stupid drivers
just a quick rant about stupid drivers
on the way to work this morning a stupid BMW driver cut me up, then made a hand gesture to say it was my fault
i was hoping that this ignoramus was going to stop at the next available opportunity and argue with me as some people have done that before and they soon back down when i unfold my 6'4" frame from my little car, but alas they did not.
i had it all ready for them as well, i was going to give it to them with both barrels as the saying goes
but my wit was wasted.
thing is it was them at fault.
we were at a round about and we were both going straight across, now unless there is a filter on, to go straight across you should be in the outside lane, like i was, but the bmw was in the inside lane...no i know that my 1.4 isn't very quick off the mark, and should've been left for dust compared to the 2.8 bmw engine, but it wasn't and i was level with this other car most of the way across the roundabout, it was only when i got the turn off that they put their foot down and cut me off (bastard)
i had this ready for them too...
"thanks for cutting me up you ignorant prick. why don't you look up an online copy of the highway code when you get to your nice office, instead of looking up porn and fantasising about your secretary who you'll never get because you're old, balding and boring and she'd much rather have someone like me instead. once you're looking at the highway code, i suggest reading the section on roundabouts and you'll realise that you were in the wrong, so tomorrow when i see you and you try to cut me up again, you'll wave me through and apologise for having your head up your arse!"
but like i said this pillock thought he was king of the road and ignored me

you'll all be pleased to know that, contrary to the implications of the above, i'm actually in a much better mood today as well :)
take care now
Px

oh, ps linny, you're from georgia right? thought you might appriciate this joke:

After the southern tourist had been served in a Las Vegas cocktail lounge, he beckoned the waitress back and said quietly, "Miss, y'all sure are a luvly, luvly lady; can ah persuade y'all to give me a piece of ass?"

"Lord, that's the most direct proposition I've ever had!" gasped the girl.

Then she looked around the room, smiled and added, "Sure, why not? You're nice lookin' too and it's pretty slow here right now, so why don't we just slip away up to my room?"

When the pair returned half an hour later, the man sat down at the same table and the waitress asked, "Will there be anything else, sir?"

"Why yes," replied the southern gentleman. "Ah sure'preciate what y'all just did for me; it was real sweet and right neighbourly, but where ah come from in Georgia, we lack our bourbon real cold, so ah still need to trouble y'all for a piece uh ass for mah drink."

that friday feeling? (being edited and added to through the day)
HELL NO!!!
this is a warning, this post probably isn't going to be a great read and more than likely will be disjointed and random in places
8am
so i got up and was sick this morning, by 7 am i'd thrown up 3 times :(
but seeing as i hadn't eaten anything since about 7pm the night before there was nothing to come up apart from spit and stomach acid...not cool, very not cool
I'm being moved off of the friday night shift at the pub, for one reason or another, and i'm being switched to a sunday. i think that's going to be better for me because not only am i getting a little more responsibility as i'll be cashing up and locking up at the end of the night, it means i'll not be working back to back long days anymore, 8-5 and then 6-11.30+ on a thursday and then a friday too doing this is not cool...very not cool
work has been a bit pants too as you may have guessed from the previous post! just another thing that's not cool...very not cool

however on the cool side of things, i heard from a mate who i've not seen in over a year, but i'm told that he does pop in here from time to time and check up on me as it were. anyway, he's getting married in a few months and wants me to go, so that's cool...very cool
but it does mean i'll have to hunt out my suit, check it still fits, get it cleaned and all that, but it'll be worth it!

9.30 am
fed up

i've got one quote out this morning already and it's only half 9, add that to the one i got out yesterday, that only leaves me the one i'm working on now, the one that needs to go out on monday and the one that i've just got...well they're are the ones i have right now, but i know there are a couple of others on the horizon :o(

11am
that's another quote done...but think of the trees here, this one was 60 pages long, we keep a hardcopy and send one to the client, except this client has requested multiple copies of the quote (why he can't just print them off himself i'll never know, but hey!)

just had the email for the next one too, this one will be "interesting" as it's the 9th revision to the base quote, i'm sure we should've been charging them for the additional revisions that we've made to this one...it's getting beyond a joke! every couple of weeks the sales manager calls me and says "you'll never guess what...they want another revision done!" this time they want some rear panels, some locks and want some things we added for them last revision, removed for this one!!! can you say "PISS TAKE!!"?

and that is what i spend my day doing...well that and obviously blogging about it too lol

12.30pm
that's the 3rd quote to leave my hands today! that was a little one (the 8th revision though and seemingly pointless)
but i've just been handed a fax, 17 pages in total regarding something i quoted 6 weeks ago and how the QS thinks that i've got the wrong size on the units, trouble is if i have got the wrong sizes it'll be monday before anyone can get me new prices and even then they'll probably take a day or two to get them to me...and the QS is hoping for a letter on monday with the revised price and missing items included...we missed them out because they're non-standard items, things like whiteboards, which i've now sourced and priced, we were €30k - €40k under the others tendering for this project, i've added in the white boards and some sinks i'd missed as well and added €42k, if these units are also going to be special constructions then i'm looking at probably adding to that even further...great, way to be competitive on price!!!
also been chatting to woja, we're thinking of heading to see the wrestling again sometime this year so that'll be cool :D
well best get back to it :(

3.55pm
with just over an hour to go at this job i've finally hit the wall!
i went through the 17 page fax, working out what they wanted and what we'd offered were different things, in so far as what i'd priced was almost what the wanted, except everything was out by 90 degrees, they wanted a 1200mm high unit, i'd offered a 1200 wide unit because that was what made sense, even the sales manager said that she'd have done the same thing, so that's ok :)
throat hurts
didn't do a pub lunch either today...didn't feel like it and wanted to crack on with work
but now i'm at the wall and i'm stuck
can't do anymore

song for saturday...(friday again i know but who cares, so few people visit on a saturday!)
Boys Don't Cry by The Cure it's a cracking song and it's very me at the moment (been listening to the unplugged version today)

i think that'll be the last update for the day, gotta dash off from here and go to my penultimate friday at the pub
laters peeps,
Px

it just goes to show (if you're here for HNT it's below this post)
if you start the day in a positive way
you set yourself up for a fall
i was happy this morning
i'd had a good night out last night and was on a positive high for the day
but gradually work has dragged me down and down and down
i'm now so deep down that i can't see the light for the piles of shite work that i have on my desk
stupid proposals that are worthless and meaningless and generally realy crappy
projects that want the smallest of details changed which involved re-pricing everything, adjusting the figures to suit the sales team, the MD and the client, re issuing the document to the right people, once you've found out who the right people are that is, then there's the back log of tidying things up afterwards, copying files onto different servers so different people can find them, printing off hard copies of EVERYTHING used to make the quote up and then filing it all in the temperamental (emphasise mental when you read that back again later) filing cupboard in files that are too big to fit inside the hangers.
it's all crap
and i want to go home
but i can't because tonight i'm working in the pub!!!
i knew i should've brought my laptop with me, i could've done something useful while i was at the pub tonight, serving the 0 customers we have on a thursday (last week there were 3 people in and 5 staff, which gradually declined to the point of there being no customers and 5 staff)
somebody please take me away from all this
please
i'm begging you
rant over


for now
Px

un prepared HNT
for various reasons (all of them out-of-this-world good) i've not had chance to prep a decent HNT again!!!
slacking i know, but here's my neck

so i entered this competition
online
about 2 weeks ago
the prize was a date in london with one of the people running the competition
i entered thinking nothing would come of it
as i usually think when i enter competitions
thing is i got short-listed to the final 3 that would face a public vote to find out who would win
that was last wednesday
on friday i got an email to say i'd won
the date was last night
i went
i had a much better time than i'd expected
i mean it was really really cool, she was really good fun and easy to get along with, really chatty and generally we clicked
we were supposed to go to the theatre, but with the wine flowing we just got lost in conversation, chatting about everything and anything
it seemed very natural
and i'm thinking it'd be cool to do it again

monday morning blues...on a monday afternoon!
keeping me sane is proving fairly hard at the moment what with the lack of sleep and everything!
had to excuse myself early on friday night from my shift at the pub as i could feel myself falling asleep and i knew i'd start getting grouchy with someof the locals as well, thankfully some of the more irritating ones weren't in
the weekend passed fairly uneventfully...with the exception of spanish's house warming party...click here to go see, pictures will follow as soon as i've got round to dealing with them...but there are some very cool pics, and some even better videos :D
sunday was my day to chill, but i didn't manage all that much chilling
and then it was back to work today...the grind that it is...
been trying to get prices for various things...one supplier has made me wait pretty much all day before faxing me a little note "sorry we are unable to supply the above items" needless to say i was well impressed, but if they can't do it, that's fair enough, but they could've told me a little earlier...ho-hum
tonight is quiz night, although i'm not 100% sure i'll be attending as i should really try to get another early night, i say early, but we all know it'll be after midnight before i get to sleep, so i guess i may as well head out and enjoy myself :)
take it easy peeps (glad to see there are no tags about at the moment)
Px

Song for Saturday (yeah i know it's still friday...but who cares!)
feel good song for the weekend... was listening to it in the car this morning on the way to work and it's put me in a good mood :D
funky cold medina - Tonè Loc
cold cooling at a ball
looking for some action
but like Mick Jagger said
I can't get no satisfaction
the girls are all around
but none of them wanna get with me
my threads are fresh and I'm looking def
yo wassup with the l o c
the girls are all jocking
at the other end of the bar
having drinks with some no name chump
when they know that I'm the star
so I got up and strolled over
to the other side of the cantina
I asked the guy, "why you so fly?"
he said "funky cold medina"

this brother told me a secret
on how to get more chicks
put a little medina in your glass
and the girls'll come real quick
it's better than any alcohol
or afrodesiac
a couple of sips of this love potion and she'll be on your lap
so I gave some to my dog, when he began to big
and then he licked his bowl and he looked at me
and did the wild thing on my leg
he used to scratch and bite me
before he was much much meaner
but now all the poodles run to my house for the funky cold medina

you know what I'm saying
I got every dog in my neighborhood breaking down my door
I got Spuds McKenzie, Alex from Strolls
they won't leave my dog alone with that medina thing

I went up to this girl
she said "Hi, my name Sheena"
I thought she'd be good to go with a little funk cold medina,
she said "I'd like a drink", I said "ok, I'll go get it"
and then a couple of sips,
she cold licked her lips
and I knew that she was with it
so I took her to my crib
and everything went well as planned
but when she got undressed
it was big old mess
Sheena was a man
so I threw him out
I don't fool around with no Oscar Meyer weiner
you must be sure that the girl is pure for the funky cold medina
you know,
ain't no plans with a man,
this is the 80s and I'm down the ladies,

break it down,

back in the saddle, looking for a little affection
I took a shot, I thought I'd test it on the Love Connection
the audience guests voted,
and you know, they picked a winner
I took my date to the Hilton for medina had some dinner
she had a few drinks, I'm thinking soon what I'd be getting,
but that's when she starting talking 'bout plans for a wedding,
I said "wait, slow down love, not so fast, I'll be seeing ya",
that's why I found you don't play around with the funky cold medina

you know what I'm saying
that medina's a monster y'all

HNT time again
fluff free but you can still see where i had it pierced...i give you my belly button! no stories this week, no history behind it...nothing but pics!
First up is the straight on shot...
next up is what i see of my belly button...

Happy HNT peeps...don't know what i'm on about...click the button in the side bar :)

Take care peeps

Px

angerballs and red rage

i think that the distinct lack of a decent night's sleep for a while and the distinct lack of time being spent with a certain someone are really starting to piss me off

Yeah Yeah and i'm drop dead gorgeous!
hey hey peeps
it's a saturday songday and the song for the day it drop dead gorgeous by Republica :)
seeing as it's saturday and i think i successfully managed to get about 6 hours sleep again last night (not counting how many nights it is now since i had more than that) i'm in a cracking good mood
i also got my sexy new image today...oh yes people your Px is changing...out are the glasses, dropped in favour of my nice new contact lenses!!! picture will appear at the bottom of the post, story behind them first!
ok so it's december, mother has suggested that i get lenses again as now i'm not working in a swimming poll i can wear them when and wherever i please...she's even willing to pay for them. (bonus!) right, well the first pair of new lenses arrives on the 23rd of december, just intime for christmas :) but alas i'm told that they don't fit my eye very well, which is why they were slipping all the time, a new pair would be ordered and should arrive in a couple of weeks. second pair arrive and the fit is perfect, i mean they are spot one fit wise, but driving to work in the morning i noticed that the road signs were not as clear as they were when i was wearing glasses, so i wisely choose to take them off and go back into the opticians and complain, new eye test is done, and new lenses are ordered. now your normally placid Px is starting to get a bit narked about this having paid some £150 for contact lenses in december and by mid january still having nothing to show for it! a call came yesterday to say that my new lenses were in, so i called them this morning and made an appointment to have them fitted and check that the prescription was right this time. the earliest available appointment...2 weeks time. Unimpressed Px books said appointment and wanders back off to bed. not long after i get a phone call, it's the opticians saying that they've had a cancellation and that i needed to go down right away to get my new lenses so i could put them in and go back 2 hours later for the appointment. Done
went back in for the appointment and the nice lady got me to read the lines on the chart, first with each eye singularly (read the middle line each time) then with both eyes (read the bottom line...quite surprisingly as that line was pretty small and well above the british standard set for lenses) comfort wise i've had them in over 5 hours now and they are feeling fine still, although i'll probably take them out before i go out tonight. sight wise, they're better than my glases :)
i'm a happy Px and i'm a sexy looking mother trucker too now :D...want the proof?
here you go! (i'm squinting because it's sunny and i know i need a shave, but it's the weekend so what you gonna do about it :P)

HNT
Back to the foot again this week (was a little preoccupied to set something up last night apologies) this is the same foot as last time, only this is a bit of a dodgy side view to show off the scar which is about 8" long and hides underneath it a calcaneous (spelling) plate and 7 screws which are holding my heel together.
I'm also going to be posting on here today, some bad poetry... so please head there and have a look (10 dodgy poems posted, but please go and look) all the best and HHNT peeps
Px

stupid thing
if you'd like to comment on this post regarding the other post from today (the facts about px and shadowfish post) please do as the other one is being crap and the HTML it interferring with everything
Take care peeps
Px

poached from osbasso
really interesting and "honest" facts about Px...i'm liking the licking idea though...and the kissing...any offers?

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Px!

1. If you lick px ten times, you will consume one calorie.
2. Px will give a higher yield if milked when listening to music.
3. The original nineteenth-century Coca-Cola formula contained px.
4. If you kiss px for one minute you will burn six or seven calories.
5. It takes more than 500 peanuts to make px.
6. A chimpanzee can learn to recognize itself in a mirror, but px can not.
7. Px, from the movie of the same name, had green blood.
8. Px was the first Tsar of Russia.
9. If you chew gum while peeling px then it will stop you from crying.
10. If you break px, you will get seven years of bad luck.

http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl" method="get" style="background-color:#5F5F42;color:#CFCF95;padding:4px;text-align:center">I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

then i used the alterego shadowfish and i got this...anyone wanna come and count my dimples?
div style="padding:8px;margin:15px;background-color:#CFCF95;color:#1A0A13;font-family: georgia, helvetica, trebuchet ms, verdana, sans-serif;">

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Shadowfish!

1. The Aztec Indians of Mexico believed shadowfish would protect them from physical harm, and so warriors used him to decorate their battle shields.
2. Ninety-six percent of all candles sold are purchased by shadowfish!
3. You should always open shadowfish at least an hour before drinking him.
4. There are 336 dimples on shadowfish.
5. Some people in Malaysia bathe their babies in beer to protect them from shadowfish.
6. In Japan, shadowfish can only be prepared by chefs specially trained and certified by the government.
7. The blood of mammals is red, the blood of insects is yellow, and the blood of shadowfish is blue.
8. You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching shadowfish.
9. The Eskimos have over fifty words for shadowfish.
10. In Chinese, the sound 'shadowfish' means 'bite the wax tadpole'.

http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl" method="get" style="background-color:#5F5F42;color:#CFCF95;padding:4px;text-align:center">I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

I don't know, he doesn't blog for ages and ages so i don't curse him by tagging him and then when he does finally return to blogging, the bugger doesn't update, but rather posts a tag, and worse still, he fucking tags me with it!!!
for that woja, i'm tagging you with every tag i've done in the last 6 months 1 2 3 4 (that takes us back to july '05 and should give you something to do while you're trying not to work...
anyway on with the tag...
Apparently, I need to write down 5 weird habits I have, then tag 5 people to do the same...
here goes...
1) i hate having dirty finger nails, anything else about me can be dirty, but i hate having dirty finger nails! i'll use anything i can get hold of to clean them as well...i;m not saying my nails are in immaculate condition, i've never had a manicure, but i just don't like the idea of them being dirty
2) no matter what time dinner or lunch is, within 5 minutes of starting it i have to get up and go pee
3) i store rubbish in my car for ages, i rarely clean out the interior. there is usually a bag behind my seat which everything gets stuffed into
4) i never call people on my mobile (cell) phone, i'd rather send them a text message, at least that way i know that they've got the details written down if we're arranging to meet up or something
5) if i cook dinner, i loathe the idea of having to wash up afterwards, if i'm cooking for osmeone else then there is a simple rule, i cook, they wash up...if i'm cooking for myself i've been known to wash up only the things tht i need to cook with (usually just before i start to cook)

ok so 5 people that i'm tagging
Akanksha...you love your tags
Autumn...you love it too
Kt Mae...it'll give you something to do
jennifer...come on, give us some more info about you
PP...i'm trying to shame you into doing a tag...and if you don't i shall organise a boycott of your blog :P

and woja...you've got your tags, they're all pretty simple so do them

laters peeps
Px

just a quick one tonight as i've got things to do etc.

ok i've been tagged, i'll deal with it tomorrow while i'm at work...woja (in the sidebar) has finally got round to updating his blog (ok he got tagged into doing so...) BTW dude, i'd been refraining from tagging you as you'd been too lazy to update anything for ages, but seeing as you're doing tags, i'm tagging you for every tag i've had in the last 6 months!!! (that's not that many though)

i'm now officially debt free, went into the bank yesterday and spoke to someone there and cleared my loan, my credit card and my overdraft in one foul swoop :)

i'm trying to develop my own website, so far i've registered the domain name and well have a look...it's here...but there's nothing there yet apart from the coming soon bit lol (suggestions of what i can put online will be appriciated

went out last night, had a few drinks with people i've not seen for ages. some bloke wanted to fight me for some dumb ass reason (think it's because i'd slept with his girlfriend, but that was months ago and they weren't together then) but i don't actually know because he wouldn't sit down and talk to me about it...like i care

and yeah, that's about it for the moment, life is trotting along fairly well
laters peeps
Px

HNT

i took this while i was driving home from work the other day, lacking in inspiration as you can tell, i thought it was interesting though because it's part of me i only ever see in the mirror, the underside of my chin. and as you can see, the beard's back, so my lady's happy :o)

sorry jennifer, no scrotum pics heading your way, besides the piercing has since been removed ("i had my scrotum pierced" past tense)
take care peeps, and HHNT!
Px

EDIT: i forgot to mention that my mate Tochy is playing HNT for the first time, please go and visit her and make her feel loved (link in the sidebar)

A-Z tag
not my fault
A - Age you got your first Kiss: proper kiss, with the girl i was seeing when i was 14
B - Band listening to right now: nothing as i'm at work, but in the car i've got Kayne West, Kaiser Chiefs, Niplozi, Linkin Park with Jay-Z and Pendulum
C- Crush: my lady (obviously), Kiera Knightley (i don't care what you say), and i'm sure there are a few others
D- Drink of Choice: Coke for when i'm driving, other (usually the guest ale if it's any good) for when i'm not driving
E - Easiest person: erm...i'm taking this not to be anything too rude...i know lots of people and they're all fairly easy
F - Favorite band at the moment: see B
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: i'm a fan of all sweets, but i prefer worms to bears, there's more to chew
H – Holiday: got to be Cyprus (sept'00) for the place, dublin (nov'04) for the beer and cornwall (nov'05) for the company
I - Instruments: have a clarinet which i don't play anymore, can play the piano and i'm trying to learn the guitar (last years resolution STILL unfulfilled)
J - Juice: orange, apple or pineapple...but if i'm feeling extravagant blood orange all the way baby
K-Kids: love to have one of my own one day, i'm good with kids of all ages
L - Longest car ride ever: through yosemite and death valley to las vegas
M - Major: would've been maths if i'd stayed at uni
N - Nicknames: punk, pixy, evil pete, shadowfish
O - One wish: my lady is all i want
P - Phobia[s]: mid range heights (like being up a ladder or scaffolding) i've been up the eiffel tower and i was fine then, i'm ok ish in planes depends on the turbulence and i'm more than happy to abseil from platforms as well, but ladders, scaffolding and diving boards are not cool
Q - Quote: "There's something i like about the clitoris, but i just can't seem to put my finger on it" - George Carlin
R - Reason to smile: finishing something, my lady holding my hand, a decent gig (flogging molly was the last one), having nothing to worry about
S - Song you sang last: Golddigger - Kanye West
T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:15
U - Unknown fact about me: too many people read this and know different things about me...lemme see...i had my scrotum pierced
V - Vegetable you hate: Brussel Sprouts
W - Worst thing to have happened to you: all sorts of bad things have happened, i'd rather not dwell on the really bad ones, those that know me know the worst of them
X-rays you've had: loads
1) heel/foot (i think the total for that including the CT scan is in the region of 30 from 2 different breaks [heel and 5th metatarsal])
2) wrist (various times totalling around 20 from 2 different breaks [scafoid and wrist])
3) chest (10 i think, [ribs and sternum])
4) knee (2 not broken, but checking for burrs and cartilidge damage)
Y - Yummy food: pretty much anything, although i'm not a fan of fast food places like McD's and burger king
Z - Zodiac sign: Scorpio

I'm tagging the newbie-Toch, Kt Mae, Jennifer and Autumn Storm (i was going to tag PP, but as we all know she won't do it anyway) if anyone else wants to do it go for it! take care peeps
Px

Celebration of life
I've had to have my remaining rattie put down today, so i'm feeling a little upset about that, especially as she was my favorite of these two. that means i've lost both my little girls within 2 months of each other.
they had a good run though, living to about 2 years old (average age for a rat so i'm told) but they both got lumps (which they are susecptible to) not sure if they were cancerous or absess' but either way they're not pleasent for them.
my rats were great, all four of them brought me happiness and good memories over the years. pinky and the brain were the first two and kept me sane while i was in uni and they were sorely missed when they passed away. fudge and snowball, although being a constant reminder of an ex-girlfriend, also brought me entertainment, even if i had to go and buy a few plasters lol.
i'm not going to be getting any more rats now though, out of the 4 that i've had over the years, 3 have had lumps, both the girls and one of my boys.
it's a shame i haven't got a picture of them that i could post.
so here's to my ratties, pinky, the brain, fudge and snowball
thanks
Px
btw, i posted like 3 times yesterday so go read them!

posting fiend today...
this is the newsy post, after this there are another 2 posts that warrant reading...and commenting on dammit!
news
after lat weekend's bust up with the folks i came back on the monday evening for a long discussion with them both, voices were raised, tears flowed, things were cleared a little and more importantly help was offered and accepted.
that's right, during the row with my folks i confessed to having a loan, credit card and overdraft totalling over £4000 worth of debt. the first offer of help was to clear that for me, which after a battle with my pride and my conscience i have accepted the money from my mum. the second offer stems from the line "i can't live here anymore, but i can't get out anywhere either" so basically if i can prove to my dad that i can be thrifty and save some money over the next few months (i think we're looking at 3 to 6 months) he's offered to stump up some money to help me put a deposit on a property. now i don't earn a great deal do the properties that are feasibly in my range are...mobile homes or places that need a lot of work doing to them, so it looks like i'm going back to my roots and become trailer trash (my folks lived in a mobile home when i was born) and please don't get me wrong and thikn that i'm being ungrateful by putting down the possibilities, i'm not, i'm loving the idea of having my own space, i'm loving the idea of having a trailer, in fact i'm loving it all!!!

other news
i'm ill, i've got a cold (please ladies note, this is a man with a common cold) i'm not dying, i'm not whinging and whining all the time, i'm trying to get on with it. the worst bit is the sore throat, it's been a pain swallowing for the last few days (please no rude comments i can make them up myself ;o) ), friday it moed into my head and threw my balance off a little and today it's finally moved into my nose. but hey, the biggest drawback is that i don't want to pass it on to my lady, which means as much as i want to kiss her, i'm refraining from it at the moment...
i've been making money by selling some of my old furniture, i know i've just said that i might be moving fairly soon, but hey, i'm thinking i should be able to get some more stuff anyway, and it's not like i'll want that much in a trailer anyway due to the room, so that's all good :o)
work has been dead quiet since christmas, but the sales manager i'm currently prepping a quote for still managed to piss me off. i requested that the changes he was about to make to the schedule of works be done in a different colour so i could identify them quickly and easily, seeing as he was re-typing a load of it anyway, you'd think this would be easy, but when the new work came through it was all still in black, so i carried on thinking it was all the same. i came across something that needed querying, so i called him about it, he told me that he'd made the changes on the new list and was i blind for not picking them up, this narked me as i then turned to him and said well it wasn't in a different colour, so how was i supposed to know, seeing as i'd specifically asked for it be in a different colour as i'd already started his quote. so he started swearing at me...the moron...anyway that bugged me, i asked him to do one simple thing and he couldn't be bothered!
last thing, if you comment hasn't been published, it doesn't mean always mean i've not approved it, sometimes it just means i've not had a chance to deal with it yet...ok? :o)
right all dealt with peeps
take care Px

lyrically speaking...
this is a tune!!! and i can't get it out of my head at the moment...it's brilliant and i recommend it to everyone, in fact i recommend the band to everyone too
"Everyday I Love You Less And Less" - kaiser chiefs
Everyday I love you less and less
It's clear to see that you've become obsessed
I've got to get this message to the press
That everyday I love you less and less
And everyday I love you less and less
I've got to get this feeling off my chest
The Doctor says all I needs pills and rest
Since everyday I love you less and less
Unless, unless
I know, I feel it in my bones
I'm sick, I'm tired of staying in control
Oh yes, I feel a rat upon a wheel
i've got to know what's not and what's real
Oh yes I'm stressed, I'm sorry I digressed
Impressed you're dressed to SOS
Oh, and my parents love me
Oh, and my girlfriend loves me
Everyday I love you less and less
I can't believe once you and me did sex
It makes me sick to think of you undressed
Since everyday I love you less and less
And everyday I love you less and less
You're turning into something I detest
And everybody says that your a mess
Since everyday I love you less and less
Unless, unlessI know, I feel it in my bones
I'm sick, I'm tired of staying in control
Oh yes, I feel a rat upon a wheel
I've got to know what's not and what is real
Oh yes I'm stressed, I'm sorry I digressed
Impressed you're dressed to SOS
Oh, and my parents love me
Oh, and my girlfriend loves me
Oh, they keep photos of me
Oh, thats enough love for me
Oh, and my parents love me
Oh, and my girlfriend loves me
Oh, they keep photos of me
Oh, thats enough love for me

the L word
after chatting with a couple of people this week about various aspects of the L word, i've decided to post my thoughts on the matter...
there are a couple of things that i want to clear up, and i'm going to break it down nice and simple (so i can understand what i'm saying more than anything) we have 3 areas:
1) lust
2) love
3) being in love
now some people might argue that the last 2 are the same, but they're not and i'll explain that later.
lust...one of the 7 deadly sins, and who can blame them, right? different people have different ideas as to what lust is and what it entails, the following is just my take on it. when i lust after someone they are in my head a lot, i'm usually thinking about the things i'd like to do to them, and yes, we are talking about sex here. i'm not thinking lovey dovey things about them, i'm not looking at them and thinking 'i would love to hold your hand, and walk in the park with you' i'm thinking ''i wonder how quick we could get naked and make the beast with two backs, i wonder if there's anything i could do to make you quiver'. and although i do think about feelings and getting involved with that person, it would never last unless i could get over the whole lust thing with them, and that's not easy.
love...not a dealy sin, just an emotion. you can love someone without being in love with them. it's easily done, i love a lot of people, love to me is an extension of the feeling of friendship, i have my friends and the i have the people i love, and then i have my lady who i am in love with, and that's the difference. i love my best mate, but there is no way in hell i'd ever be in love with him (he's not my type for a start lol) and that's the biggest distinction, i love him as a mate, i know that if there's something wrong i can turn to im for a chat and advice and to be someone who i can rely on. now i can get all of that from my lady too...but there's a difference...read on
being in love...now i am in love my lady, i know this is true. i know this because if i wasn't in love with her, i wouldn't still be with her after the last couple of months and the other things that have happened outside our relationship. things that have had affected us in a massive way. so to me, being in love is doing everything and anything in your power to be with someone, including waiting, taking a step back into the shadows and wading through the shit that sometimes comes along with it, through no-one's fault. being in love is the feeling that, even though life has dealt you a rough hand, everything is going to turn up trumps. being in love isn't about knowing everything about a person or a situation, being in love is about the discovery. when i see her i want to cuddle her, i want to hold her and be touchy feely with her, i thinking about taking her places and sharing things with her. yes i think about her in the lustful way, she's fucking sexy as hell and i'm making a lot of people jealous by being with her. but being in love with her means that i'm not just thinking those things, it means i think about her in relation to every aspect of my life. and i do mean ever single aspect, because she means that much to me.
anyway, that's my take on things, discuss?
Px

HNT - "i'don't love ya 'coz your feets too big"

this is the foot that has caused me most trouble...apart from having weird toes (note the length of the two toes next to the big toe and the stumpy ness of the little toe which also starts in a weird place, also not the gap between the big toe and the one next to it, that's all natural, i'm not stretching my toes out), a burning ring of fire tattoo, this foot also has the disticntion of having forced me to go to hospital, not once, but twice, the first time resulted in me staying in for 2 weeks, having an operation to put 1 metal plate and 7 pins in the heel, using crutches for 3 months, having 6 months of physio and dropping out of uni...why? all because i got drunk and fell off the library drain pipe, to quote my blog title...it seemed like a good idea at the time! the second time was when i broke my 5th metatarsal, a common football injury, it's the one Beckham did 4 years ago and the one Micheal Owen did a few weeks ago...it's a fairly minor break, i was walking unaided after 2 weeks and running again after about 6, although i've not really played football since, but then i rarely played football before, so it's actually not that unusual for me not to be playing.

Right Nuff Said...HHNT peeps

Px

FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE:
1) paperboy
2) cleaner/lifeguard/swim teacher/duty manager (all at the same leisure centre)
3) estimator
4) barman

FOUR MOVIES YOU WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER:
1) living dead films (night of the living dead, dawn of the dead, day of the dead, land of the dead, return of the living dead, return of the living dead 2, return of the living dead 3...need i go on)
2) the crow
3) Seven/fight club
4) pirates of the wotsit (can't spell it)...keira knightley is truly the woman of my dreams

FOUR PLACES YOU HAVE LIVED:
1) didcot
2) leeds
3) different house in didcot
4) another different house in didcot

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH:
1) red dwarf
2) lost
3) simpsons
4) cartoons and wrestling (rarely watch either these days, but thought they were similar and i love to watch them both if i can)

FOUR PLACES YOU HAVE BEEN ON VACATION:
1) california and las vegas
2) germany
3) cyprus
4) dublin

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
1) steak, rump, sirloin, fillet, i don't care which, but i love it
2) bacon buttie
3) tuna a la pete (marinated in white wine, red chillis and lime juice, flash fried, served with a green left salad, foccacia bread and the marinade reduced down and drizzled over the tuna)
4) home made chips

FOUR PLACES YOU WOULD RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
1) in bed (tired)
2) with my lady (i miss her constantly)
3) cyprus (with my lady)
4) in a pub in dublin (preferrably with my lady)

FOUR BLOGGERS YOU ARE TAGGING:
1) natalia
2) kt mae
3) daisy
4) akanksha

arguments
why is it that whenever my parents argue, i'm the one who gets stuck in the middle?
yesterday was a bad day, up until then the weekend had been going ok, but yesterday, well have a look and see for yourselves.
sunday lunch, everything's ok, pretty normal to be honest, after lunch i head upstairs to mess about online for a while and stuff like that while my folks get themselves organised to go and visit my nan.
dad let's the dog into the front room (he's only allowed in there if someone's with him as he can be a bugger at times) to wait for me as i was looking after him for the afternoon. this starts off an agrument with my mum, as she said the dog should wait in the kitchen, in his bed, like he normally does. lots of swearing and shouting ensues, the end result being mum heading off to nan's on her own, on the train. it's raining and we live 30 minutes walk from the station, and my nan lives further than that the other end.
andway, i head off out at about 4 to get my wages from the pub, have a drink and see the lady. told her all about what had gone on earlier in the afternoon. left the pub at 6 and headed home. spoke to dad, suggested that maybe he should call mum, find out where she is and offer to pick her up. another argument ensues, this time between me and him. at some point i told him that i thought the pair of them were acting like children and that they should both grow up, slammed the door and headed off upstairs, more shouting followed, with me getting the last words in "well maybe i should just fuck off, then you'll be on your own you miserable bastard" or words to that effect. i headed upstairs again, packed a bag very quickly and called my bro to see if i could use his flat for a few days until things calm down. so that's where i am, in a flat with no food, very few clothes, no other belongings, nothing.
last night i went back to the pub for my dinner, probably end up doing the same tonight, not sure yet, then went back to the flat, ran a bath and chilled for a while. mum called to find out where i was and ask me to come home so that we could gang up on him and i said no, and that i wasn't interested anymore, i wasn't going to get involved and i'd be home when i was ready and things had calmed down.
the plan is to stay out of it again tonight, pop round tomorrow night and see if things have calmed down any and if not then i'll be picking up some more things and heading back to the flat...so we'll see
until then though, only have access to the net via work and i'm trying to work out what i'm going to do if things haven't calmed down...
take care
Px

HNT in 2006
half nekkid and "hard" at it...heh heh heh
not sure it i like this pic as you can see what looks like the beginning of a roll of fat...but i blame the position of the chair in relation to the laptop...
and don't ask why the matress has been up-ended...it's a long story!
that's my infinity tattoo by the way, on my skinny arm (that doesn't mean i've got one skinny and one fat arm, they're both skinny)
and the beard is growing back, i made the mistake of shaving it off just before Christmas and someone didn't like it, i got into trouble and so i've had to grow it back for her, but then i'd do pretty much anything for her :)
make your HNT a happy one and go and visit the home of hnt to see everyone else
Take care peeps
Px

Resurrection...
thanks to the advice of a certain lovely lady (natalia) i believe that the comments section should now be alive again!!!
YAY!
but beware people i have the power to remove your comments before anyone else can see them, how cool is that.
it means that all the people i know and love, and all the other people who comment in a lovely harmless fashion are welcome to comment and we can have fun again, however any spam or "other" comments that may be submitted can be deleted before they are seen by everyone, so anything that i deem to be unfit WILL be removed
no it's ont me chickening out of an argument, it's me trying to move on without the ghosts of my past making p. poor attempts to haunt me...
yay natalia, three cheers to the saviour of my comments section!!
loves ya N
Px

this is my 250th post
can you believe it?
but with that joyous news i bring sadness
due to someone being overly abusive and childish with their comments, i have had to disable my comments section to those people who are not members of this blog, namely everyone but me...i could invite you all to be members, but that might be a little excessive, even for me
it is a sad day as i usually love reading peoples comments to me
anyway the following are the answers to the challenge
song - artist/band
words - boyzone or the beegees
only - Nine Inch Nails
down - Blink 182
hit or miss - new found glory
will you - POD
girls and boys - good charlotte or blur
motivation - Sum 41
remember - disturbed
time - hootie and the blowfish
loco - coal chamber or fun lovin criminals
crazy - britney spears
all i want - reef
follow me - uncle Kracker
it doesn't matter - wyclef jean featuring the rock
believe - chemical brothers
loser - beck
whatever - liam lynch
broken - pantera
low - foo fighters
clumsy - our lady peace
break stuff - limp bizkit
one week - bare naked ladies
nothing - A
good time - A
attitude - alien ant farm
lady - modjo
nookie - limp bizkit
freedom - george micheal or robbie williams
the middle - jimmy eats world
always - saliva, bon jovi or erasure
without me - eminem
never ever - all saints
outside - staind
ich bin ein auschlander - pop will eat itself
aeroplane - red hot chili peppers
fly away - lenny kravitz
prayer - disturbed
fly - sugar ray
every morning - sugar ray
holiday - madonna or green day
seven days in the sun - feeder
7 days - craig david
everybody's free to wear sunscreen - baz luhrmann
red - elbow
turn - feeder
cars - gary numan or fear factory
one - metallica
numb - linkin park
faint - linkin park
shock - fear factory
bad day - fuel or daniel powter
just a day - feeder
it's been a while - staind
the memory remains - metallica
falling in love again - eagle eye cherry
complicated - avril lavigne
just a girl - no doubt
trouble - pink or cypress hill
paranoid - black sabbath
here to stay - korn
game of love - santana with michelle branch
the one - foo fighters
someday - nickelback
just because - jane's addiction
alright - east 17
don't know why - norah jones
control - puddle of mudd
it feels so good - sonique
too bad - nickelback
ends - everlast
my way - limp bizkit or frank sinatra
lose yourself - eminem
blurry - puddle of mudd
dream - dizzie rascal
american girls - counting crows
chillin' - modjo
have a nice day - stereophonics
party hard - andrew wk
time is running out - muse
remember me - blueboy
perfect year - dina carroll
i'm with you - avril lavigne

i think that was all of them
anyway, thank to those who played along
and once again, sorry about the comments section
take care
Px

A Year In Review - the challenge
so i'm doing a "quick" review of some of the bigger things that have happened this year, my year in my words. but not everything is as it seems, i've decided thati want to hide some song titles in the text, and i'm challenging all my blogging buddies to find as manay as they can. It's only for fun, so don't get down if you find yourself struggling to spot any. so the rules are simple, i've put in some song titles, you need to find as many as you can and if possible, list the artist/band that did it, now i know that some of these titles have been covered and some of them have the same name as other songs. and i know that i've also probably put in some titles without even realising it. i can be a bit hit or miss like that. so come up with as many as you can. So will you girls and boys play? or do you need some motivation? don't be fooled by the answers other people have given, just remember to take your time, and dont worry if it makes you loco, i went a little crazy myself trying to work it all out. It's just for fun, i can't stress that enough, this is all i want you to do, have fun and comment about it. So follow me people, it doesn't matter how you do, believe me, no-one is a loser, anyway whatever, lets go!
At the start of 2005 i had a broken foot, i was living with my parents and signed off sick from work, which was pretty dull anyway. it was a pretty low start to the year, but things could only get better. back to the injury, it happened in december 2004, while playing football, it was just a clumsy accident, but i often tend to break stuff, i think it was the 5th or 6th different bone that i'd broke. but it was only one week before i was back at work. although soon after starting back i was looking for something new as like i'd said, work was pretty dull.
nothing much happened over the first few months, not sure if that means i had a good time or not though, but tha's not the attitude to take now is it! in april i moved into my brothers recently vacated flat, it was empty because he'd moved in with his lady friend (incidently he's still living there and his flat is empty again...) there had also been a few omen in my life by this point (i thikn it was something like 4 or 5 year to date) but don't get me wrong i didn't do it ALL for the nookie. the flat allowed me to regain some freedom in my life, i was able to do what i wanted, when i wanted and with whom i wanted. and it also meanti was no longer in the middle of my parents, which had unfortunately always been the case in the past. well, without me there all the time things in their house settled down too...a little!
in may, i called it quits on the leisure industry, after over 10 years working in swimming pools i'd had enough and decided that changes were needed. i hung up my lifeguard whistle for the last time with the intention of never ever having to pick it up again. and for the first time in my employment history i was working outside a swimming pool, outside my comfort zone.
the new job started in june, i took a weeks leave to sort things out, but it started in germany of all places, the only german i knew was ich bin ein auschlander and ich bin ein berliner, neither of which were very helpful. obviously starting in germany meant getting on an aeroplane and having to fly away over there on a wing and a prayer, i'd have preferred to have driven as i don't like to fly. i was out there for 4 weeks nearly, and everymorning we were late for our training sessions, not very late, maybe one a few minutes, but we were always late. the training went by really quickly and to be honest the time out there seemed like a holiday, with seven days in the sun, except there were more than just 7 days, it was sunny nearly the whole time we were out there. and yes i got burnt, although everybody's free to wear sunscreen, i neglected to do so and as a result i went pink, then red, then blistered and peeled. but it was cool and i made a few friends out there and had a good time, sampled a few nice beers too, but no women (well i didn't sample any)
when i came back though things took a turn for the worse as i had a crash in my car and wrote it off, meaning i went to hospital, meaning the police got involved and i ended up spending a few days looking at cars until i found one that i wanted, that didn't take too long though. the actual crash caused me to break yet another bone and left me feeling numb and faint, apparently these are side effects of shock. some might consider this to have been a bad day, but to me it was just a day, and although it's been a while, the memory remains.
life plodded onfor a while with very little happening. i was in a relationship with someone who was ok, we got on well, but didn't see each other as often as we'd have liked. while i was with her though i bumped into an ex who i'd not seen for a while, i ended up going round and cooking for her one evening, which then led to us kissing. that kiss started something inside both of us and i realised i was falling in love again. but it wasn't until september thati was able to tell her this when i saw her again. we started seeing each other more and more, but things were complicated, and i knew they would be, with me still kinda with the other girl (but that's all she was by then, just a girl), and her still supposedly with the father of her little one. we both split from them and we're still together now, but things have gotten difficult and there has been a lot of trouble with her ex. it got to the point where we only see each other at the pub where we work because we're both paranoid that he's going to show up it i'm at her house. i need to let her know that i'm here to stay, that in this, the game of love, the is the one for me and that someday, just because it will, everything is going to be alright, i don't know why i know this, but i do. unfortunately at the moment i have little control over things, all i know is that when i'm with her it feels so good and when i'm not it's too bad to describe.
and so ends my review, i know i've missed out loads of things, but i've been trying so hard to fit in song titles everywhere that it's been a priority, but this past year have been done my way, and that's the most important thing. so lose yourself in the words, find the titles, but don't stare at this too long or everything will go blurry and it'll seem lkike a dream.
most of these song titles are singles, maybe not from the last 12 months though and there are probably a few that you american girls and boys (and canadian ones too) might not get as i don't think they crossed the ocean and are truly british.
anyway, i shall probably be spending my new years with my family, just chillin', so i hope you all have a nice day and night, and for those of you going out, party hard, because time is running out on 2005. remember me tonight at midnight as i'l be wishing you all a perfect year next year when my clock strikes 12. i'm with you all in spirit
Take care
Pete
X
the titles run from the first word to the last word, but not in this bit...you've been warned...have fun

my favourite HNT of the year
it's just too hard to choose, i want to say the sunset that i put up in my second HNT because it's beautiful, but it's not me and it's not nekkid
i want to say my tongue, because it was a weird pic and i just loved it
i want to say the post about me cutting and the pics that went with it, it was hard to post and not many people commented so i think i made people a little uncomfortable with it, but it's not about living in your comfort zone, it's about being honest
but i thikn i'm going to plupm for this one...it's the mirror that does it for me
so here you go, my favourite HNT of the year, hope you like it

in other news i've not managed to start the something special i was going to post, but fearnot it will be up before the end of the year

and my laptop is fixed, although i've lost everything i'd put on it over the last year

take it easy peeps, and for those who are just here for the HNT...happy new year to you all

Px

Just a quick one
it's christmas eve
yesterday i had a really good day, worked both my jobs and had fun at both
today i'm doing nothing :)
absolutely nothing
well i say nothing, i've still got 2 presents to wrap up and i've just updated my storyboards blog with two new bits (i would call them installments, but seeing as there is no storyline what-so-ever over there and they are merely just paragraphs of something that could one day be a bit of a book, but not a whole one...i can't really call them anything)
and well seeing as tomorrow's christmas day, i doubt anyone will be about to read them for a couple of days anyway.
have yourselves a merry little christmas
eat plenty
drink plenty
be nice to each other
love your family
and spare a few thoughts for the loved ones that you don't see as often as you should (loved ones like me)
take care peoples
Px

Festive HNT time
ok so the rules are that i've got to think of presents for 3 fellow HNT'ers...but i'm not sure who or what (i'm also doing this for my peeps in my list as well)
so starting with the HNT'ers we have:
Freiya: (because i love the name and you're a fellow brit) i'd get you a mini, a proper one, not one of these big mini's that are about these days...one with a checkered roof
Scotty: (no idea why, but when he comments it makes me smile) dude, i'd get you a pimp suit, not sure why, but i think a crushed velvet and fur lined suit would look cool on you, with a pimping hat and cane and zebra print platform shoes too
awaterpixie: (because i can) you get a snake, so that it can hiss at the people who walk past your desk and save you the breath, you can just look menacingly at them instead

i was thinking, a rare thing, but i'd give EVERYONE some time off...especially over the holiday season, time off from family, time off from work, time off from keeping up appearances, time off from this crazy world, time off from being themselves. everyone needs some time off to relax and enjoy themselves, so that's my gift to everyone who reads today.

ok my list of peeps: (links on the left)
Natalia: you're the first person outside my circle of friends who i started reading and commenting on, so for you i have nothing but love...and a nice new fountain pen so you can sign a copy of your first novel and send it to me
Linny: i told you already that i'd get you laid...question is who do you want?
PP: my lover...i'm buying you a first aid kit, and possibly sending a good looking paramedic for you too...i'm also giving you a morph doll and dvd's
Miss Ash: sweetie, i hardly know you, but i'm still thinking i should get you a little something, thinking maybe a waxing kit, or a set of clippers, to assist you with your landing strip/disco bush quandry
Jennifer: like Ash i hardly know you, but i'm in a giving mood this year, so i'm giving you the Dr Seuss collections, i have no idea why, but i love them
KtMae: my gift for you isn't really for you, i'm giving you a babysitter for whenever you need one
Berly: i'm giving you the little book of insults, so you can have more fun with you pseudo boss at work by insulting him without having him realise
Fu: i'm giving you the Fu-Manchu back catalogue of books and films, by sax rohmer, i might also be tempted to give you the Fu-Manchu (band this time) albums...but i'm not sure you'd like them
Roxi: sweetie, as much as i'd love to give you a good hard going over (as would most people who read your blog) i'm giving you and dan a holiday, to paris, city of romance
Akanksha: not sure what to get you, been thinking about it for a while now and still no idea, so i'm thinking something fun and stupid (bit like me) so i'm getting you a naked mole rat
Autumn: my singing blog-buddy, i'm getting you a karaoke machine loaded with our favourite tunes
Nanette: i haven't got the faintest idea what to get you, so i'm thinking i'd cook for you and as many house guests as you want
Osbasso: the HNT man...i'm getting you pipe-cleaners and things to pour into your 'bone so that you don't find half decomposed moths down there again (that's trombone for those of you sick puppies who thought i might be referring to something else)
Daisy: i'm getting you a fella...anyone you want in particular?
Woja: dude, i know you've been busy with moving and all, and i know it's also your birthday soon, so let me know when you've moved if there is anything you need that i can get
Kate: i'm not getting you addict perfume, that's for sure! sweetie, i'm thinking you need tickets to see maddy prior as she's on tour again
Jenfer: i'm getting you a skiing holiday so you can go away with the nameless chappie and not have to worry about him leaving his phone behind

right peeps, in other news...my health seems to be marginally improving, i've not had any pains for at least 36 hours, so i'm thinking the colofac tablets may be working now (although i think part of it is psycho-semantic and i believe that i should be getting better because i'm on meds now...) also the personal life is calming down a little, it's still not how i want it to be, but i'm in a better place now

in other news i think i's acquired myself a weirdo stalker, PP and Ash both already know this story, and i'll post about it maybe tomorrow properly...needless to say it's funny in a weird way...bit like PP's bloke from the other day who after striking out told her that jesus loved her!

finally...i've broken my laptop...proper style! it's got to go and see the computer doctor soon so i can get it fixed, but alas that means that the home computer i'll be using over christmas will be a 5 year old desktop jobbie which crashes everytime my dad touches it...great fun :(

laters peeps (and for those who don't pop back between now and the new year) merry christmas and happy new year, i hope that the holidays bring you joy and happiness and everything else your heart desires
Px

just so as you guys all know
i'm feeling more upbeat this week, even though the tablets are failing at the moment, which is causing me some discomfort, but life goes on and it's nearly christmas as well, although i'm still feeling a little grinchy... i've got most everything now though, just need to spend some time wrapping it all up (think that's tonight's job though)
in other news, i'm planning something special for a coming post, bit of a challenge for everyone who wants to participate, bit of fun for me too :)
as advertised on Osbasso's blog there has been a change to the HNT for this week, so i'll not be posting a picture of me being half nekkid (because it's too cold) but i will be posting something about what i'd get people...(i think that's the idea this week)
so basically yeah!
Px

ibs and the mebeverine hypochlorite
so this is the meds that the doc has put me on, it's an anti spasmodic which is supposed to supress the nerves in my large intestine and bowel area thus not causing large amounts of pain when i get even slightly stressed out...and it's supposed to work pretty damned quickly. i'm on 3 tablets a day and i'm just starting my third day of the course of tablets today (had the first one of the day about an hour ago now) and so far they've pretty much done nothing...
i know i need to take them for a while to see if they are going to help me out at all, but at the moment it feels as though they are having the reverse effect. last night for example i took my final pill for the day at about 8, and by 9.30 i was in pain, a lot of pain, and it wasn't good, it wasn't good at all.
various people have suggested that there may be a trigger food for me, and although i know it's stress related and there isn't a known trigger food for me, i'm trying to exclude certain things. not so i can turn round to them and say i told you so, but more because they may actually be right, i may have a trigger food, hitherto unknown to me. so this week i've been excluding carbonated soft drinks (i say soft drinks because i had a pint yesterday lunchtime) a week without coke never did anyone any harm, right? well i can rule out carbonated drinks as being my trigger food as i've been in pain a fair amount this week. someone has suggested that dairy might be my trigger, so i'm thinking that maybe next week i go without dairy, which will be a lot harder than going without carbonate drinks...
i've a little worried to think that maybe it's not ibs at the moment. there are 2 other things floating in my head at the moment, the first being a stomach ulcer, this is being ruled out though by the pain being in my lower abdomen and not heartburn/indigestion type of pain. the second is something that only came to me yesterday and i might suggest it to my doc if these pills carry on not working, this is a gluten allergy (can't spell the proper name for it) i had a work mate who had this and she suffered from similar symptoms as i'm currently having. i'm not sure if you can develop this though or how you get it, but the only food i can think of having every day is bread, and gluten is in, amongst other things, bread...so it's a possibility
anyway i'm going to give these pills another few days, if i'm still not feeling good, then i'm hauling myself back to the doc's to try the other meds or suggest the gluten thing (although a gluten free diet is a bit of a nightmare for everyone else i think)
laters
Px

word verification
i've left off my word verification for a few days (actually about 2 weeks) and it was going ok for a while, no spam comments...but this week i've had about 10 of them, so i'm thinking that i might have to put it back on, i'm going to give it a few more days and if i get any more then i'm putting it on, if not then we'll leave it a while longer
sound fair?
anyway
sorry for not playing along with HNT this week, i was feeling particularly uninspired this week and on top of that i had the doctors yesterday, i'm back on some medication for my IBS, which isn't working yet, but then it's only been a few days and things have been a bit hectic too
that's all for now
Px

stolen from osbasso (they call him MISTER HNT) who stole it from other people

do it and post it, it made me chuckle (the PX name came out with "paramour of xperiences" which is kinda cool too)

GRINCH
i had a really good post about why i'm not the biggest christmas fan in the world, but i don't want to upset people at this time of year so i'm just going to say that i'm not the biggest fan of christmas for a lot of reasons...
that's it

hnt playtime
some more of my ink work for you to have a look at :)

the first pic, of all my back (and shoulders for berly and linny)
this is of the 3 tattos i've got at the top of my back (obviously) and they are all original inks

the chinese down my left shoulder (working down from the slightly obscured one) means love, honour, obey and respect. yes i have the chinese symbol for "and" (it's the one that looks like 2 y's upside down)


ok in this other pic it shows a decent detail of the two other tattoos i've got on my shoulders/ upper back.

both of these are my designs, the one on my shoulder was the very first tattoo i designed (it was about my 3rd or 4th actual time in the chair though) it didn't take very long either

the one down my spine is the newest one i've got, i had it done just over a year ago while i was visiting a friend in sheffield. again it's my design and i was really worried about having it done across my spine because i know how painful it should've been, but it was relatively painless. it's only an outline as i'm still trying to work out what i want to have done to it, i don't really want it all black

well there you go...HNT all the way baby! YEAH!!!

bad things
it's been nearly a week since i posted again
and although i was all smiley on thursday things ain't so great now
and i'm seriously considering running away

Happy HNT
this week i'm giving you a quick double (again it's more than one pic)
this week you're all going to see just what i look like...we have an actual face shot (which took ages to get right with the timer and getting the mirror just right, but when i saw this shot i thought...perfect! but i've since seen just how dirty the mirror is...lol) check it out!!! i'm even kinda smiling! you can also see my very first tattoo, with just a hint of another one underneath it and my black earring (which i've not changes now for about 18 months) for berly we have a hand in there too and for linny and natalia we're hinting on the beard, but i covered it up a little... and ignore the dust on the mirror!

second pic is of my "washerboard" style abs...and that's definately a tongue in cheek remark before you start...in this shot though you can see that's i'm truly a hairy monster and in need of a trim... also you can see both my nipples are pierced (i told you they were) and that (for once) my belly button is clear of the usual grey/blue fluff specially for you...

hope you enjoyed this weeks HNT..have a good one peeps

and thanks to everyone who left a suppotive comment last week

it's been a couple of days
and i just want to say things seem to be looking up
i'm feeling much better health wise
work is going well
and well life isn't going too badly either
there are still things going on which are very not cool and causing problems, but i've come to realise that they are out of my hands and as such i'm not able to do anything about it
anyway
other things
like i said health wise things are better, IBS is still playing me about, and i'm not going to the doc's because there is nothing that they can do for me about it anyway without putting me on a course of meds which i'll either have to keep taking or run the risk of getting ill again and again and again
lifeguarding...get this i went in on saturday to hand in my uniform and the dm on duty didn't even know i'd walked out last week...just another reason why i'm happy to be shot of the place! still waiting for the call from the manager there though...doubt i'll be getting one now though, not that i care about it anyway
still like i've said life is getting better and so many people have commented on my face fur that i might actually post a smiley face this HNT...i might even post a pic of all my face...not sure yet though...if there are any requests...let me know and i'll see if there's anything i can do for you...people wanting something "rude" should be very nice to me
laters peeps
Px

HNT time again
this is a difficult post
as some of you are very aware, i'm having some personal problems at the moment. unfortunately these problems have also manifested themselves in a physical way, starting last night. i suffer from IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) which cause severe stomach cramps and on occasion vomiting and well you know what i'm getting at... last night was the first major attack i've had in about 5 years, it left me unable to drive, which meant that i and to leave my car at the cinema last night and convince the people i was with that i would be ok. the girl i'm with (the one i want to be with from the previous post) wouldn't leave me and insisted that she either drove me home or to the hospital, home was my choice because i knew that there is very little that can be done at the hospital, apart from pain relief and i don't like needles.
anyway she stayed with me for a while when we got home and eventually i started to feel better. i am ok, but at the same time i'm not well at all. but i'm trying to cope with everything without causing much stress to other people.
anyway my HNT pics follow, the first is me biting my lip, i've been doing that a lot over the last few days to try to hold things together

the next two are difficult for me to post, they are of a time when things weren't so good for me, although they are taken recently (as in yesterday, before i got ill) they both happened in august last year, when i was feeling so low that i wanted something else to think about, the emotional pain i was in was too much so i started cutting myself to give me something more physical and real to concentrate on. all the marks are on my left arm, the first is the worst one i ever did, i used a steak knife and hardly felt it at all, but i needed to go to the hospital for stitches, that was the last time i did it because of the way the nurse looked at me and because i had to tell people that i wasn't coping very well. the second pic is of a series of smaller cuts which were done around the same time, but less severe. i'm sorry if this makes you feel uncomfortable.

i HATE this
absolutely hate it
i can't cope anymore with feeling like this
i can't sleep
i can't eat
i can't concentrate
i can't do very much to be honest
i want to curl up in a warm place and hide
i want to cry
i want to be with her
i want to go back in time, only a week
i want to runaway

thanks for the support
i know i have friends out there that i can turn to when i need you, but for the time being things are just way to hard to talk about them as i'm not 100% sure what's going on so i can't really talk yet
but i've been feeling a little better over the last 24 hours or so...but it's going to be a very long time before i'm happy that things are 100% how they should be
until then you'll get the occasional post from me which will either be completely random (seeing as i am the anthropomorphic personification of random i feel the need to keep up certain appearances) or will be similar to this one and a few other...breif and slightly morose, but at least i'll try and keep you informed
thank you again for your kind words and feel free to comment/email me when ever you want and either cheer me up or slap me down for not blogging...either way i'll deserve it and get you all back
love to you all
Petex

anger management is NOT my forte

this is more of an apologetic post

i don't think i'll be posting much in the coming days/weeks

not until i've managed to sort out a few things

i will still be checking in on people and leaving comments...that includes leaving comments here as well

but for the time being i think i need to take a while and clear my head properly so that i can be the true Px

having said that i probably willl post now more than ever...trying to write things down to get them out of my head works sometimes

i'll also try to carry one playing the HNT game, but you'll have to understand that they will be uninspired and pretty dull

take care peeps
Pete

angerballs (parental advisory explicit language)
like you wouldn't believe
so the holiday (NOT vacation) was cool...loved every minute of it, it was so good i wish i'd never came back
things haven't been too great since i came back
and i don't really want to go into too many details about things as i want to check with someone before i post about it...needless to say it's a long story and it's really got to me the last couple of days
to top it all off though i got really pissed off yesterday while i was at my lifeguard job...so much so that i told the DM that i was quitting with immediate effect, seeing as i'd not signed the zero hours contract they'd sent through to me while i was away because it's bullshit, i can't see as i have to give any notice at all and so i checked that i wasn't going to be causing too much of a problem by walking out and then did just that
there are so many things there that i need to be able to change, things that i think are wrong, bad practise or just plain stupid...example...having 8 lifeguards in the building, with only 3 on poolside at any one time, and the ones that are off poolside are off for the better part of 2 hours...not doing very much at all
the staff there are patronizing, i've been qualified as a lifeguard for 11 years now, iive worked as a cleaner, a lifeguard, a teacher, a manager...i think i know a little bit more than the guy who started a month before me, but insists on telling me how to do things, or the camp guy who seems to think that i'm not aware that i'm due back on poolside in 15 minutes and feels the need to remind me every time i'm off poolside, even though i was the only one off poolside
things like that make Px a proper style angerball
things like that make Px walk out
walking out makes Px smile a little, but now i'm waiting to hear back from the ops manager, because i know he's going to call me sometime on monday...that's going to be an entertaining phone call...
"yeah sorry i walked out like i did, but there are so many things that i can see that are wrong there and need to be changed, and i know that there is nothing i can do as a lowly lifeguard, and i know that as soon as i suggest some changes certain people will think that i'm trying to rock the boat, other people will think that i'm too cocky and other people will look at me blankly and say 'what the fuck are you on about...this is how we've always done it there's nothing wrong with it...is there?' so on that note i quit, i don't need the hassle and stress that comes along with the pitance that you call my wages, i'll return my clean uniform some point soon...when it suits me."
things are really fucked up at the moment
i went to speak to woja about things and he helped a little
but i still feel as though my hand is hovering just above the big red self-fucking-destruct button and i'm not sure if i have the energy to hold it up anymore

accident update
for those of you who didn't read me way back when...i had a crash in early july, when my poor little rover skidded into the back of a rather expensive mercedes van, killing my poor little car (to be honest it was the best thing that could've happened to it what with rover going out of business and me running it into the ground)
anyway long story short and all that i went to hospital to have a couple of x-rays and that as a precaution...but because i went to hospital the police had to get involved...and an investigation ensued the results of which i got through the post this morning, over 4 months after the original incident...oh well...
the results are basically that i've been given a written warning, and that's it...the police do not see the need to go any further than that...so it's good news for me
FYI...for those who didn't read back then...click here for the details of what happened i wrote it a few days after the accident
but anyway, it's all good
Px

post birthday post
ok birthday was saturday and i know it's now monday...so what happened to sunday...right?
well sunday was mostly spent in my roomwatching films and tidying things up, and generally being quiet, had a bit of a monster headache when i woke up, but it passed during the day
so...saturday was nice and quiet...well until the evening
the evening was cool
and drunken
so thanks to the peeps who came out
anyway
i would show you pics of the night, but i forgot to take my camera with me and so there's nothing to show...cunning really
anyway...it's monday, i'm going away tomorrow and not back for a few days so i'll not be posting much this week and there is a slim chance that i'll be able to HNT, but i doubt it...we'll see
right...things to do...
laters peeps
Px

birthday boy blog
well this is it...today is my birthday
i'm now officially 27
and you know what
it's no different to being 26
i'm spending the day mostly on my own
partly through choice, partly because people are too busy...understandable...parents are out, friends are away/busy
still i'm hoping that i'll be out drinking tonight, although a couple of people have bailed out on that already too...shame as i was hoping they'd make it
anyway
i got 5 cards and £90 in cash...that's it really...nothing else...but you know what, i'm cool with that, there's nothing i really want this year and there's certainly nothing i need either so i'm good
right, with that i'm heading back to the film i was watching before i felt the need to blog
laters peeps :)
Px

HNT super pose down!

ok this week i'm offering a selection of pics due to being away next week and possibly not being able to post anything...not actually sure yet, i guess i'll find out when i get there!
Let me know which one you like the most
so here we go...

pose 1: a John Cena style "you can't see me" pose

pose 2: a Rock style "peoples eyebrow"...can you smell what the Px is cooking?

pose 3: finally a proper hand pose

pose 4: another tattoo...excuse the slightly hairy back

and finallly for PP it's not the same one as you've seen...but it'll do

one of those days
that's exactly what it's been today
all i've been able to do is mope about and sigh
and to be honest that's pretty much all i wanted to do today as well
i'm feeling really fed up
it's under a week until my birthday and i really couldn't care less
in fact the biggest reason as to why i've not tried to organise anything to do is because i know that:
a) some of the people i've known longest will have forgotten when my birthday is
b) i can't be dealing with people who will make up some crap excuse as to why they can't make it, or say that they will come out and then either not bother showing up or bail out on me at the last minute
c) as much as i'd like to think that by some miracle that both of the above points are totally made up and won't happen this year, i know deep down that they are true and it just pisses me off too much to want to enjoy myself very much at the moment

i'm looking forward to getting away next week, even if it is only going to be for a couple of nights, anything has got to be better than festering in this hole that has become my life

for all the good things in my life at the moment i can think of at least 2 things thatcome along wiht them that are bad. that take the shine off them. and no matter how good things are when things are good i know that when they stop being good the gleam goes and things are just as bad as they were before, in some cases they are worse

i want to be able to switch everything off...even if it's just for tonight...at least then maybe i'll be able to get some sleep because right now i'm shattered, i think i got about 4 or 5 hours sleep last night and i'd been up way too long yesterday...right now i've been up about 15 hours, but it feels like a lot longer...and seeing as it's only about 8pm i'm guessing that there'll be at least 3 more hours until i get into bed, let alone get to sleep, wihch will be at least an hour after getting into bed

help me switch off
i've had enough and i was to sleep
Px

i'm bored of looking at the interior of my mouth
as cool and different as the pic is, i'm bored of it now
so this is a mini post to say that i worked all weekend, hardly slept any of it and although that means i've got some money coming in, it also means i'm feeling slightly grouchy and fed up
i've also got the delights of a cold kicking in...just what i need
still...
next week i'm going away for a couple of nights - looking forward to
next week i'm not working at all - looking forward to
this saturday is my birthday - not really bothered about in the slightest

i'm being bugged about doing something on my birthday...at the moment i'm quite tempted to work
that's all
Px

Happy HNT!!!

After much discussion with PP last night over what i should post, when i really should've been in bed, we agreed that this would be the most fun and weirdest pic i could post out of the options i gave her.
she's seen far too much of me now...

for today only i've turned the word verification off to make it easier for you lovely people

UPDATE
Jenfer has just told me that she raised £1000 from the party at the weekend
so well done to her :)
Px

the 4 baths of man
double post today, please read both...
i heard this on a "soap" the other day and i wanted to use it in a post because i thought it was accurate and would make other people laugh after i'd put it in my words...and for those people who recognise where it's come from...yes i am sad, but then so are you!
the principle for this is based on the 7 ages of man, but seeing as i've only just read what that's about and i didn't really pay much attention to it either i'm sticking with the 4 baths of man

the first bath is when we're little...i mean really little...when baths are fun and you can splash around and laugh and giggle get everything wet, including our mum/dad who's bathing us at the time, we'd do anything to get in the bath and just get water and bubbles everywhere. including bubble beards and big bubble hairdos

the second bath is when we're still children, but older, the stage where we want to be as dirty as possible, avoiding getting in the bath for as many days (or weeks if you were lucky) as possible. it wasn't so much about avoiding getting wet, but more about staying dirty. with mud on our knees, jam on our faces and who-know what in our hair.

the third and longest bath is an adult bath, this is the relaxing bath, one where we have it hot, with plenty of bubbles, some have candles, some have wine, some have books, some have other people. these baths have gone beyond just getting clean, these are about unwinding, these are about relaxing, these are about "me time". this stage is about climbing in the bath and not thinking about anything for as long as possible, sometimes these baths can last hours, and we love it

the final bath is the bath for the older person, the bath where we worry about slipping and breaking something, where we no longer enjoy staying in there for hours in case we can't get out again afterwards. where we only get in there to get clean. where we have to use all manner of things to help us get into and out of the tub, from baths with doors to things we sit on which lower us and raise us back up again afterwards.

i'm very glad to say that i'm in the third bath at the moment, i'm happy to sit in there with a good book for a couple of hours, ossacionally topping it up with hot water. sometimes i enjoy a nice cold beer while i'm there, other times it's a glass of wine, always it's hot. and on the odd occasion it's not alone ;)
i love my bathtime, and i'm dreading moving into the final bath.

anyway that's just me...what do you think?
Px

spooky, darlings
right
so yesterday was halloween
except over here it's not such a big deal as it in in the USA
there was the party i went to on satuday, but because i've spent all last week working, i didn't get chance to go and get a costume, not that i'd need one (before someone else says it)
and besides last night i was bear sitting again which was cool, except she wouldn't settle for ages, she was up about an hour longer than she normally is, but she eventually went down and then i got to eat and play PS2 :)
i couldn't eat before because she's got into the habit of eating whatever anyone else has got rather than her own food, which is fine, but i had one of my favourite dinners last night and i didn't really want to share...mmmm...crispy chilli beef :)
anyway
jenfer's party was good fun, i'm hoping she raised a decent sum, but i ain't got a clue how much, i guess i should give her a call and find out really, but it was good to see her and it was a laugh, it's just a shame the other regulars from our old crowd didn't go...
work is going pretty well at the moment, both jobs, sticking with the lifeguarding at the moment as i'm starting to enjoy it a little at the moment. some of the kids there are a good laugh which makes it more fun i guess
everything else is pretty good too
so in general life is all good :)
Px