made up some bullshit about being busy and decided that i wasn't going in for them because if i had a similar situation i wouldn't phoen the department head on their day off to let them know that cover was needed, i'd find the cover myself and leave them a note about what i'd done.
in my appraisal i was told that i should leave and go travelling...fair enough, but when i put in for a weeks leave later that day i'm told that i might not be able to have it because thay can't do without me that week...yeah cheers...mixed information is really going to do my head well
it's got to the point where i just can't be bothered anymore and if i could live without work and money then i would.
i just wish that there was an easy answer to stopping all the stupid little things in my life from annoying me and winding me up and that way i could clear my head and get on with everything that needs to be done, but feeling like this i just can't get on with anything. i'm due in work this afternoon and i know that i'll mooch around for a few hours and not actually get much done, if anything, then come home and feel just as bad and get really narked about something and want to go out and drive like a maniac for a while just to get it out of my system
i've been here before and i'm not going to let it beat me, but i can feel it winning
i know i need help, but i don't know what help i need or where to get it
but basically that's what's wrong"
taken from an email to a mate that i sent this morning because she asked what was wrong
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"i don't know what's wrong, at the moment i have no desire to get up in the morning, no reason for going to work and i don't want to come home after i've been there.
the smallest things are pissing me off, like yesterday, work phoned me about something simple, but it was something that i obviously wouldn't know the answer too not having been at work yesterday, yet they still saw fit to phone me up about it anyway...that pissed me off
they phoned me and skirted around the fact that they were a teacher down, but wouldn't come out and ask me to do it directly, so i made up some bullshit about being busy and decided that i wasn't going in for them because if i had a similar situation i wouldn't phoen the department head on their day off to let them know that cover was needed, i'd find the cover myself and leave them a note about what i'd done.
in my appraisal i was told that i should leave and go travelling...fair enough, but when i put in for a weeks leave later that day i'm told that i might not be able to have it because thay can't do without me that week...yeah cheers...mixed information is really going to do my head well
it's got to the point where i just can't be bothered anymore and if i could live without work and money then i would.
i just wish that there was an easy answer to stopping all the stupid little things in my life from annoying me and winding me up and that way i could clear my head and get on with everything that needs to be done, but feeling like this i just can't get on with anything. i'm due in work this afternoon and i know that i'll mooch around for a few hours and not actually get much done, if anything, then come home and feel just as bad and get really narked about something and want to go out and drive like a maniac for a while just to get it out of my system
i've been here before and i'm not going to let it beat me, but i can feel it winning
i know i need help, but i don't know what help i need or where to get it
but basically that's what's wrong"
taken from an email to a mate that i sent this morning because she asked what was wrong
px
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