HNT time again
this is a difficult post
as some of you are very aware, i'm having some personal problems at the moment. unfortunately these problems have also manifested themselves in a physical way, starting last night. i suffer from IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) which cause severe stomach cramps and on occasion vomiting and well you know what i'm getting at... last night was the first major attack i've had in about 5 years, it left me unable to drive, which meant that i and to leave my car at the cinema last night and convince the people i was with that i would be ok. the girl i'm with (the one i want to be with from the previous post) wouldn't leave me and insisted that she either drove me home or to the hospital, home was my choice because i knew that there is very little that can be done at the hospital, apart from pain relief and i don't like needles.
anyway she stayed with me for a while when we got home and eventually i started to feel better. i am ok, but at the same time i'm not well at all. but i'm trying to cope with everything without causing much stress to other people.
anyway my HNT pics follow, the first is me biting my lip, i've been doing that a lot over the last few days to try to hold things together

the next two are difficult for me to post, they are of a time when things weren't so good for me, although they are taken recently (as in yesterday, before i got ill) they both happened in august last year, when i was feeling so low that i wanted something else to think about, the emotional pain i was in was too much so i started cutting myself to give me something more physical and real to concentrate on. all the marks are on my left arm, the first is the worst one i ever did, i used a steak knife and hardly felt it at all, but i needed to go to the hospital for stitches, that was the last time i did it because of the way the nurse looked at me and because i had to tell people that i wasn't coping very well. the second pic is of a series of smaller cuts which were done around the same time, but less severe. i'm sorry if this makes you feel uncomfortable.