man-flu
ok, ok, i've got a cold, i'm putting it down to being a little stressed from moving last weekend...

got an interview today, not sure if i'll get the job, if i don't expect to get it then i'll be more relaxed and less disappointed if i don't get it

i'm coping, living with my parents has been made easier by the fact that my dad has gone away for a few days so i've got a chance to settle in with out having to deal with other people around me all the time, mum being at work and all that.

i NEED to go to the pub, but i'm on lates today and tomorrow so that sucks! probably not a good idea anyway seeing as i've got man-flu

got to sort through some boxes today before going to my interview, got to get rid of some of the stuff, it's starting to get on my nerves seeing my life in boxes

sleeping a little better now, not sure if that's down to being over tired or just that i've settled a little bit

oh well
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driven to distraction
well i'm at work and bored out of my banana tree!
i've got a mouth ulcer and it's painful as hell!
been bidding for items on ebay, i can see that it might get a little addictive, only starting small though, after an mg zr steering wheel for my car, yes i know my car's not an mg, but it'll look good and i'm planning big things or my car, maybe
got yet another docment to review this month, this one is 29 pages and once again there's lots of little red marks on it already, only on page 10 though :(
been getting text messages off of someone i know, but i don't know who they are, i've been trying to have a conersation with them to try and get some clues about who it is, but it's not happening and now if i ask who it is i'll look like a fool...how random is that!
trying hard not to pull funny faces while i'm eating my lunch, but it's not working, i've got some bongela, but i don't want to put that on until after i've finished
work is so dead and boring, there's suposed to be a family swim on at the moment, but there's no-one in the pool, the radio's crap and i'm bloody BORED!
help! me!
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day one in the big brother house

thankfully i've spent most of the day out of the house in doing so i've avoided pretty much everyone at home, i don't mean to say that being at home is a bad thing, far from it, i don't have to do any washing up, i don't have to do any washing or stuff like that, but the downside is that i'm feeling a bit of a guest at the moment which isn't that good, anyway!

work was ok, i had stuff to do, not particularly interesting stuff, but at least it was something to do...reviewing H&S documents is definately not what i consider fun, especially as there was around 50 pages to this months documents, normally i get 3 documents and they're at most 6 pages, usually only 4, but this month one of them is 22 pages and it's come out with an appendix which was a further 18 pages...not fun!

everything else is a bit weird, but that's expected at the moment, i think it's going to take me at least a month to get myself settled...AT LEAST!!!

anyway, i'd better go, i wanted to watch predator, which started 20 minutes ago and I'm not got a tv to watch it on yet!!!

laters
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whacked
after seeing that a mate had got herself a decent googlewhack, i resigned myself to having a go, and after a few random attempts, after all it's suppoed to be random right? i found myself one registered it on the whack stack too...made me laugh, only trouble is that if i list it here it stops becoming a googlewhack...bummer huh? well if you want to know what it was you'll have to email me or find out some other way. i started with some long words though to see if i could come up with something from there, but it was a bit too ramdon to put some of the weird and wonderful words that i know and they were still coming up with like 4 or 5 hits...technique was adapted to one long and little used word and one fairly normal word, started with some random fruits, but eventually i came up with something and it worked

moved back in with my folks today...should be interesting

got an interview at thame leisure centre on thursday, same company, same money i expect too, but the centre is better and more in line with my experience and skills base, besides i'll be on site with the company's h&s blokey which means that as a company we should be able to sort things out and become stronger at it...anyway that's my story and i'm sticking to it!

bit bored, don't really know what to do with myself now i'm at my folks place, i can see myself spending a lot of time online or in my room playing on the ps2 or watching a film or just sitting and reading with some tunes on

bit miffed about the way i moved, having my dad help was just annoying...as in he wanted to move the table, so i had to clear it, just as i started to do that he decided that he wanted to move the book case and would i take out all the books, then it was the coffee table, then it was why hasn't the table been cleared...and so the circle continued...irritatingly so...

right, i've got to get on with unpacking and i've got to sort out the tv and stuff like that in my room, i think having the 32" tv in my bedroom is a little excessive, so i'll probably swap it with the 28" from the lounge, which is probably still a little on the excessive side, but i don't care, at least i'll have a decent view of the PS2 :D

laters
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back to the grind
well i've had a nice 9 days off in which i did some exciting things, but completely failed to start my packing ready to move out, which i'm starting tomorow!!!
right in my time off i watched films, went to the pub quiz, went to sheffield to see jenfer, got totally wasted, and got a new tattoo...it's all good
must thank jenfer for her hospitality, because i'm an awkward bugger, although i did cook for her and her housemates one night, which was cool. got very drunk on the first night i was there, we started drinking not long after i got there and went all day from then...twas a good sesh, not had one like it for a very long time, and probably won't for a long time to come.
birthday...it's under 4 weeks away now and i need to sort something out, it's on a friday, so everyone who's at work i think should invoke POETS day and help me celebrate, that means if you're available that weekend you should get in touch please so i can start to formulate something to do, initial ideas have been bill bailey in london on the friday followed by lots of drinking for the rest of the weekend OR dublin for friday returning sometime on the sunday for a decent sesh in ireland...anyway those are my ideas
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multiple personalities...kinda
you know the phrase about being in 2 minds about something, well it would seem that at the moment i'm in two (or more) minds about everything, thus leading me to the possible conclusion that maybe i've got multiple personalities...either that or i'm thinking about all sides of the story and can't be bothered to make up my mind about any of them...
EXAMPLE: do i go to the pub or go training?
pro's and con's for both
pub
pro's=beer, entertainment, beer, chance to win money on the quiz, beer, friends and oh and did i mention beer?
con's=spending money on said beer, smokey room, not winning the quiz because the quizmaster can't count/add-up, not being able to drink enough to get totally wasted due to having to drive home, not going training
training
pro's=getting paid, keeping my training record up to date, seeing people at work, training with my "team"
con's=seeing people at work, it's my week off, not going to the pub

so as you can see i'm none-the-wiser for writing all that down and to be perfectly honest i'd probably stay at home because i don't know which to do. i'd prefer to go to the pub, but then i'll feel guilty for not training.

there are other things that are of a similar ilk as this...the whole do i don't i scenario is pants

i'm trying to track an old friend down, someone i knew while i was in leeds at uni, but i don't even know where to start, i've tried google and ask and a couple of other search engines, but failed miserably so far, i've thought about going to the library and getting all the people with her last name out of the phone book, but what if she's ex-directory/married/not got a phone, and then if she is in the phone book, what do i do, call them all to find her? write to the all to find her? think of the cost, thankfully she's not a "smith", that would be a nightmare. and if i do find her, what do i say, "hey, not spoken to you for 5+ years, how are you? really, that's nice..." i guess i'm trying to talk myself out of tracking her down, but there's a big part of me that wishes i'd never lost contact with her and that we stayed friends when i left, but i didn't stay in contact with her and i'm sorry for that.

i feel like i'm losing a lot of my friends through not being bothered to keep in touch with them and i don't like that, i really should stay in touch, but it's hard motivating myself to chat to someone when i don't see them everyday or haven't seen them for a while. i don't speak to anyone i used to work with, i only left the wave 6 months ago and it's all a bit pants now that i don't speak to anyone from there properly anymore, occasionally there's someone online that i chat to, or i get a random text inviting me out for a beer, which i usually decline or forget about until after the event. i'm a crap friend

it's my birthday in a month...just to remind you! i want to try and get out of the country, but i know that if i try to plan anything other people will not be able to arrange things to suit so that they can join me so i'm thinking that it's just going to end up as another pipe dream and nothing will come of it.

right i'm done, i've gotta go home and eat and pack and stuff like that, probably won't go training or to the pub, probably be to miffed with myself to do either...don't ask ok, just don't ask

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under a month left :(

still at least moving back in with my folks should mean that i can "save" some money...maybe

work has been pants ish this week, but i've only had a 4 day week this week and i've got all weekend off now, as for next week, well from saturday i'm off for 9 days, bit late now to plan a holiday, but at least it'll give me a chance to maybe visit a few people and not have to worry about the work thing that i'm supposed to be doing

on the job front, i finally heard back from la fitness about the job in stevenage, i didn't get it, but the bloke said i was his 2nd choice, i wonder if he said that to everyone he turned down? also finally made it to guildford, didn't go the first time because the idiot never told me how i was supposed to get there, didn't go the second time because i got home from the night before at 10.20 and the interview thing was supposed to be at 11, guildford being at least an hour away i called and made up something about my car being crap and that i'd broken down. anyway when i finally got there, the bloke was a prick, but he seemed quite happy to try and find me a job, it being a recruiting agency that i went to, he says that i've got to givce him an up to date cv though and then he'll sort me out with some work, might even try to get me the job in brighton that he was banging on about as an example of a private health club rather than a leisure centre, they pay more apparently...sounded like he was talking crap to me and he advised me that i didn't seem very enthusiastic...i said that it was hard to get excited about maybe being put forward for a job, especially after a long ish drive and not a lot of sleep...pillock!

spent a fair amount of money this week, sorted out some storage for my stuff when i move back into my folks place, going to cost £120 ish a month, but that's going to be cheaper than ditching it all and buying new stuff when i move back out...when ever that's going to be

also got the spaced boxed set, having never seen it before, i laughed my socks off

also bought a couple of cd's, maroon 5 being one of them, it's my cd of the week, i'm liking it!

that's about it, nothing exciting seems to happen in my life these days, probably a good thing, but then i'm finding it hard to remember a time when something exciting did happen...oh well

right that's me out for now
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