angerballs (parental advisory explicit language)
like you wouldn't believe
so the holiday (NOT vacation) was cool...loved every minute of it, it was so good i wish i'd never came back
things haven't been too great since i came back
and i don't really want to go into too many details about things as i want to check with someone before i post about it...needless to say it's a long story and it's really got to me the last couple of days
to top it all off though i got really pissed off yesterday while i was at my lifeguard job...so much so that i told the DM that i was quitting with immediate effect, seeing as i'd not signed the zero hours contract they'd sent through to me while i was away because it's bullshit, i can't see as i have to give any notice at all and so i checked that i wasn't going to be causing too much of a problem by walking out and then did just that
there are so many things there that i need to be able to change, things that i think are wrong, bad practise or just plain stupid...example...having 8 lifeguards in the building, with only 3 on poolside at any one time, and the ones that are off poolside are off for the better part of 2 hours...not doing very much at all
the staff there are patronizing, i've been qualified as a lifeguard for 11 years now, iive worked as a cleaner, a lifeguard, a teacher, a manager...i think i know a little bit more than the guy who started a month before me, but insists on telling me how to do things, or the camp guy who seems to think that i'm not aware that i'm due back on poolside in 15 minutes and feels the need to remind me every time i'm off poolside, even though i was the only one off poolside
things like that make Px a proper style angerball
things like that make Px walk out
walking out makes Px smile a little, but now i'm waiting to hear back from the ops manager, because i know he's going to call me sometime on monday...that's going to be an entertaining phone call...
"yeah sorry i walked out like i did, but there are so many things that i can see that are wrong there and need to be changed, and i know that there is nothing i can do as a lowly lifeguard, and i know that as soon as i suggest some changes certain people will think that i'm trying to rock the boat, other people will think that i'm too cocky and other people will look at me blankly and say 'what the fuck are you on about...this is how we've always done it there's nothing wrong with it...is there?' so on that note i quit, i don't need the hassle and stress that comes along with the pitance that you call my wages, i'll return my clean uniform some point soon...when it suits me."
things are really fucked up at the moment
i went to speak to woja about things and he helped a little
but i still feel as though my hand is hovering just above the big red self-fucking-destruct button and i'm not sure if i have the energy to hold it up anymore