fed up
I've tried to be sensible
I've tried to think positive
I've tried a lot of things in the last few days and when i'm not thinking about work or what's wrong with me i feel great and even sometimes when i'm at work and busy i feel ok...but only ok
other time unfortunately i just want to run around hitting things and breaking things, especially things at work, ESPECIALLY the telephone, at least that way they can't call me to ask stupid and pointless questions like "pete, it's your day off, what time do you start work today?" or "what is it that i'm actually supposed to be doing?"
(they're yet to ask me either of these questions, but i fear that they are closer to happening than you'd think)
breaking stuff would be so cool, but it's just way to much hassle trying to explain what happened to it when you don't want to have to say "well it was being a stupid piece of shit and not doing what it was supposed to be doing so i threw it out the window, tied it to the back of my car, took it drag racing and then put it back where it came from in the vague hope that it'd started working, but it didn't so i took the hammer to it...do you think i did a bad thing?"

i've been doing lots of stupid tests today, thanks to rum & monkey, so far i've got the following results:
in the "which survivor of the impending nuclear apocolyse are you?" test i was a new media professional;
in the "are you damned?" test i was an atheist;
in the "genocidal maniac test" i was hitler, nice;
in the "peeg test" i was a bliss pig;
in the "the annoying b-list celebrity test" i was regis philbin...who i hear you ask...i have no idea;
in the "glendinning test v2.0" i was owen...you'll have to do it to understand that i haven' got a clue who owen is;
in the "Which Famous Homosexual Are You?" test i was mychal judge...who ever he is;
in the "how dumb are you?" test i'm apparently real dumb, like ya'know;
in the "what kind of drunk are you?" test i was an emotional drunk (last time i came out as a chunder monkey);
in the "Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?" test i came out as robocop;
in the "The Evil Criminal Test" i came out as charles manson;
and finally in the "affliction test" i came out being syphilis, which is nice!

there are some warped people out there who make up these quizzes, but then again there are some warped people in my head that actually did them!

on a lighter note I've finished reading through the 467 or so back episodes of M3g4tokyo and i recommend it to anyone who has way too much time on their hands, better still i think everyone should go and buy a shirt.

seeing as i didn't manage to get round to reviewing AWK...i'd just like to say it was outstanding, my ears stopped ringing sometime on wednesday i think, either that or i'd gotten used to it by then...there was plenty of singing along and bouncing to some very cheesy tunes adn much arm waving was to be had by all, either the punching the air kind or the swinging it from your side over your head sideways...if that makes no sense, tough, i know what i mean and so should the people that were there! dammit if you don't know what i mean you should've been there, you all had the oppoortunity to come! i got dropped on the floor a few times which wrecked my nice white t-shirt that i was wearing...still i'd just bought an AWK t-shirt so i wore that on the way home, even though it was soaked with sweat.

i feel sick again :(
my IBS has been playing me up today too, I've been coping with it, but it's not been very helpful and it's been really horrid at times, it feels like cramp, only it comes on really quickly and sometimes it can last for several hours, today it's been coming and going, but it's been painful everytime, i've been able to control it most of the time, but sometimes it's come on so quickly and sharply that it's taken me by surprise.

anyway this has been a mentally long blog, mainly because of all those quizzes that i've done today
take care peoples
Px