another year over

a quick look back over the year leads me to conclude that although i started really strong with a lot of blog posts...i've ended it really badly!
oh well, such is life i guess!
i've also had several different jobs, some good, others not so good.
i've had a holiday (the first in ages) and it was really good

next year i'm sure will mark a strong improvement in my life
i've set myself a couple of challenges, i've had a couple forced on me
and i've put things in motion that are now up to fate to decide the next step
2007 wasn't quite the year of Px that i'd hoped for, maybe 2008 will be

btw...for those who are still interested, the job front hasn't changed, i'm still possibly being made redundant. although i did have an interview and i've had the call back for it, but i'm not sure it's really a job that i can see myself doing, or even wanting to do to be honest...
anyway
here's to hoping you all have an amazing new year and celebrate it however you choose to
raise a glass for me, i'll be raising one for all of you
laters
Px

It's been how long?

ok sorry it's been so long
but there's been a lot of shit hitting some very big fans around here
but first of all
my back is finally ok :)
that's a good thing

ok some of the shit
last wednesday we were called into a meeting at work in which we were told that there were talks going on regarding another company buying out our company...they were at such an advanced stage that the directors felt that we should know about it
on thursday we were called in to another meeting to say that as of noon that day we'd been bought. some questions were asked, but there wasn't much there because everyone was a little in shock...
today we were in a 3rd meeting, this meeting was to discuss the plans for the future...in other words it was a meeting to discuss what was going to happen to all of us.
basically we were told that with the exception of the sales team, because the company was pretty much losing money, everyone was at risk of losing their jobs, from the managers right the way down the line...
and considering muggins here was the last in
guess who might be the first out!

other shit that's been going on
i have plans for my future
but in discussing these plans it became obvious that these plans were going to cost a lot more than i'd originally thought. hankfully my mum has stepped in on that front and offered my some money to help out with the plan
things there are on track
or at least they were until they took a knock again today.

i'm trying to be all about the PMA at the moment, but i'm not sure how many knocks i can take!

so, if anyone can offer me a job, that'd be sweet

laters
Px

ok ok

i know i've been slack recently
but this last week i've got an excuse

for some dumb ass reason i've screwed up my back, and i have no idea how or when i did this. but ever since sunday my back as slow progressively worsened to the point on wednesday that i had to go home from the pub because it was hurting me to stay standing up. yesterday it wasn't too bad, but today it's feeling pretty bad again
and once again i have no idea why!

so with having this messed up back, i've pretty much not done anything other than sit in my chair at work or lay in my bed at home... which understandably sucks donkey balls

i'm working again tonight at the pub and i'm hoping that tonight i can last longer than i did on wednesday, purely because i need the money
i know that my back is important and pushing it too much now will result is problems down the line, but dammit i can't help it.

i promise to be back to my usual self soon
with witty and regular posts
just as soon as i get back to normal

laters, take care peeps
Px

what happened?

the dy i turned 29 i did most things like i normally would, i went to work, i went home and i went to the pub to do the quiz

while i was at work i had a shed load of people send me messages to either my blog, my facebook account or my mobile wishing me happy birthday which was nice
so thanks to everyone for doing that :) (special thanks to linny who posted on her blog that it was my birthday)

when i went home i opened my present from my brother and my cards from the rest of the family (my bro got me season 6 of family guy although i've not had a chance to watch it yet and in the cards i got some money)
i also played on the Wii that i've borrowed from a friend of mine
i've borrowed it because he's on holiday for a month and you can not buy one for love nor money at the moment in the shops here...unless you're willing to pay more than usual for them...which i am not!

at the pub one of my oldest friends came along it's been ages since i saw him last and it was good to catch up again with him and his lady. he got me cakes for my birthday secretly hoping that i wouldn't like them because he does!
the quiz itself my team thought it would be funny to change our usual name to "the nearly 30's" amongst other "humourous" names that took the micheal out of me being nearly 30 now
but we won beer and wine by the end of the night
so it was all good
also the bloke who runs the quiz got the whole pub to sing happy birthday!

and that was the day that was
i enjoyed the non celebration of my non birthday a lot
next year i'm 30
and although i'm not planning a party
i am thinking about where i'll be for it

laters peeps
Px

29

today I'm 29
it's not a big deal to me
maybe it should be
it's my last year of being in my 20's

next year i'm supposed to grow up
yeah right
like that's going to happen!

anyway this is just a little post for anyone who wants to wish me a happy birthday to do so :)

but if you have the time
i'd like you to read the next post down too
it's important to me
Px

rememberence sunday

maybe it's a big thing
maybe it's not

but today was rememberence sunday

a day when in the UK we remember everyone who fought in the wars
not just the world wars, but every conflict since as well

usually this doesn't mean much to me
but today there was something that happened that brought it home a little

one of the locals who comes in most sunday lunch times for a few pints was in today
he used to be in the army and he had his colours on in his tie and beret
he wore his medals
and his poppy

he's 27

what really struck me
and a lot of people in the pub this evening though was something that i'd never expected

when i arrived back at work this evening there were 2 pints sat on the bar, next to one of the pumps
i was asked if i could make sure that they stayed there
on the bar
all night

this local had lost two of his friends in combat
he bought a round for them

this confused some of the younger members of staff
i had to explain that it was his wish and not a waste of beer
it was his wish to pay them respect in this way

a couple of the locals got confused by these two pints on the bar
until they had it explained to them
then they realised the significance

the landlady was caught up in the emotion of it when i told her why they were there
it brought tears to her eyes

it struck a chord with me too

I know it's late now
but i hope everyone reading this
regardless of nationality
regardless of the time
i hope everyone takes a moment
and remembers

"Lest We Forget"

Px

Georgia pics

for those of you who don't have facebook...where i put up 50ish of the pics from my trip

here's a few for you...

Atlanta

OK i know i've been rubbish at posting about my holiday
but with good reason

my holiday was a break for me
away from my life as it is
so, that means away from work
away from home
away from the pub
and away from here

now as much as i love you all
it was my holiday
and as such i want to keep it that way
i'll share with you some photo's (hopefully later today) but that's probably all you're getting

i know it's a bit cagey of me, but that's how i want to keep it

and before minds go into overdrive
it's not because there was anything salacious was going on
i know what you're all like

laters peeps
Px

my birthday

My birthday is a week today
and I don't want to do anything for it
I don't really celebrate my birthday, it's just another day to be honestand seeing as it's a Monday this year, I shall be mostly spending it at the pub quiz because that's just how exciting it really is

29 is a bit of a non-birthday anyway

this came in my mail today, it made me laugh, I'm sorry

To the citizens of the United States of America

In light of your failure to elect a competent President of the USA and thus to govern yourselves, we hereby give notice of the revocation of your independence, effective immediately.
Her Sovereign Majesty, Queen Elizabeth II, will resume monarchical duties over all states, commonwealths and other territories (except Kansas, which she does not fancy), as from Monday next.
Your new prime minister, Gordon Brown, will appoint a governor for America without the need for further elections. Congress and the Senate will be disbanded. A questionnaire may be circulated next year to determine whether any of you noticed.
To aid in the transition to a British Crown Dependency, the following rules are introduced with immediate effect:

1. You should look up "revocation" in the Oxford English Dictionary.Then look up "aluminium," and check the pronunciation guide. You will be amazed at just how wrongly you have been pronouncing it.

2. The letter 'U' will be reinstated in words such as 'colour', 'favour' and 'neighbour.' Likewise, you will learn to spell 'doughnut' without skipping half the letters, and the suffix "ize" will be replaced by the suffix "ise."

3. You will learn that the suffix 'burgh' is pronounced 'burra';you may elect to respell Pittsburgh as 'Pittsberg' if you find you simply can't cope with correct pronunciation.

4. Generally, you will be expected to raise your vocabulary to acceptable levels (look up "vocabulary"). Using the same twenty-seven words interspersed with filler noises such as "like" and "you know" is unacceptable and inefficient form of communication.

5.There is no such thing as "US English." We will let Microsoft know on your behalf. The Microsoft spell-checker will be adjusted to take account of the reinstated letter 'u' and the elimination of "-ize."

6. You will relearn your original national anthem, "God Save The Queen", but only after fully carrying out Task #1 (see above).

7. July 4th will no longer be celebrated as a holiday. November 2nd will be a new national holiday, but to be celebrated only in England. It will be called "Come-Uppance Day."

8. You will learn to resolve personal issues without using guns, lawyers or therapists. The fact that you need so many lawyers and therapists shows that you're not adult enough to be independent. Guns should only be handled by adults. If you're not adult enough to sort things out without suing someone or speaking to a therapist then you're not grown up enough to handle a gun.

9. Therefore, you will no longer be allowed to own or carry anything more dangerous than a vegetable peeler. A permit will be required if you wish to carry a vegetable peeler in public.

10. All American cars are hereby banned. They are crap and this is for your own good. When we show you German cars, you will understand what we mean.

11. All intersections will be replaced with roundabouts, and you will start driving on the left with immediate effect. At the same time, you will go metric immediately and without the benefit of conversion tables. Both roundabouts and metrication will help you understand the British sense of humour.

12. The Former USA will adopt UK prices on petrol (which you have been calling "gasoline") - roughly $6/US gallon. Get used to it.

13. You will learn to make real chips. Those things you call French fries are not real chips, and those things you insist on calling potato chips are properly called "crisps." Real chips are thick cut, fried in animal fat, and dressed not with mayonnaise but with vinegar.

14. Waiters and waitresses will be trained to be more aggressive with customers.

15. The cold tasteless stuff you insist on calling beer is not actually beer at all. Henceforth, only proper British Bitter will be referred to as "beer," and European brews of known and accepted provenance will be referred to as "Lager." American brands will be referred to as "Near-Frozen Gnat's Urine," so that all can be sold without risk of further confusion.

16. Hollywood will be required occasionally to cast English actors as good guys. Hollywood will also be required to cast English actors to play English characters. Watching Andie MacDowell attempt English dialogue in "Four Weddings and a Funeral" was an experience akin to having one's ears removed with a cheese grater.

17. You will cease playing American "football." There is only one kind of proper football; you call it "soccer". Those of you brave enough will, in time, will be allowed to play rugby (which has some similarities to American "football", but does not involve stopping for a rest every twenty seconds or wearing full Kevlar body armour like a bunch of nancies).

18. Further, you will stop playing baseball. It is not reasonable to host an event called the "World Series" for a game which is not played outside of America. Since only 2.1% of you are aware that there is a world beyond your borders, your error is understandable.

19. You must tell us who killed JFK. It's been driving us mad.

20. An internal revenue agent (i.e. tax collector) from Her Majesty's Government will be with you shortly to ensure the acquisition of all monies due backdated to 1776.

Thank you for your co-operation.

sorry

i know i promised a post about the holiday with plenty of pictures, but i've not had any time to myself this week...and i've got to work again tonight for overtime because so many people are off sick at the pub. trouble is, i'm not feeling great myself :(
there will be a post soon
about my trip
with pictures
i promise

but for now, feel sorry for me that i've got no time to do anything other than work, when really all i want to do is sleep!
laters
Px

alas

I'm back in the UK
and wishing I wasn't

I'll give you a full detailed rundown of the week that was when I get home from work tonight, with some of the 300ish pictures...but not all of them

and I need sleep...

Laters peeps
Px
"It's really good to hear your voice saying my name, It sounds so sweet"

on "vacay"

so much to blog about, i just don't know where to start!
the aquarium was AWESOME!!!
i mean walking under 6.2 million litres (or it may have been gallons) of water which housed 2 whale sharks and a whole host of other animals was really cool, I've got a massive pile of pictures to wade through (140 ish i think) but Lindsey has posted a couple of the already, including one she took of me and her nephew that she thinks is "too cute". For more on our trip it's best to have a look at her page
there was so much there though that i just couldn't stop taking pictures, i think she probably thinks i'm a little weird because of it...i took a pile more over the last couple of days while we've been in Savannah.
speaking of which, we saw the park that tom hanks sits in front of while telling forrest gump's story, although the bench has now been removed and put in the tourist office (where they'll charge you $4 to see it, but you can't touch it, sit on it or take pictures of it, but they will sell you pictures of it). and had a long old wander around the river and bay street areas of the city.
Those of you who really know me, know that i have a dry sense of humour and if i can get away with someting i'll do it...like walking around the aquarium with a t-shirt depicting a fish that's written "smart arse" out of his backside...(i did this because someone, ok it was linsdey, picked the shirt out because she thought it was funny and suited me). anyway I have a t-shirt that has "sinner" emblazoned across the from of it. i was wearing this shirt when we arrived in Savannah, to me it's no different to the pornstar t-shirt or thundercats t-shirts that i have, i wera it because i like it. well we went into a restaurant to get some lunch when the waitress took notice of my t-shirt and kept asking what it meant and what religion i was and all that kind of stuff. she scared me! so much so that when we checked into the hotel, i went and changed into a thundercats one...she was WEIRD!!!!
normally this kind of thing doesn't bother me, but she really did, she wouldn't let up about the shirt...i wore it again today though as we left and no-one else took a blind bit of notice of it, so it's not like i was being offensive (which is that main reason i wanted to change, i don't like offending people)
but savannah was really pretty, i took another 40 or 50 pictures, some of really random things, while we were there, adding to the thought that lindsey may think i've got a weird photo fetish (although she assures me she doesn't think this).
we went on a horse and buggy tour of the city just as it got dark last night and found out loads about the haunted areas of the city and all the interesting little stories that are behind the ghosts, including about one guy who locks women in the bathroom of one of the taverns. the tour was good fun and the guide was entertaining and kept it interesting.
so i have all these pictures that i'll be posting when i get home, so miss ash doesn't need to panic anymore, there will be some soon enough ;) i just want to go through them all and make sure that i'm not going to bore you with them...
I'm not sure what we're going to do the next couple of days, there's a couple of things in the pipeline, but we'll have to wait and see what crops up

not looking forward to leaving, although i've picked up a little of the southern drawl when i talk at times. and i'm already thinking ahead and wondering how long it'll take me to save up and come back...

pictures as soon as i get back to the uk
laters peeps
Px

In Atlanta

Just so you all know, I'm here and loving it
although i keep forgetting about my camera, so far i took 3 pictures, and that was of me, the beer i had to get me on the plane and (although i didn't realise it at the time) the plane that got me here...
Yesterday I met Linny's family, we all sat and ate, it was really nice to do the family thing, mainly because my family is falling (or has fallen) apart over the last year or 2. we also went shopping and got a couple of bargains.
Today we're off to the aquarium, tomorrow we're off to Savannah...
it's so nice out here, the weather is really nice, even though i was told it'd be chilly...remember i'm from the uk, chilly to me is a lot different than chilly is over here!
Also, my phone doesn't work out here, even though i checked with my service operator before i left that it would...it's strangely liberating not being able to use it though, although it's left me without a clock, so i never know what the time is!
I'll try to remember to take my camera out with us over the next few days
I'm cooking tonight too...should be fun :)
right peeps, i'm off
laters
Px

and i'm leaving on a jet plane

don't know when i'll be back again...

ok that last bit isn't quite true
but as documented before, i'm heading off tomorrow to visit Linny and generally just chill and have a nice break from my normal life
and i can't wait

maybe i'll post while i'm there...
but i wouldn't hold my breath if i were you waiting for one ;)

take care peeps and expect a picture explosion when i get back
Laters
Px

dentist again

i had a check up at the dentist today
this is significant in the fact that i've not had a check-up in about 10 or 12 years...
i've been several times over the years, but always because i knew i had work that needed to be done (an abcess or a big filling)
but today i went knowing that it was just a check-up
and it was good...
for the first time in more than 12 years, i was told that i didn't need to have anything done...
although he did give me a free filling because one fell out, but it didn't need any other work or drilling or anything, and i knew about it as it always falls out...
today is a good day :)

and it's only 3 days until i'll be in the airport getting ready to fly
(my only other big fear)

take care
laters peeps
Px

is it tuesday already?

man the time seems to be flying past at the moment

i'm wondering if it's because i'm enjoying things at the moment, and trying to get my life back into some sort of order.
i'm wondering if it's because i have a proper job again
i'm wondering if it's because i'm looking forward to my holiday
i'm wondering if it's because i'm secretly being abducted by aliens at the weekend and have no idea about it

i joined the gym
i've even been to the gym
twice
and i went swimming too
but only the once
so far

the landlord at the pub is away from today for a week or so, and because i'm such a good boy, i've offered to go in every night this week and lock up...
after doing a 12 hour day on sunday, and every night this week for a couple of hours at least... money money money
although it does mean that i've not really got any time to pack or sort anything out for my holiday...so it's going to be a last minute thing, as per usual
although i could do with some new clothes, so i could just pack half a suitcase or less and buy stuff out there...what do you think?

right anyway, it's lunchtime and i'm wasting away (yeah...right)
take care peeps
Px

take a break and remember when...(it's a british thing)

Does anyone remember "Twizzle" What were you doing when you were young? Just for a minute, forget everything stressful and read this.......
Close your eyes and go back in time...
Before the Internet... Before SEGA or Super Nintendo...
Way back........ I'm talking about Hide and Seek in the park. The corner shop. Hopscotch. Butterscotch. Skipping. Handstands. Football with an old can. Beano, Dandy, Buster, Twinkle and Dennis the menace Roly Poly. Hula Hoops, jumping the stream, building dams. The smell of the sun and fresh cut grass. An ice cream cone on a warm summer night from the van that plays a tune.
Chocolate or vanilla or strawberry or maybe Neapolitan or perhaps a screwball.
Wait......
Watching Saturday morning cartoons, short commercials or the flicks. Children's Film Foundation, The Double Deckers, Red Hand Gang. The Tomorrow People, Tiswas or Swapshop and 'Why Don't You' or staying up for Doctor Who.
When around the corner seemed far away and going into town seemed like going somewhere.
Earwigs, wasps, stinging nettles and bee stings. White dog s**t. Sticky fingers. Playing Marbles. Ball bearings. Big 'uns and Little 'uns. Kiss Chase, Cops and Robbers, Cowboys and Indians. Climbing trees. Building igloos out of snow banks. Walking to school no matter what the weather. Running till you were out of breath, laughing so hard that your stomach hurt. Jumping on the bed and pillow fights. Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles. Being tired from playing....remember that? The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team. Water balloons were the ultimate weapon. Football cards in the spokes transformed any bike into a motorcycle. Choppers and Grifters. Eating raw jelly. Orange squash ice pops.
Remember when...
There were two types of trainers - girls and boys and Dunlop Green Flash - and the only time you wore them was at school for P.E. You knew everyone in your street - and so did your parents. It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends. When nobody owned a pure-bred dog. You didn't sleep a wink on Christmas Eve. When 25p was decent pocket money Curly Wurleys. Space Dust. Toffo's. Top Trumps. When you'd reach into a muddy gutter for a penny. When nearly everyone's mum was at home when the kids got there. When any parent could discipline any kid, or feed him or use him to carry groceries and nobody, not even the kid, thought a thing of it. When being sent to the head's office was nothing compared to the Fate that awaited a misbehaving student at home. Didn't that feel good? Just to go back and say, Yeah, I remember that!
Remember when....
Decisions were made by going " Ip Dip Dog S**t " "Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest. Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "Monopoly". The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was germs. And the worst thing in your day was having to sit next to one. It was unbelievable that 'British Bulldog 123' wasn't an Olympic event.
Having a weapon in school meant being caught with a catapult. Nobody was prettier than Mum. Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better. Taking drugs meant orange-flavoured chewable aspirin. Ice cream was considered a basic food group. Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true. Older siblings were the worst tormentors but also the fiercest protectors. If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED. Pass this on to anyone who may need a break from their "grown up" life...
GO ON... I DOUBLE-DARE YOU!!!!!!!

Juts a quick HNT

i got a boo boo last night and i'm not sure how, first i knew about it was the dried trail of blood on my arm...why is it that the small cuts bleed a lot?

laters peeps

Px

(more detailed post will come later today or tomorrow, when i get rouond to it)

this new job

is breaking me in oh so very gently
so far i've worked 2 days...well it is only tuesday
but during those days i've only been in the office for 6 hours a day
and an hour of that has been lunch

i know it'll pick up more and more as i start to get more into it
but at the moment i'm really enjoying it :)

think i'm going to like this job
:)

got to keep positive
Px

the new job

ok
so i'm actually sat at the desk of my new job now

how cool is that :)

it's lunchtime at the moment so i can (ab)use the interent for a while, as long as i don't do too much in the way of stupid surfing...

anyway...
the new job
so far this morning i've started filling in paperwork and i've sort of familiarised myself with the building, the main system that i'll be using and a couple of other bits and pieces. but in general it's been a nice morning. even though i was rubbish at getting out of bed this morning and was a couple of minutes later than i should've been...
hey, at least i done anything stupid like crash the van which i did one the first day at the driving job! but there's still time yet!!!

i'll try and sort out a decent post either this evening or at the latest within the next couple of days, you know, a newsy one, with a bit of a laugh and all that stuff in it...

take it easy peeps
Px

HNT

it's that time once again

here's a late night replacement shot, i like it, even though it makes my green eyes blue

the one i wanted to use i couldn't

for whatever reason it wouldn't load up...oh well

laters

Px

whinging wednesday

i thought of this title this morning
when things seemed grim and i struggled to stay awake in the van (think i did drop off at one point...but it was ok, i'm not driving at the moment, i'm learning a new run, so someone else was driving)

but it turns out i've had a pretty good day all in all

there'll be a video at the end...if i remember to post it...which i like

and there's some positive vibes flowing out as well...

anyway reasons to be cheerful
1) it's less than 3 weeks until my holiday :)
2) the non-job called today and the position that they wanted me in has been authorised, although i still don't have a start date, it's a step in the right direction
3) i'm feeling much more chilled out this week
4) non-job want me to go in tomorrow to have a chat about a few things related to the job, this means a sick day for the driving, which in turn means a bit of a lay-in for me :)
5) i won just under £50 at the weekend...cash...that was good
6) i did a shed load of hours at the pub last week, which means that i'll get a pile of cash this week, half of which will be saved and put towards spending money for the holiday
7) my new books arrived yesterday in the post from amazon...a whole day early, shame i'm still reading the last one though, but it does mean that i'll have a new book for the flight
8) at the quiz on monday, although i got a frosty reception at the bar (my ex was working it) everyone else there was pleased to see me, and we won the music round, and we had the overall highest score
9) seeing said ex on monday brought back no memories or bad feelings for me, in fact i was totally fine with it, leading me to believe that she didn't have as much as an effect on me as i apparently had on her
10) (yep that's right...10 reasons why i'm cheerful) this is the 3rd time i've blogged this week and although this is the first original blog, it feels good to get back into the swing of things, i've even got a HNT ready for tomorrow :)

see
i'm positive all over

now
on to the video
this video is from youtube, and is a UK advert for chocolate, cadbury's in fact, and it caused a big stir, it was talked about on the radio and in the papers...
it's really random
and has no obvious bearing on the product
but it's still cool and i like it...

anyway, that's me done for today
take it easy peeps,
laters,
Px

TMI tuesday

it's been a while since i did this, but seeing as i have time and i'm back
it's time to play again :)

1. Who did you think you would marry in elementary school?
in primary school, i'm guessing that's the same as elementary school, there was this one girl who i thought was lovely, i hear she's married now, and i thikn she's even got a baby.
2. Which muppet is your favorite? Why?
animal
you mean you can't guess why?
he's wild and an awesome drummer!
either him or clifford (your homey made of foamy)
3. Which politician would you most like to screw? [For pleasure or revenge]
there are no attractive english politicians...none...not even maggie thatcher
4. How did you first find the g-spot?
i think i just dived right in and played with her...i was gentle i promise...
5. What is the best costume you've ever worn?
i dressed as dennis the menace once (the beano charactor...google him)
that was a lot of fun :)
i've dressed as a girl a few times
Bonus (as in optional):Does pornography liberate or deteriorate society?
i've seen things in poland that would make me think it was a liberation of society...but then i can think of things that could be classed as porn that i think deteriorate it as well...
i'm on the fence for this one

laters
Px

just because

so much stuff to blog about

but i can't at the moment

all i am going to say is that i'm growing more and more disappointed in my family and friends

HNT

just a quickie for HNT

fill in the blanks

ok it's simple, i saw this on Osbasso's site and thought it would be a little light relief, seeing as i've had a little grump on in my posts recently...panic ye not, the grump is subsiding (even if the work isn't starting yet)
all you have to do is...fill in the blanks...nice and simple really isn't it

I _____ Px.
Px is _____.
If I were alone in a room with Px, I would _____.
I think Px should _____.
Px needs _____.
I want to _____ Px.
Someday Px will ___.
Px reminds me of _____.
Without Px _____.
My memories of Px are _____.
Px can be _____.
The worst thing about Px is _____.
The best thing about Px is _____.
I am _____ with Px.
One thing I would like to know about Px is _____.
Px should go and _____.
Px _____ me.

copy, paste, fill in, post in the comments bit, steal it if you want
all good
laters peeps

what a cock up

ok
so this morning i headed off to my new job
i got there at about 8
which was fine and about the right time
i sat and waited
and then saw one of the guys i knew who had helped get me the job
only to have him say he wasn't expecting me

fucking unbelievable!

it turns out that the guy who offered me the job and has been on holiday for the last 3 weeks and hadn't sorted things out
or let me know that he hadn't sorted them out!
when i was asked why i hadn't called anyone to see when i should be starting and all that, i just said that i'd only got this guy's mobile number and he was on holiday, and i was taking it all ok because he'd said it was fine and i should start today.
which is why i quit the other job

the bloke i spoke to today did say that they do want me to work there, but he needs to sort out a few things and then he'd call me...
he hasn't called today, so i'm expecting a call tomorrow now

i'm not panicking yet
just miffed about it
but i will run out of money if i'm not careful though...although my last pay packet from the driving job should be about 3 times the normal amount i've been getting because i never took any leave while i was there, so i'll get all my unclaimed leave in it too
so i should be ok for a while
i hope

anyway
does anyone want to give me a job? i'll do anything
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proof

that i am still alive
i'm going through a rough patch at the moment
although i'm nearing the light, i know that i'm still feeling a little down
i have a lot to look forward to though
such as i've only got 2 more days of the driving job left and those will be easy because i've got to show someone else the run and he can drive everywhere instead of me, which wuits me down to the ground :)
then next week it's the new job
so i'll be around more than i have been which means that i'll hopefully be blogging a little more as well

right i've got to head to the pub for a shift
and don't expect anything off me until at least the weekend!

take it easy peeps, catch up soon
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catching up

ok so i've got a few rants caged up inside me
#1
i want to bitch about pete doherty and amy winehouse
and the image that they are portraying
these two "superstars" have both been in the news recently way too much for drug use. so much so that the actions that they are taking almost glamourise their lifestyle of excessive drug use.
Pete doherty was recently arrested for posession, but because the numb-nut police who arrested him didn't process him and charge him in time (in the uk you have to charge someone within 24 hours of arresting them) he walked away. a month previous he was in court and was told that if he didn't clean up his act he would be imprisoned... so this time there was a lot of speculation about him going to prison.
but he didn't.
my theory is that he got off because he's famous
Amy winehouse has just spent a week in st lucia, after checking into and out of rehab several times this last week, being photographed with scratchmarks, needle tracks and blood on her shoes (alleged to be from injecting heroin between her toes). and what does every one do about it? talk about it. her in laws are suggesting that the public stop buying her records and that the people who sort out awards for artists (such as the mercury music prize which is being awarded in a big ceremony today, which she is supposed to be at) boycott her, her own father has been on the radio admitting that he's begged her to stop, but said that it didn't work. what are her record company doing about it? nothing! what are the police doing? nothing!
this kind of action...or rather non-action will only lead to kids believing that they'll be able to do the same.
fame can put you above the law apparently!

#2
fat people using motorised wheelchairs
these things are for people who can't walk, or elderly. i have no problem with pepole who need to use them because they have a legitimate medical reason. but the fat people who use them, is just wrong! get you fat lazy arses down to the gym, hell just walk to the damned shop instead of getting in the little cart thing...think about it the more they use the cart instead of walking, the fatter they will get!

#3
the police have fined me and given me 3 points on my driving license last week all because i was parked in the wrong place.
ok
i don't mind taking the points or the fine because i was in the wrong...but if where i was parked was as dangerous as the officer was making out, why did he leave me parked there a further 15 minutes while he wrote out all his paperwork? i even said to him should i move the van...he told me not to worry about it.
now that pissed me off...i mean ok, pull me up for parking illegally, fine me, give me points, but surely if i'm in such a bad parking place, let me move, hell, follow me to a decent, safe place to stop and give me all the shit then!

rants over
ok i'm starting my new job in under 2 weeks now :) that should be good
it'll be better than good thinking about it, it's going to be superb because i'll be getting my life back on track!
and in 6 weeks i'm going to be in america, more specifically, i'm going to be in georgia visiting lindsey and doing lots of touristy things while relaxing and having a good time
i can't wait
:)

laters peeps
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job details

in brief
i'll be working in an office for a telecommunications company, that provides businesses with solutions to their phone, internet and other telecoms needs. i'll be doing basically small project management and helping customers with setting their systems up
the money is about what i'm on now
but i'll be working less hours for it :)
and getting more holiday time
and a mobile phone with £30 a month
so that's basically it

it does mean that i won't be making any more 5.30am starts, no overnight stops in places that i don't know very well, no more hotel rooms...
i can't wait

laters peeps
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apologies

i've been busy
last weekend i was at a party, so i didn't get a decent chance to blog
it was messy

this week has been really really busy...
but i had a school reunion that i'd organised on friday which was so much fun to see people again, shame that not everyone could make it though, but it was awesome to see the people that were there :)
then last night i hung out with a couple of friends again, both nights were late ones though, friday was 4am, saturday was 5am...

other news, i've got a new job
and basically things are on the up :)
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can you believe that :)
anyway i've gotta head off to work...
catch up soon, i promise
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up, down, flying around

i'm still yo-yo-ing between good and bad moods
i don't like it anymore
i've got flights that i'm looking forward to taking
even though i hate flying
i had 2 girls chatting me up in the pub last night
although i didn't realise it (someone else pointed it out after they'd gone)
and for some reason i'm still in a foul mood!
weird

the plan

you remember the plan right?
get job
get house
get girl
get holiday

yeah?
wel the get girl line came and went depending on my mood to be honest, but the basics involved job, house and holiday

well today i booked my tickets to make that final missing chunk a reality
that's right i booked my flights to go to the states
i'm heading to georgia
to see linny
:)
i'm so excited
in under 10 weeks i'll be there

that's all for tonight though folks
catch up soon
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blog birthday

man i just realised i missed it again (it was july 21st)
my blog is over 4 years old now, how weird is that?
only realised because i went back to read some of my early posts

i'm not back

but i am ok

i will be returning in a week or so, maybe more, maybe less
still trying to iron things out in my head

just to keep you hanging on though
i went out on my bike today after repairing the puncture it got last time i went out (about 4 months ago) only to get another puncture...
bloody typical!

there are a lot of rants that i can feel building up inside me...you've been warned

still not finished harry potter, although itold someone i'd have it done by the end of this week...guess that's my tomorrow sorted out

just watched the number 23...i kid you not it finished at 23.12
but it also opened my eyes to a lot of theories that i might take a look into at some point
also watched the hills have eyes 2...just what i expected from it
and starter for 10 which was very good and kept well with the book which i read at the start of the year...and i've not got a crush on the female lead (rebecca epstein, as played by rebecca hall)

my head is a little better
my heart isn't
and i still feel so alone that i want to be sick

i'll be back though, i just can't let the 552 posts that i've done already amount to nothing really can i?
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the simpsons movie is cool...very funny and well worth the money

hand made by robots - newton faulkner is an awesome album and well worth the money

had enough

for now i'm calling it quits
after 550 posts over the last few years
and given the current mood
i've decided to back away from the blog for a bit and just leave it alone
i'll probably still lurk in everyone's blogs and leave the occasional comment where i fell i have something to say, but for the most part, i think this is it for now
i just can't do it anymore
i'm getting the same vibe off facebook at the moment too
and other things
i just see no point to any of it
it's all well and good claiming that all these people (on facebook mainly) are my friends, but where's the proof, where's the back up and help when i want some, where's the people i used o be able to turn to?
they're not around anymore
it's better to burn out than fade away, but seeing as i can't burn out, i'm fading away

giving up?

that's exactly how i'm feeling at the moment...
i feel done in both physically and mentally

but i'm not giving up just yet
i'm holding out for a holiday, hopefully i'll be able to get one soon enough

time for the tuesday post

ok today i'm going to go through a pet peeves and then a a few other things

pet peeve; rubber-necking...
now i understand that as a human we have an overwhelming urge to gawp at anything on the side of the road that may be vaguely interesting, especially if it's an accident, even moreso if there's a chance of seeing something that you don't want to see...
but as a van driver, it's got to be one of the most irritating things that is out there on the roads. example; today i was driving along minding my own business, while playing attention to the road obviously, when all of a sudden everything grinds to a halt...as we inch forward some flashing lights come into view, orange ones, not blue ones, so i know it's probably just a breakdown, which is was, but it took an additional 15 minutes to get past this
now i have no problem sitting in traffic for a legit reason, i'm paid by the hour...but to sit in traffic because the 100 cars that are infront of me want to gawp at a car that's gone into the back of another car...that bugs me
i run into rubbernecking at least once per motorway per day, but on the m25 it's more like an hourly thing, if not every 20 minutes

to continue with the flood theme...
it rained yesterday while i was working, some of the paper goods i was delivering got wet, but that was ok as long as the suits didn't get wet...which they didn't, well not the ones i was yet to deliver, the ones i'd been collecting and just throwing into the van (on the floor, they had to go there because ihad no hanging space for them...which was compounded by the volume that i was collecting compared to the number that i had to deliver)... it rained so much that my hotel room started to leak, not only from the ceiling, but also around the window...but this didn't start to happen until i was just about to sleep...typically!
add this to the fact that the power tripped out so i couldn't watch the tv...
i wasn't having the best of evenings!

while driving home i was reminded of the following song (the video is one someone made and posted on youtube) ok the story goes as follows
while driving i felt something hit my head, only something small though and as i looked down to the seat between my legs i spotted something, although i wasn't sure what it was i brushed it onto the floor. a few seconds later i happened to look out the window and noticed something small on my shoulder, when i had a proper glance at it i noticed what i thought to be a very still bee, this made me jump and it fell off, again dropping to the seat between my legs...only this time it roled a little further and ended up underneath me. needless to say this freaked me out a bit, i didn't really want a bee that close to my meat and two veg, especially while i was driving, but because i was driving i had to try and keep a cool head about me and not flap around incase it stung me and that while i was driving. not cool. as luck would have it i was coming up to a lay-by so i pulled in and stopped. before i eased myself up from the chair, i picked up something to squash it with, afterall a dead bee is easier to deal with than a live one. so i rose slowly from the seat not wanting to get the bee agitated or anything like that lest it sting me and still being confined in the dab of the van, i really didn't want an angry bee. and i was shocked by my findings...it wasn't a bee after all...well not a whole one anyway. i found a headless bee. a few minutes later i found the little unknown thing that had landed on my seat the first time, and it was the creature's head!
ive not idea how it got decapitated...but it was weird
and it led me to sing the following all day!


anyway i need to go to bed, i'm only on chapter 8 of the new potter book :(
laters peeps
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sleepy sunday stuff

ok i'm not being very good at the blogger thing at the moment
i'm not posting very often and i'm checking other people's blogs even less...
however i have had a quick trek through blogs today and doing the comments thing where i thought i had something to say

anyway that aside
life for me has been pretty good
very quiet weekend, nice and chilled...

friday the weather took a turn for the worse...but seeing as i was away overnight with work i didn't know about it. it took me over 5 hours to get back to the depot, a trip that normally take 3 hours. part of this was on the motorway, which was closed due to being underwater... part of it was because the village where the depot is and the pub where i work is had a river flowing down the high street...
i was supposed to have started work at 6 in the pub, i drove past it at half 7, i called the boss to say that i could get back if he needed me to, but it would be in the van because my car wouldn't get through the flood... and seeing as the pub carpark was underwater it was going to be a bit of a nightmare. he said not to worry about it because there was 3 inches of water in the kitchen and although the pub was open, it was really quiet because no-one could get there!
so i went out and had a few drinks instead...got in sometime around half 2 in the morning...it was good
spent all day yesterday chillling with films again, watched ghost rider (very cool), anchorman (funny) and xxx2 which i've still got to finish
i also played guitar hero again for about 2 hours... there's just something about the game that means you can't sit down and play it, you just have to be standing up
it's uber cool though
yeah, then i went out drinking again...although i wasn't as late home and i didn't drink as much last night either
but it was needed that i went out and managed to blow off a little steam

before you ask, i've still not got my hands on a copy of the new potter book...i've been waiting to let the stupid numbers of people queuing to buy the book die down a bit, which i know means that others of you out there will have read it, so please don't be spoiling it for me otherwise there will be an ass whooping heading your way!

take care peeps
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still life in the old dog yet

i know it's been a while since i posted...
just over a week by my count
but that's ok isn't it?

anyway, i've not been up to much this week
mostly work, work and more work

i'm still working on the plan, that's why
the next step is a holiday, so the more i can work the more money i can get in and the closer a holiday becomes :)

i've also been playing far too much guitar hero 2 during my down time
well that and on the PSP when i've been at the hotel

film-wise, i'm waiting for the simpsons movie to come out, and transformers and for someone to go with me to watch harry potter. dvd's i've watched recently include teen wolf (that classic with michael j fox...pure genius) and fantastic four in preparation for watching the second at some point soon (i've been offered a chance to see it with a friend of a friend, but i've not heard from her about it)

book-wise, i finished fear (by jeff abbot) a little while ago, liked it. been reading a book called and penguins stopped play...but i'm not really into it at the moment, so now i've switched to world war z which is about the zombie war...so far it's really good, scarily realistic, it's by the same bloke who wrote the zombie survival guide, which was also scarily realistic...

tune-wise, i've just downloaded the new hayseed dixie album...gotta love the idea of bluegrass/country versions of pretty much everything, including this time the scissor sisters!

ayway, enough with all this, i've got something to say...
today someone special is celebrating her 30th birthday, and i know that it scares the pants off her! so i came up with a little plan to try and make her feel a little better...
this involved me sending her a text message yesterday, faking that i'd be too stupid to remember that her birthday is today...this was done so that i could work out the time difference between us so that when i called her this morning i wouldn't be waking her up.
i then called my network provider to check that i could make international calls, they said i could
so today i set a reminder on my phone for the right time to give her an early morning call to wish her a happy birthday...
so when the alarm went off i called her
only to find that my network hadn't updated my account so i couldn't call her
i phoned them and they said it would take anywhere between an hour and 24 hours...thus i'd miss her birthday
they also said i'd need to turn my phone off so that the update could take place
which i did
i then turned it back on again half hour later and tried her number
while driving
and to my shock it connected...
and the conversation didn't go anything like the way that i'd planned it to
i wanted to sing happy birthday
but instead i stumbled through it, wishing linny a happy birthday and telling her that i hoped that she was feeling a little better and i wished i was there to help her celebrate, it was great to hear her voice again, i'd forgotten how sexy she sounds, even if i did shock her while she was at work...and i hope i didn't get her into trouble for accepting personal calls
anyway, she's getting a lot of love from everyone today
and she deserves it...

Happy Birthday Love!

right, the rest of the week i'll be mostly working
and playing guitar hero (PS2) or burnout (PSP)
laters peeps
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still here

this is just a little something that i found online, it's an awesome song and it's very much how i'm feeling at the moment...the lyrics are below

it's called i need something, and its by Newton Faulkner

I need something to believe in
cuz I don’t believe in my self

I'm sick and tired of getting no where
guess it’ll all work out

And I don’t mind any more
and I don’t mind any more

And I need someone to put my trust in
cuz I aint trusting my self

And I'm scared of failure, so scared of success
guess it’ll all work out

And I don’t mind any more
and I don’t mind any more

Ooohhhhhhh yeah

And I don’t mind any more
and I don’t mind any more

ok
so
if curiosity killed the cat
and a cat has nine lives
you think it'd learn not to be so curious after the first couple of times
unless of course it's more like a buddist thing...a cat that believes in re-incarnation, so it actually has nine lives rather than metaphorically having nine lives...but even then, the buddhist monks believe that when the dalai lama passes on to the next life the new dalai lama remember certain aspects of his previous incarnation, one that springs to mind is the walking stick that the previous incarnation used.
so based on this, if a buddhist cat were to get curious and therefore die as a direct result of it's curiousity, the next incarnation of the cat will (hopefully) remember that whatever it got curious about last time killed it...
i guess that wouldn't stop it from being curious, only from being curious about what killed it the first time.
now consider over time the cat become curious about something else, and subsequently dies as a direct result and gets re-incarnated...it'll now be wary of two things
consider overtime the cat does this several times...
you'd think that it'd learn to be less curious about things

oh well
that was pretty random wasn't it

there's still the issue of the wedding as well (below)
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i'll get told off if i don't write this...

ok a little back story
10 months ago i was in an unhealthy relationship, as is always the way, i didn't see this at the time and therefore squandered the following opportunity.
10 months ago i met someone who to this day i think about regularly.
10 months ago i met lindsey (aka linny)
a planned holiday to the UK with her friend and a half arranged attempt for us to meet up while she was here before she left didn't hold much hope for me and her to meet, however we exchanged numbers in the hope that she would be able to arrange things that we could meet up.

things worked out that she'd breeze into oxford for the evening on her way to london. just enough time to meet up and have a pint.

but during the evening i flirted with not only lindsey, but also with her friend. this lead to confusion that wasn't fully resolved until last weekend.
and it wasn't until this past weekend that i broke my silence with regards to my true feeling from that night.

lets break it down
when we sat down i didn't sit next to lindsey, i sat next to her friend, this was partly intentional on my part, it's a lot easier to study a person and take in everything about them when you can look at them.
through the evening i found it hard to take my eyes off lindsey, but i think i was doing a pretty good job of not lingering too long
through the evening we had a good time, so much so that the girls cancelled that night's accomodation in london and favoured a night in oxford (they ended up in a hostel, not ideal as i'm sure lindsey will tell you, i initially suggested a motel saying that i'd come and get them in the morning and make sure that they made it to the station safely) i would've offered space in my own home, but at the time i was in the spare bed because i'd been out and if i got home late and woke up her, then my life would've been hell.
at the end of the evening, when i dropped them off at the hostel, we shared a kiss, first i kissed her friend, then i kissed lindsey. she's said tha ti kissed her longer than i kissed her friend, and at that point she half realised that it was her i'd been interested in. at that time i wanted to kiss her much more passionately, but i refrained because of the relationship that i was in.
since that night i've often thought what it would've been like to kiss her that way.
since that night i've had much deeper thoughts about things
since that night i've found myself a little jealous
since that night we've kept in contact
since that night we both hid things from each other about how we both wanted to kiss passionately that night

that is until this past weekend when it all started innocently in a conversation on MSN
and ended up with my inviting FU to be the best man at our vegas wedding, but only if he gets in the elvis suit. venue set and you'd all be invited and it's down to me to pick a date, i'm thinking late september

now i know that it wasn't serious
but there's a big part of me that does hold on to those memories of that evening and there's a bigger part of me kicking myself for not spilling my guts to her sooner or kissing her that night. there's a part of me that would love to marry lindsey
anywhere
anytime

i hope she now knows how i feel
and i hope that she knows that i love her
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man stuff

ok
so i'm a man
i belch
i fart
i scratch myself in public!
deal with it

not i happened to fart in front of my housemate earlier, this isn't the first time i've done it, and i seriously doubt that it will be the last. anyway, being polite, i said "pardon me" as i (nearly) always do in public, i also followed it up with the stunning observation that "i farted"...
to which my housemate said, and i quote, "no shit"
the obvious reply was "no it was a fart, not a shit"

we laughed

i guess you had to be here...

laters
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a whole big pile of randomness

ok
i've got half hour before i need to leave to go to the pub for work...

anyway, that aside, i've got to air a few things
work:
on thursday i went to work...the white van job...only to find that the lorry that delivers to us was running late, i normally leave the depot around half 5 in the morning, that day i left 2 hours late because after the lorry. and the fact that mine was one of the last on the lorry...partly because i'd hepled everyone else ot load up their vans and they'd all buggered off without helping anyone else! so i get to what would be my usual first drop 3 hours after i normally do...i spent the rest of the day trying to catch up with myself so that all the normal stores got their drops when they usually do...i managed it, but i skipped every store that didn't have a delivery. then on friday, breakfast was late as usual, i'm getting fed up with that, but when i went down to my van, the tyre had gone down overnight! i kicked the wheel out of frustration. i found the jack from in the van and the spare tyre (the jack wasn't big enough, the spare is going bald) not that it mattered because once i'd undone all the wheel nuts, i still couldn't get the wheel off the van. i had to call my boss to get someone out to me to help me to take the wheel off...when that bloke eventually got to me i was already 90 minutes late again!! and i'd wrecked my jeans because the jack was covered in oil and it was raining.
enough said!

pub work:
it's going ok...
but only ok
i was late on friday because of the other job
but it wasn't that busy

car:
it's going still running
which is a good thing

i bought guitar hero 2 the other day :)
i've not had chance to play it yet though

i also bought a few dvds, not had time to watch them yet either...

i had a long chat with linny last night
that was awesome :)
and she's finally signed up to facebook too...

getting quite a few people chatting to me on facebook, it's great because some i've not spoken to since 2000 or there abouts

anyway it's nearly time for me to head to work, i need a shave and a wash before i head off too
so laters peeps
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i'm sure

there was something really blog worthy that i was going to write today, but i can't for the life of me remember what it was...

bugger

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and so it's done

ok well honestly nothing's been done for a while
in fact i've done next to nothing all weekend...and that's just how it should be!

yesterday i went searching for a skateboard, no major reason apart from wanting one and thinking that it would be an easier way of getting round than walking everywhere...yes i am that lazy! but i couldn't find one, i found a shop that sold decks, trucks and wheels and all that, but being the lazy sod that i am i didn't get all the parts
i nearly bought a nintendo Wii...thought it would be fun, but didn't thought that i should save my money, but it's still there in my mind :)
also was debating on getting guitar hero 2 for the PS2 with the guitar thing as well, but once again decided not to...
in the end i bought a drink and a kitkat...lol

last night i was going to stop in with jenfer, watch a film and just chill...which we did, then i went out with chunk, who i've not seen for months and we had a really good night out, i got drunk, but not wasted which is always a bonus. and for the first time in ages i actually just switched off and enjoyed myself

so yeah :)
it's better than it has been
part of my wishes i'd got a wii
part of me wishes i'd got guitar hero
all of me knows that saving money was the sensible option!

btw hi to the peeps sneaking in from facebook...you know who you are :)
and hi to the person from bedfordshire who checks in fairly regularly...

laters peeps
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HNT 2fer

ok so i've been kinda promising for a while to show off my new ink and my new piercing...

well seeing as i can't show off both in one pic i'm putting up 2 pics today...

first we have the new ink...

you all remember the fire around the right ankle, yeah? (what do you mean no?...shame on you...oh well it's in this shot too...) well recently (about 6 weeks ago) i added waves to my left ankle and this is the result:

and second we have the new tongue piercing

people keep asking why?

if you have to ask, then you really shouldn't want to know the answer because you're just to innocent... ;)

anyway...HHNT peeps

take it easy

and thanks to those who felt the need to leave a message or get in touch as a result of the previous post...honestly i'm ok, i just needed the space to let it out (if you don't know what i mean, then you really should go and have a read, it's about a serious topic and it would mean a lot to me if you could all just pop along to the next post and take a look, it might help you understand what someone you know is going through)

laters peeps

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it's been a week

only a week, but still, surely you'd think i should've said something since last week!

well it seems blogging buddies are dropping like flies this year
not heard anything from becca for a while, fu has just announced he's turning his back on the blog life and switching to facebook, rawbean slipped out earlier, as did steve novak...
oh well, i'll just add them to the list which also includes woja and tochy...people that con't really blog anymore list

an quick update on the car, i've got it back...it's becoming a money pit though, whihc is pissing me off...think i'll just get rid of it when the work has finished...
yeah that's right, i've got it back, but the works not finished yet...
you remember the comment i made about the bonnet blowing open while the bloke from the garage came to get it...well they've got me a bonnet, and it's a different colour to the original! but they have said that they'll re-spray it for me, so that's ok

work is hectic at the moment

i'm not getting enough sleep at the moment

i'm feeling very lonely most of the time

not a lot else to say at the moment

there was a big report on the radio news today about suicide, and that every day 3 men between 18 and 35 kill themselves in the UK each day, it's the main reason for death in this gender/age bracket... can you believe that? i can...i'm in this age bracket and i've contemplated t many times, from wondering what it would feel like and how much it would hurt to do something like slit my wrists to driving my car way too fast and just rolling it or making it hit a wall to wondering if i'd notice myself slipping away if i took an overdose. the general consensus was that men don't feel like they can talk to anyone about their problems and that they put up a mask of being this happy jovial person when others are around. having been there and done that, it's all true. but it also doesn't help when you think about opening up to someone and that person thinks that you're talking rubbish, or is more concerned in relating every thing that you tell them back into being about them and how difficult their life is and all that. or worse still,the person you're opening up to doesn't take it seriously, they eother focus on one thing that they feel is important (in my case the counsellor that i was seeing took her issue with my family, and seemed to think that my relationship to my siblings and the fact that i referred to them all as brothers and sisters when they are only half brothers and half sisters) or, and this can sometimes be worse, they think that your problems are pathetic, petty or trivial (in my case this related back to the last full time job i had and the fact tat i was less than happy in it, the person i spoke to when i tried to open up about it told me that i was being stupid and that it was all in my head and i should get a grip on myself). these reactions will often lead to the depressed person feeling lower than they do already, and will make them even more introverted when it comes to dealing with the problems that they face. it made me feel worse, it also made me feel less and less comfortable with opening up to people about my issues. i've chosen specific people in the past to help me through rough times, some of these people are still in my life now, some thankfully are not. but even now, knowing that there are people out there who are willing to help and are capable of just listening and offering helpful advice, doesn't mean that i'm willing to open up to them...some of them read this blog, they know that i've called them or texted them when i needed to get something off my chest, but others who read this know that this is used as an outlet for me, and that's part of the way i cope with things. but ever increasingly, im finding that i am becoming more introverted with regards to depression and telling people that i've got a problem and that i am asking for help...because i don't want the reactions that i've had from the people that are no longer around or the sympathy that comes my way too

i know it's tmi tuesday again, but i think the whole thing above covers me for this week with regards to the tmi thing...

laters peeps
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oi!

ok first things first...the image of me in the previous post (my HNT) is NOT my ass/fanny/behind/hinney/butt/arse/backside/bum...it's the crook of my elbow...
it just goes to show that you people are all a little pervy!!!

not doing too great at the moment
in fact i'm really pissed off with a lot of things
my car...not only have i spent over £1000 in the past month trying to get it sorted, but now the battery is completely flat and the alternator is buggered...i broke down twice today trying to get home from work...a journey that is only about 5 miles...if that. the battery was so flat that i couldn't even put on my hazard warning lights...
i am truly pissed off with the fucking machine
so this leads me to my next thing to be pissed off with...
i go back to my mum's to collect my bike, thinking that in the meantime i can use this to get me around...only to find the fucking thing has a puncture...how fucking typical is that?
bastard thing
i'm pissed off with the traffic warden who gave me a ticket this morning for being parked in a taxi rank but let 3 other vehicles off for delivering to shops in a pedestrianised zone out of the regulated hours (i.e. after 10am), in fairness i shouldn't have parked in the taxi rank and paid the ticket without worrying about it
i'm pissed off with my job and working all the hours that which ever god i've pissed off this time is sending...at last count i'm averaging 70 hours a week, at least 2 nights a week i get about 5 hours sleep before i'm up again and struggling to get ready for the next job. factor into this that i'm away with work 2 nights a week too, i rarely spent anytime at my home...and pretty much the only time i see my housemate is during our weekly salsa class...yes i am finally learning to dance the salsa, no it's not the tango that i thought i might be learning at the start of the year, no it's not with tango girl, yes i've not mentioned her in a while, no i'm not interested there anymore

there's a shit load of other little things that are pissing me off no end too...but they're all trivial little things, like the people who drive along in the middle lane of the motorway all the time, regardless of the fact that they're not overtaking anything and refuse to move across into the outside lane (fast lane) when i want to pull out to overtake something in my van, even though that lane is clear

generally not having a good time at the moment
would love dearly to just run away
far away
but i can't
i have responsibilities

by the way, i've been tagged in a couple of pics on facebook (for those of you with it) they're pics of me with jay and silent bob...my dragons, not the kevin smith creations...so you can see them up there.

whinge over
laters
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HNT?

ok i'm trying to get a HNT up for you guys, technically it's thursday here, but i'm not able to get anything on Os's site to say that i'm up because comments are disabled over there to prevent early HNTer's getting in and posting...trouble is i won't be around tomorrow to tell everyone that i'm up either...oh well we'll just have to wing it

this is my HNT for this week...i guess you're all expecting a pic of the tongue or the new tattoo...but alas that's not to be just yet

but i'm giving you this instead

enjoy

and HHNT peeps

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TMI...the return

ok it's tuesday, it's a late TMI
but i'm back and i said i'd TMI when i came back...so here is!!

1. When you orgasm, do you hold your breath?
i've no idea...it's not something that i can ever remember...
2. Have you ever had sex or played around with a celebrity?
nope...although there's a few that i wouldn' mind fooling around with ;)
3. Do you think prostitution should be legal? Why or why not?
prostitution...i think it should be decriminalised and that way you're going to get some form of control over the situation, people are always going to pay for sex, the government may as well get some of it and tax us less...
4. How do you masturbate? Do you romance yourself? Get straight to the point? Read erotic material?
i masturbate with my hand...do i romance myself? no i'm a bloke...romance is something that other people do...
5. Which gives you the most pleasure - intercourse, masturbating for/with your partner, being masturbated by your partner.
i'd have to plump for intercourse (too sterile)..i like fucking
Bonus (as in optional): Have you ever had a crush on a relative?
i had an attractive cousin...but that's it

TMI is done
sorry peeps
and i did it, i got my tongue pierced yesterday
and thanks for the cyber hugs the last couple of days...much needed
laters
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that's life

i spent a lot of yesterday feeling a bit lost and lonely
i say a bit, i mean quite a bit
like really badly lonely

it's a feeling i get a LOT
and it sucks

anyway
i've no idea what's going on in my life at the moment, there are a few things that i'd really like to get off my chest, but i've not idea when i'm going to get time to sort them out...
at the moment i'm considering giving up working in the pub, it's changed there, and it's not for the better. i still enjoy it to an extent, but it's starting to get me down more and more, part of that is because of the hours that i'm working left right and centre too though, so we'll see.
i'm getting my tongue pierced tomorrow i think (well hopefully)
and i'm getting the latest tattoo finished off in a couple of weeks too :)
there's so many things that i want to do at the moment too, but i'm just struggling to get myself settled and i need to do that before i can think about doing these other things...

it's a bit pants at the moment
i need lots of cuddles
laters
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GET IN

yes
yes
it's me

i have finally got my internet hooked up at home
and you know what that means :)

i'll be blogging more often again

i'll be bugging you all again

and i can HNT and TMI again

and basically i'm BACK!!!

so soon i'll be able to show you all about the flat, jay and silent bob, and my new inkwork :)
and everything dull thing else that has been happening in my life

you know it's worth it
anyway i'm going to go and read the most recent posts from you all
cathc up soon
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still alive

hey peeps
just so you know i'm still here
have been so stupidly busy the last week or so
so much to tell you all, but i'm holding on somethings for a little while longer, all will be revealed soon enough though ;)
just called the ISP up about moving home again, i'm hoping that this should all be sorted within the next couple of weeks so that i can get back into all my blogging, TMI and HNT as well. and not forgetting the 365 P(roject)X thing which i've not updated for a while.
once i'm back and alive i promise to swing by all your sites and read back through everything that's been going on
hope everyone's all ok
take care
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here be dragons

ok just a mini update to show you the new additions to my family

ok so you remember last year when i got that cheap vivarium with the intention of buying a snake to live in it...well i changed my mind on the snake, but yesterday i found a use for it and i bought myself a pair of baby bearded dragons, at the moment they're about the size of my thumb (plus tail) but they should get bigger (up to about 20" max). they were going to be called errol and winston, but after having a bit of a kevin smith marathon yesterday they've been christened Jay and Silent Bob :) that's jay in the pic

laters peeps

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proof

i'm still alive :)

i've not been about much and i've still not sorted the phone line or anything in the new place, although i'll be dealing with that this week hopefully

went out last night and it got very messy
i got very drunk
it was an awesome night out though
but very very messy

felt it this morning when i got up

anyway work is a bit mental
but it's nice to be working
and on a monday and thursday evening it's nice ot be able to sit at the beach and eat my fish and chips or whatever take away i'm having that night :)
the pub work is going well too

on the pub front i passed the exam i tok about 3 weeks ago which means i can now apply to hold a personal license, which is just another step on the ladder to running a pub :)

still thinking about where i should go on holiday this year...probably end up going someplace in the uk at this rate...and only for the day!

anyway peeps, it's lunch time and i've got to go and mow the lawn for my mum too, so i'll catch up with you all sometime soon i promise
and linny, i've read your email, i'll reply in the week if i get time, but love and hugs are going out to you
laters
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get this!

i've moved :)

it was made difficult by someone who was just being a pain in the ass for the sake of it i think, but i've moved into my new flat with jenfer :)

so i've almost got my bedroom sorted, then it's the living room to be tackled next...should be ok though

missing a few things, like a freezer and a sofa and chairs, but i'll be searching for them in the coming days/weeks and soon i'll have a place to be jealous of :)

anywaythat's about all i've got time to update at the moment, might be back tomorrow, but we'll have to see, i've got to go to the dentist again tomorrow, should be the last visit for a while though :)

laters peeps
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i'm not fat, but...

it would appear that i hulked out of my jeans earlier :(

bugger! (and that's pocket, not pants!)

laters peeps :)

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disjointed ramblings

lots of little bits and pieces today i guess

i got one easter egg...that was nice :) not eaten it all yet, in fact i only just started it today
(there's a pic of me and it over at the 365 place)

had to work yesterday even though it was a bank holiday and all of the independent places that i should've delivered to were shut, hell half the other stores weren't prepared for me either! everywhere i went yesterday didn't have any returns, nor did anywhere i was at today either apart from 2 places...

i spent yesterday afternoon on the beach...it was a stoney beach though so i didn't get sand anywhere thankfully :)

keep driving past heathrow airport, it's really making me want a holiday! (suggestions still welcome)

i miss doing the quiz :(
but work takes precedence

i've got that cold again :(
it looks like i'm not going to shake it until hayfever season kicks in with avengence and then i'll be plagued by that too...
dammit!

i move this weekend, i've not even thought about packing anything up, gave the ex some boxes for her to pack my stuff into, think it pissed her off a little that i'm moving and want all my furniture and saucepans and crockery and kitchen stuff and all that...but she knew i'd find someplace eventually and that i'd want it all when i did.

got sent a sound clip of a friend of mine singing a song by paulo nutini last night, it was really good, although she'll hate me for saying that, she's made me promise that i won't play it to anyone. i keep my promises
sorry, i want people to hear it

i bought season 2 of lost the other day (didn't watch it when it was on the tv because the ex couldn't understand it and wanted me to tell her what was going on or change channels all the time) started watching that last night in the hotel (the rooms have all got tv/dvd players :)

also bought myself a PSP yesterday, i had some spare cash sloshing around and though it would be something of a treat and it'll keep me entertained while i'm away for work...which is did this morning while i waited 45 minutes for a shop to open...

apart from being ill again, life isn't doing too badly :)
hope everyone had a great easter
i promise to be over ot everyone's blogs this week if i can...
laters
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good friday good times

today i slept in and it was good
yesterday i worked from 5am to 9pm behind the wheel all day
things have been a bit mental this week what with working 2 jobs!

anyway, it's good friday which means that i've got the day off
so i'm going to head out on my bike this afternoon :)

right...i'm sure there's loads of things i've got to up date everyone on, but i can't remember anything for it :(
ok the lack of HNT was made up for, i did actually HNT over on the HNT anon site...PLEASE don't comment mentioning my name as it's the ANONYMOUS site...you must also note that this is a NSFW page...you were warned!

ok seeing as it's friday i'm giving you a massive tune this week, this has been getting a shed load of airtime over the last couple of weeks and it's awesome!
it's also a brilliant commentary on life...just push play and give it a listen, seriously it's worth it!
enjoy :)
i give you "thou shalt always kill" by dan le sac vs scroobius pip

right it's nice and sunny here, so i'm going to head off and enjoy the long weekend.
have a good easter peeps
catch up with you all soon :)
laters
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the weird czech guy

he sat there the other day eating a green pepper (capsicum/bell pepper) like it was an apple...

he was weird

anyway i went out today on my own again and it's odd...when i'm on my own in the van things are ok
all except for the stupid satnav...which today said i was off-roading (in a van, doing 60mph)
don't you just love it when people don't update things for you?

anyway, i heard back from the job interview i had last week, they chose someone with more accounts experience...fair do's, i don't mind
i spoke to the landlord yesterday, he got rid ot the new chef at the weekend, and i told him that seeing as i was seriously considering getting into the trade a lot more i was interested in the chef's position...he's waiting to hear back from someone else first, but thinks i could do it easily... i'll keep you posted on that

hi to anyone who's ventured over from facebook, leave a comment!

i'm not going to be able to HNT tomorrow, until late in the day...although there's a chance that i might appear on a different site in true HNT fashion...more on that later too

right i'm shattered, but i need to jump in the shower and get my butt in gear as i'm at the pub again tonight...all this work, and all i'm thinking about now is the money...give it to me!
dammit now!

anyway, i'm off to get clean and fresh
laters peeps, take care
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PS i'm still open to suggestions for holiday destinations...although i have an idea that might work...more on that too later...

tmi time

ok so i'm back from my over night trip, lets just say it was more than a little pointless and very boring
i so how that i can get a real job sooner rather than later as this one is shit

anyway it's tmi time
so here we go
1. What is your middle name?
Biblical as my parents are and i'm not, i'm named after 2 saints, peter for my first name, john for my middle name
2. Where do you keep your toys? In your nightstand?
I assume we're not talking meccano...
actually i don't have any toys of that nature, i had an ex who did though, her's were kept under the bed
3. How many toys do you have? List them! (links & pictures are nice, too!) =P
again, no toys of that nature, i'm a gadget freak though...but not in a sexual way
4. Are you a swinger? Ever wanted to be?
no, and not really...it's just somehting that's never really appealled to me...
5. When should parents sit children down for the "birds & bees" talk?
whenever they feel that it's appropriate, i know that i started asking awkward questions when i was very young (5 or 6) but never really had the talk until i was 11 or 12

there you go, a harmless TMI this week
anyway i'm working in the pub in about half hour so i'd better head off
i think the next time that i'm going to be able to give you a proper update is going to be thursday...but that depends too
laters peeps
Px

PS i'm thinking it'll soon be time to decide where i should go on holiday so i'm looking for suggestions peeps...

sweet release

it's sunday and i've lept really well the last two nights
it's been bliss
and better than that i've managed to go out both nights and have a good time while only having 2 pints...

so friday night i was supposed to be going out with mates from the pub, we were going into abingdon...but at the same time we were starting in abingdon...which is confusing i'm sure.
anyway i've been taking all sorts of tablets to try and ease this cold away, none have really been working much, but it is getting better... so due to this and the fact that i wasn't really in the mood, i drove over and thought that maybe if ihave a few drinks then i'll kip on the sofa again, or i could drive home later. i chose the latter
i got called weak through facebook because i didn't go out all night...which is fair enough, i called the guy weak last weekend for the same reason...lol

then last night i met up with my soon to be housemate and had a drink with her
she's getting very excited at the prospect that we're becoming housemates, and to be honest i'm looking forwad to it too. she's going to help me find a woman by vetting any that i introduce to her, so i think i'm going to add that into the plan!
we also joked about having dinner parties and things like that, you know, generally being civilised and cultured adults...yeah i can hear you all laughing from here...

get this too, i spent 3 hours emptying the loft yesterday, rooting through years and years worth of rubbish, or treasure depending on how you look at it. i found records, vinyl 7", 10" and 12" stuff dating back to the early 60's if not a little older. i found a record player from the same era that i'm dying to fix and see if i can get it working again...think of the money i could make from these things!!!
i also found my old school reports from when i was like 7...how freaky is that? according to one report at the age of 7 i have a reading age of 9 and a half...see i was intellegent at one point!

anyway, seeing as it's sunday, i've got roast dinner today :) and it's not going to be long, so i'm going to sign off in a minute...
just a warning, because this driving job is proper rubbish, it's unlikely that i'll be blogging on a daily basis any more :( and seeing that this week i've agreed to do a stupid amount of cover at the pub as well, i'm not sure when i'll be able to blog...however when i get my new home (under 2 weeks now) and get it up and running and will likely blog whenever i can...

right, hope you're all enjoying your weekend
take care
Px

Addendum
i forgot to say that even though i'm not going to be blogging every day i will still take a pic of myself every day and post them over on The 365 P(roject)X in bulk when i next can get online

one last thing, i found this on youtube...it was done for comic relief the other week, and because i missed it, i searched youtube for it and now i'm going to share it because it's AWESOME!
enjoy

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