Sunday 25 March 2007

sunday bloody sunday

ok i've decided that i'm drinking way too much at the moment
and you know what, although i thought i was comfortable with it, i'm not
i'm binge drinking
and as fun as it can be, i'm not enjoying it
i'm pretty sure it's because i've been a little overly depressed as of late
you know the whole not having a job, living with my mum and having no-one to hold my hand could be the reason for that
so really i should be getting a little bouyant now, what with the finding of somewhere to live and the new job that i start tomorrow
but you know what, i'm no happier today than i was last week, if anything, the realisation that i've been getting depressed is making the depression worse...
i know that i've got things going in the right direction now though
so i'm going to start being positive again

but firstly
i'm going to stop drinking
not completely, but i'm not going to be going out 2 or 3 times a week and getting totally wrecked, once a month should be ok though

i didn't make it to the gig last night either :(
i've got a cold that i caught off my mum, yesterday i had no voice, for the 3 days before that i had a continous headache, now i've got a runny nose, sore throat and my shoulders ache
i don't like having colds

anyway i'm going to go
laters peeps
Px

3 comments:

Natalia said...

It's good you made up your mind to be healthier. I'm happy for you.

-N

Miss Ash said...

Have you been to see a counsellor or anything like that for the depression?

I had a client once that had severe depression and it was always very apparent to me when he had not been to see his psychiatrist, it was helpful for him.

Alicia said...

Feel better soon, and good luck with your new job!